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"malignant" poems
Dear, though the night is gone, Its dream still haunts today, That brought us to a room Cavernous, lofty as A railway terminus, And crowded in that gloom Were beds, and we in one In a far corner lay. Our whisper woke no clocks, We kissed and I was glad At everything you did, Indifferent to those Who sat with hostile eyes In pairs on every bed, Arms round each other's neck, Inert and vaguely sad. O but what worm of guilt Or what malignant doubt Am I the victim of, That you then, unabashed, Did what I never wished, Confessed another love; And I, submissive, felt Unwanted and went out?
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Dear, Though the Night Is Gone
Since you've been away I've trailed the wake of the clouds Just crumbling clay... That lay in the shade that enshrouds Depending on the ifs and mays.    Wake up, my love... Since you haven't been here The sky did nothing but only sang Ambient translations of mocks and jeers As the green blades of earth bared their fangs Mischievous songs that I've held dear.      Wake up, my love... Since you've been gone I've realised that I'm not moving And you too, haven't moved since last dawn A reality all too disheartening Bits of me all cut up and sawn.          Wake up my love... Since you've been missing I am never whole, and never will A lifetime of endless chasing Bottomless jar without a seal Void clustered emptiness in need of filling.             Wake up, my love... Since you've been absent I could only hope for this lungful To lead me to subsequent Ones that taste like bitter pills encapsuled. Mind full of drugs running rampant.                Wake up, my love... Since you wouldn't have known What these days are like... Time induced tumours have grown The hours impale with temporal spikes... Inseminating malignant thoughts soon to be sown.                   Wake up, my love... Since you've been away I'm a player hoping for a fair game Nonetheless still crumbling clay... That lay in the dark just the same Choking on the what ifs and what mays.
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Oct 28, 2014
Oct 28, 2014 at 12:16 PM UTC
Wake Up, My Love
The times here, mind clear removed fear, mind fully-aware they can’t calculate my circumference they try-angle-hate to encompass i’m too persistent consistently consistent my philosophy brilliant they’re mindfully malignant plots thicken and spots pigment perfect gentlemen, acting indecent handed them knowledge, didn't keep it then peep game, telling secrets I’m sure they’re getting seasick its been written, still going off the top the deep-end, the stuck on the plot
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Dec 5, 2014
Dec 5, 2014 at 10:19 PM UTC
Rap verses freestyle
Gendering Woman ******* Beautiful, anatomical part //  Ugly, anatomical part Natural, pleasurable             //   Burdensome, loathsome Female Symbolic                //    Femme Symbolic MALIGNANT                             HEALTHY fearful, tearful, wretched     //  joyful, hopeful, euphoric, bereft, wept, grieving          //  embryonic, rapt, relieving leaving, loss                         //  believing, gain m a y b e - d e a t h                                            r e - b i r t h                                                    BI-LATERAL                                              MASTECTOMIES Operating Theatre SURGEON                                         ANAESTHETIST cleaning/ cutting/ knife/ scalpel   //   doping/ unconscious/ airway blood / tissue                                 //   hypotension loss/ damage                                 //   shock drains                                             //   sinus rhythm stitches                                           //   pain deadening tight binding                                 //   reversal drugs                                      POST-OPERATIVE a l i v e                                                a w a k e draining, bound & stitched               draining, bound & stitched                                             DRAINED                                        ~ UNBOUND                                        -- UNSTITCHED – Empty chest                                                    Flat Chest FREEDOM from Disease                               FREEDOM from Dis-ease © M.L.Emmett
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May 19, 2016
May 19, 2016 at 12:28 PM UTC
Gendering Woman *******
Gendering Woman ******* Beautiful, anatomical part //  Ugly, anatomical part Natural, pleasurable             //   Burdensome, loathsome Female Symbolic                //    Femme Symbolic MALIGNANT                             HEALTHY fearful, tearful, wretched     //  joyful, hopeful, euphoric, bereft, wept, grieving          //  embryonic, rapt, relieving leaving, loss                         //  believing, gain m a y b e - d e a t h                                            r e - b i r t h                                                    BI-LATERAL                                              MASTECTOMIES Operating Theatre SURGEON                                         ANAESTHETIST cleaning/ cutting/ knife/ scalpel   //   doping/ unconscious/ airway blood / tissue                                 //   hypotension loss/ damage                                 //   shock drains                                             //   sinus rhythm stitches                                           //   pain deadening tight binding                                 //   reversal drugs                                      POST-OPERATIVE a l i v e                                                a w a k e draining, bound & stitched               draining, bound & stitched                                             DRAINED                                        ~ UNBOUND                                        -- UNSTITCHED – Empty chest                                                    Flat Chest FREEDOM from Disease                               FREEDOM from Dis-ease © M.L.Emmett
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For racism in this world there should not be a place anywhere For the crimes of one you condemn a whole race but of course there has to be some here and there For some to be racist any excuse they will find Since racism is born of ignorance and ignorance is blind. On your thinking on race you seem so far from right The windows of your soul are shaded to light Like a malignant cancer racism does grow Of this person's race how many do you know? To our idea of perfection we may try to cling But of a perfect race, there is no such a thing Before we learned how to walk we first had to crawl And the reaper one day will take care of us all. Everybody is somebody's daughter or somebody's son And you condemn a whole race for the crimes of one All sinners are obliged to live with their shame And for the sins of the father the son you don't blame.
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Jan 16, 2014
Jan 16, 2014 at 9:42 PM UTC
Racism
You believe your truth  and I'll believe mine But don't you dare tell me how to live,  I'm getting on just fine So long as you don't hurt someone  and it's in your own time Then you believe your truth  and I'll believe mine. You believe your truth  and I'll believe mine. The cancer of the lie  is malignant not benign So how is it that clever people  can be so asinine? For the dictatorship of relativism  has crossed it's only line
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May 21, 2010
May 21, 2010 at 2:40 PM UTC
Dictatorship of relativism
What is freedom? Freedom is the ability to choose for yourself. Freedom is a choice between what is, and what can be. Freedom is empowering others to love themselves. What is your government? Who are these impostors who speak about the need to breath, but won’t let us? Who fights for freedom and equality? No one. These men fight against us for the slice of a pie, lining their pockets as kids in Africa die. The people shouldn't fear their government, the government should fear its people. What is the value of a dollar? Is it the freedom to eat? Or the cement wrapped tight around your feet, water forced between your teeth? Who is freer? The Baker Boy? Scraping by on a dime? Or old man flush with pedigree? Drunk with greed and the taste of fine wine? Freedom is being faced with two equally infallible truths, and choosing deftly between the two, which sounds better to you? Who is freer? Those who choose to drop f-bombs on stage, or those who drop bombs of wisdom in its place? Don’t be discouraged when the one locked down is you, when the wicked wage war in your home terrain, when you struggle back and forth, with the pain of being raised a Jew. Who decides your fate? Who decides your fate when your rent is late? Who decides your fate when you discover your son is gay? Who decides your fate when the crest falls flat? Who decides your fate when the tumor is malignant? Who decides your fate when your sutures fall out? Who decides your fate when you find you've lost your way? Who decides your fate when the embers die down? Who decides your fate when sorrow silently drips across your face? Who decides your fate when the voices inside your head can’t seem to agree? You, your life is yours to create. What bars our freedom? Oppression, Persecution, Indecision, Doubt, Hatred, Contention, Jealousy, Addiction, Pride, And most importantly of all, (Silence) Fear. Yes! Fear is no friend of freedom, Antithesis to the dream. Fear is a struggling shadow, Cast behind us as we gleam. Contrast, Darkness exists through the brightness of the sun. Our predisposition isn't for failure, But bursting forth grasping for freedom’s sake. Don’t settle for sickly shadows, Accept only warm smiles between friends at the end of the day. Do you hear that? That’s the sound of freedom, The march of liberty. Fear isn't the courage to stand up for a friend, Fear isn't the strength to share what you believe in, Fear isn't holding a friends hand when they've lost their sight, Fear isn't within a friend’s victory finding only delight, But freedom is!
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Oct 9, 2013
Oct 9, 2013 at 4:26 AM UTC
To Be Determined
What is freedom? Freedom is the ability to choose for yourself. Freedom is a choice between what is, and what can be. Freedom is empowering others to love themselves. What is your government? Who are these impostors who speak about the need to breath, but won’t let us? Who fights for freedom and equality? No one. These men fight against us for the slice of a pie, lining their pockets as kids in Africa die. The people shouldn't fear their government, the government should fear its people. What is the value of a dollar? Is it the freedom to eat? Or the cement wrapped tight around your feet, water forced between your teeth? Who is freer? The Baker Boy? Scraping by on a dime? Or old man flush with pedigree? Drunk with greed and the taste of fine wine? Freedom is being faced with two equally infallible truths, and choosing deftly between the two, which sounds better to you? Who is freer? Those who choose to drop f-bombs on stage, or those who drop bombs of wisdom in its place? Don’t be discouraged when the one locked down is you, when the wicked wage war in your home terrain, when you struggle back and forth, with the pain of being raised a Jew. Who decides your fate? Who decides your fate when your rent is late? Who decides your fate when you discover your son is gay? Who decides your fate when the crest falls flat? Who decides your fate when the tumor is malignant? Who decides your fate when your sutures fall out? Who decides your fate when you find you've lost your way? Who decides your fate when the embers die down? Who decides your fate when sorrow silently drips across your face? Who decides your fate when the voices inside your head can’t seem to agree? You, your life is yours to create. What bars our freedom? Oppression, Persecution, Indecision, Doubt, Hatred, Contention, Jealousy, Addiction, Pride, And most importantly of all, (Silence) Fear. Yes! Fear is no friend of freedom, Antithesis to the dream. Fear is a struggling shadow, Cast behind us as we gleam. Contrast, Darkness exists through the brightness of the sun. Our predisposition isn't for failure, But bursting forth grasping for freedom’s sake. Don’t settle for sickly shadows, Accept only warm smiles between friends at the end of the day. Do you hear that? That’s the sound of freedom, The march of liberty. Fear isn't the courage to stand up for a friend, Fear isn't the strength to share what you believe in, Fear isn't holding a friends hand when they've lost their sight, Fear isn't within a friend’s victory finding only delight, But freedom is!
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I last saw her in Santiago ******* drunkenly in a Sub urban taverna parading conceited pride in a twisted union with that ********  heinous maniacal harlequin each in vainglorious throes of their imagined septic mindfuck Debauch celebration of collaboration of succubus and incubus Some days she is saying Haloa in Hawaii adorned as Sainti Maria the ***** now as Madonna spewing words like a dove acting like a Nun in a Convent the fiendess with two faces hiding her ****** like the ace in lace the malignant serpent crawling in the duality of her neurosis I last saw her in Santiago In a sanctity of the poisoned insecures with exiguous minds consumed with flaming fears she begs acceptance for inclusion ******* for percieved reflected glory from her fathers' jailers The subjugated souls of chai wallah lives on in grandchildren So when Santi Maria flirts from honey to beehive Ready to ***** and part thighs and brain for minor pointing gun Feel sorry for a damaged child devoid of a prime core never made only obeisance to past rulers whose discarded cast-offs she wears Her poems  enchants but its virulent tools she takes in her body I last saw her in Santiago A slaved two-faced pretender who sings like a nightingale In sub urban dives she postrates to friendly pats and gropes Melting creeps and hot tigers begging subs for a heady drink Brilliant yet blindsided to **** on knees as her children will too Copyright@LaurenceA20thSept2018Allrightsreserved.
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Sep 21, 2018
Sep 21, 2018 at 9:03 PM UTC
I Call Her Santiago.....
Poppies blossom like open cuts. Ripe and red, they fill the air With a cloying sweetness So potent anyone downwind Must shut their eyes and breathe Through open mouths. Tasting The breath of flowers, they grow Nauseous and afraid. The fields sway in the hot breeze Until they resemble an ocean aflame - It is here, among these poppies, I have Found the blood of the Earth. It is moist and toxic, an acid eating away the soles Of all that wade through it. How many gaunt, pale bundles of bone Rest below these soft, red petals? No one dares to count. People do not fear such Lovely things - if they’ve only seen Pictures. How nice it must be To know nothing of poppies But their color, their shape. They seem almost beautiful - But you know better. You have stood waist deep in the Malignant fields, breathing the air That slowed your limbs - Turning your arms and legs into pendulums Swaying to the beat of the buds That encircle them - Until you knelt, weighed down, Nearly submerged by saccharine terrors, And cried, hoping the water leaking from your heart Would put out the fires you find yourself embracing. After all, during the darker hours Any light is better than no light at all (Or so something whispers in your tired ear). You know the horror of poppies - But still you have yet to plunge Past the black eyes of those red beasts - For when the wind blows clean, cold Air to you what do you do? You raise your arms and let yourself Feel as though you can fly - And one day…one day You will look down And see yourself above A ground free of poppies.
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Oct 24, 2014
Oct 24, 2014 at 3:48 AM UTC
Poppies
Poppies blossom like open cuts. Ripe and red, they fill the air With a cloying sweetness So potent anyone downwind Must shut their eyes and breathe Through open mouths. Tasting The breath of flowers, they grow Nauseous and afraid. The fields sway in the hot breeze Until they resemble an ocean aflame - It is here, among these poppies, I have Found the blood of the Earth. It is moist and toxic, an acid eating away the soles Of all that wade through it. How many gaunt, pale bundles of bone Rest below these soft, red petals? No one dares to count. People do not fear such Lovely things - if they’ve only seen Pictures. How nice it must be To know nothing of poppies But their color, their shape. They seem almost beautiful - But you know better. You have stood waist deep in the Malignant fields, breathing the air That slowed your limbs - Turning your arms and legs into pendulums Swaying to the beat of the buds That encircle them - Until you knelt, weighed down, Nearly submerged by saccharine terrors, And cried, hoping the water leaking from your heart Would put out the fires you find yourself embracing. After all, during the darker hours Any light is better than no light at all (Or so something whispers in your tired ear). You know the horror of poppies - But still you have yet to plunge Past the black eyes of those red beasts - For when the wind blows clean, cold Air to you what do you do? You raise your arms and let yourself Feel as though you can fly - And one day…one day You will look down And see yourself above A ground free of poppies.
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psychologism, i.e. neo-racism, neo- due to it being without any collective ethnic collectivisation, best insinuated by marijuana users, grouping alcoholics with ****** sharp shooters; they think they have the moral high ground, but they talk jack sh-: medicinal marijuana is synthetic marijuana / ore without casual-use effects, it's not the sh- you put in your **** have a *** change and tell me about children suffering from cancer while you're at it: because those starving children of africa adverts... are really really working... knowing that the man in control of such charities earns over half a million a year - post-colonialism only really works while you have former colonial indigenous peoples nearby, then you can milk that ***** cow from the locals... make sure you think the nairobi international airport has a dirt runway and you'll feel all ******* fuzzy giving money to these companies... post-colonialism only works like that... import some former colonials to milk the former colonial whites into coughing up money & guilt... then watch the irish get leery with sarcasm at almost anything... and the scots gear up pride and become politically malignant... the good friday agreement? tony blair did as much as / avoiding-tax cigarettes smuggled from eastern europe west of the ural mountains exchanged in belfast... but geographic borders were never used in rhetoric in politics... because ireland was always further west than iceland: as oaths go... it was a neighbour of liberty iseland... with the true statue of liberty in a moulin rouge cancan attire, skirt up, flame extinguished - although ***** as hell: and in koranic reality, requiring a harem for her three holes.
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Dec 25, 2015
Dec 25, 2015 at 10:22 PM UTC
marijuana optional
psychologism, i.e. neo-racism, neo- due to it being without any collective ethnic collectivisation, best insinuated by marijuana users, grouping alcoholics with ****** sharp shooters; they think they have the moral high ground, but they talk jack sh-: medicinal marijuana is synthetic marijuana / ore without casual-use effects, it's not the sh- you put in your **** have a *** change and tell me about children suffering from cancer while you're at it: because those starving children of africa adverts... are really really working... knowing that the man in control of such charities earns over half a million a year - post-colonialism only really works while you have former colonial indigenous peoples nearby, then you can milk that ***** cow from the locals... make sure you think the nairobi international airport has a dirt runway and you'll feel all ******* fuzzy giving money to these companies... post-colonialism only works like that... import some former colonials to milk the former colonial whites into coughing up money & guilt... then watch the irish get leery with sarcasm at almost anything... and the scots gear up pride and become politically malignant... the good friday agreement? tony blair did as much as / avoiding-tax cigarettes smuggled from eastern europe west of the ural mountains exchanged in belfast... but geographic borders were never used in rhetoric in politics... because ireland was always further west than iceland: as oaths go... it was a neighbour of liberty iseland... with the true statue of liberty in a moulin rouge cancan attire, skirt up, flame extinguished - although ***** as hell: and in koranic reality, requiring a harem for her three holes.
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for you, we bundle into the car, the littlest (half my brother and twice my nuisance) and the middlest (14 going on favorite) the bitterest (only girl and pen-in-hand) and the biggestest (20 years of bombastic nonsense) 30 minutes and four cornfields later he'll start. "i have to *** "there's a bottle up there, dad." "dad, i have to *** "dad." "dad." "dad." and he's going to *** in that ******* bottle which will inevitably stay in the car for the remaining 8 and a half hours, sloshing and yellow too dangerously close to the color of something you would actually drink. the two youngest will get into some sort of argument some sort of argument that i will intervene in. "shut up!" he'll say. "chill out!" i'll shout. "you chill out!" and my father and my stepmother will eye from the front seat until one of them turns around ("relax, madeline!" sharply). and then the oldest like clockwork will act like he knows more than he does about something (my father will just chuckle, but i'll begin, "bullsh-" i'll begin, but my stepmother will hiss, "madeline!" as if i've killed somebody even though the 8-year-old curses even worse than i do). he'll make a face at me and i'll make a face at him. the littlest will inevitably stomp on my seatbelt about 30 times a second which i will not be able to stand, and we'll get into an argument which will turn into me versus the whole car (afterwards, much stewing, and resentfully cranking my ipod up as loud as it will go). 9 hours and 12 thousand cliff-faces later we'll get there. we'll make it. we'll only be a little worse for the wear. we will be swept up by our twelve billion aunts our nine billion uncles and our three billion cousins, like we always are. someday something will be missing. first it was your back, and the postponement, and eventual cancellation of our trip. then it was your surgeries (why weren't they working?) and then it was a series of words i don't understand stage                                                                                                           inoperable                                             3                                                                                                                      cancerous                                                      mass lung                             malignant                                                                                                               radiation                                                  therapy                                                                                                                          chemo you may crumple in on that blackness inside you, that's eating you alive one lung at a time, pushing, on your back, until you can't even stand. the fabric of our family is plucked by this disease. this is my poem, my plea for you and for us, that you not pull into the blackness, and that you fight the tumors and the tests and that you win.
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Jul 31, 2012
Jul 31, 2012 at 10:42 AM UTC
the fabric of our family
for you, we bundle into the car, the littlest (half my brother and twice my nuisance) and the middlest (14 going on favorite) the bitterest (only girl and pen-in-hand) and the biggestest (20 years of bombastic nonsense) 30 minutes and four cornfields later he'll start. "i have to *** "there's a bottle up there, dad." "dad, i have to *** "dad." "dad." "dad." and he's going to *** in that ******* bottle which will inevitably stay in the car for the remaining 8 and a half hours, sloshing and yellow too dangerously close to the color of something you would actually drink. the two youngest will get into some sort of argument some sort of argument that i will intervene in. "shut up!" he'll say. "chill out!" i'll shout. "you chill out!" and my father and my stepmother will eye from the front seat until one of them turns around ("relax, madeline!" sharply). and then the oldest like clockwork will act like he knows more than he does about something (my father will just chuckle, but i'll begin, "bullsh-" i'll begin, but my stepmother will hiss, "madeline!" as if i've killed somebody even though the 8-year-old curses even worse than i do). he'll make a face at me and i'll make a face at him. the littlest will inevitably stomp on my seatbelt about 30 times a second which i will not be able to stand, and we'll get into an argument which will turn into me versus the whole car (afterwards, much stewing, and resentfully cranking my ipod up as loud as it will go). 9 hours and 12 thousand cliff-faces later we'll get there. we'll make it. we'll only be a little worse for the wear. we will be swept up by our twelve billion aunts our nine billion uncles and our three billion cousins, like we always are. someday something will be missing. first it was your back, and the postponement, and eventual cancellation of our trip. then it was your surgeries (why weren't they working?) and then it was a series of words i don't understand stage                                                                                                           inoperable                                             3                                                                                                                      cancerous                                                      mass lung                             malignant                                                                                                               radiation                                                  therapy                                                                                                                          chemo you may crumple in on that blackness inside you, that's eating you alive one lung at a time, pushing, on your back, until you can't even stand. the fabric of our family is plucked by this disease. this is my poem, my plea for you and for us, that you not pull into the blackness, and that you fight the tumors and the tests and that you win.
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some greedy little bitter man has put together a picture-perfect person and out of pure laziness and malignant attempts at control he pays off a psychopath to make it happen but we’re just a little body, flesh and bones come between them and their paychecks so why not make it easier? they made a factory out of our garden and nothing grows in factories it’s manufactured, easy as one two three four five six, we’re all sitting on an assembly line waiting for some alcoholic man to shout at some pimply-faced twenty-something “FASTER! FASTER!” so it begins! press of a button, we’re created, step one: your parents were given the baby books, kids! infants, they’re all the same anyways. they’re not individuals yet, they haven’t been encoded so relax, parents. want them turn out like you? sure, do what your parents did, worked out well, eh? been occupying this factory your whole life, then? well anyways, step two: they spend less time with you because you’ve been in this world for three years so it’s time you get out on your own…. step three: they gotta YELL and scream and children aren’t supposed to touch things or say things or scrape their knees because that’s more work for the adults, and they work all day, just like they were programmed for, good little machines 'cause they forgot what it’s like to be a baby or an animal or a plant or a God but also the resentment, a child wants to live but how ridiculous? there’s no life in industry… all about the money baby step four: you buy your education because it builds your character because money says power but when did meaningless power equal respect? I don't know but they force you into reading the same old instruction pamphlets left in the break room at the plant for the past century or so and five: your turn to work for fourty years in this polluted place because it’s hard to break free from twenty-three years of moulding into a cookie cutter you never did fit, that’s why it hurts so much when they try to push you through, your muffin-top is sliced right off and you’re contorted to fit the view of perfect sugary sweetness but just to make sure you're ready they coat you with vanilla icing to cover up your imperfections, perfect, now step six, and this one is the doozy, and because you’re **** broke: go back to mom and dad’s and grab those baby books and again and again and again the cycle repeats and repeats and repeats….
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Dec 12, 2011
Dec 12, 2011 at 9:03 PM UTC
pessimistic perspectives of a poor, poor place
some greedy little bitter man has put together a picture-perfect person and out of pure laziness and malignant attempts at control he pays off a psychopath to make it happen but we’re just a little body, flesh and bones come between them and their paychecks so why not make it easier? they made a factory out of our garden and nothing grows in factories it’s manufactured, easy as one two three four five six, we’re all sitting on an assembly line waiting for some alcoholic man to shout at some pimply-faced twenty-something “FASTER! FASTER!” so it begins! press of a button, we’re created, step one: your parents were given the baby books, kids! infants, they’re all the same anyways. they’re not individuals yet, they haven’t been encoded so relax, parents. want them turn out like you? sure, do what your parents did, worked out well, eh? been occupying this factory your whole life, then? well anyways, step two: they spend less time with you because you’ve been in this world for three years so it’s time you get out on your own…. step three: they gotta YELL and scream and children aren’t supposed to touch things or say things or scrape their knees because that’s more work for the adults, and they work all day, just like they were programmed for, good little machines 'cause they forgot what it’s like to be a baby or an animal or a plant or a God but also the resentment, a child wants to live but how ridiculous? there’s no life in industry… all about the money baby step four: you buy your education because it builds your character because money says power but when did meaningless power equal respect? I don't know but they force you into reading the same old instruction pamphlets left in the break room at the plant for the past century or so and five: your turn to work for fourty years in this polluted place because it’s hard to break free from twenty-three years of moulding into a cookie cutter you never did fit, that’s why it hurts so much when they try to push you through, your muffin-top is sliced right off and you’re contorted to fit the view of perfect sugary sweetness but just to make sure you're ready they coat you with vanilla icing to cover up your imperfections, perfect, now step six, and this one is the doozy, and because you’re **** broke: go back to mom and dad’s and grab those baby books and again and again and again the cycle repeats and repeats and repeats….
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buried behind a wall of complacency my contentment boils -- steams like pots of cleansing tea-- in the constant cold pass the peace pipe over the bones of my enemies. my rebellion is rooted deep within my veins                                        {burried under tact and sweet smiles}  but ready to return the blood of warrior women waiting to return runs within me- my abilities are their evolution from the color of my eyes to my tolerance for pain-- rooted into my skullspinesoul in a field of dinosaur bones- only the strong survive the cold this ever present frost follows me like the windigo; its return deep in the decemberjanuaryfebuary ache of my bones a disease malignant in the deep r               u n n        i         n             g tap-roots of elms-  etched into time like                skeletons in the ice tested {thawing} with every return of this ******* season, evolving from the lifeless bones of trees to the wings of birds brittle, but strong; bundled with love(hate) protecting me from the cold letting go, but wanting them to fall back like cigarette ashes in the wind this is no place or time in my life for slow acceptance but I find safety in the muscle bound bones aware, lying (insomniac), waiting for someone to breathe life into the marrow. my love- deep, engrained, rooted the pulse of human heat keeping me from the cold will I ever change? bundled against the cold, the cracking of my bones is like the creaking of the dead trees i stare up at with their songs of change and the end of fears never to thaw out again
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Nov 14, 2012
Nov 14, 2012 at 10:41 PM UTC
pass the peace pipe
buried behind a wall of complacency my contentment boils -- steams like pots of cleansing tea-- in the constant cold pass the peace pipe over the bones of my enemies. my rebellion is rooted deep within my veins                                        {burried under tact and sweet smiles}  but ready to return the blood of warrior women waiting to return runs within me- my abilities are their evolution from the color of my eyes to my tolerance for pain-- rooted into my skullspinesoul in a field of dinosaur bones- only the strong survive the cold this ever present frost follows me like the windigo; its return deep in the decemberjanuaryfebuary ache of my bones a disease malignant in the deep r               u n n        i         n             g tap-roots of elms-  etched into time like                skeletons in the ice tested {thawing} with every return of this ******* season, evolving from the lifeless bones of trees to the wings of birds brittle, but strong; bundled with love(hate) protecting me from the cold letting go, but wanting them to fall back like cigarette ashes in the wind this is no place or time in my life for slow acceptance but I find safety in the muscle bound bones aware, lying (insomniac), waiting for someone to breathe life into the marrow. my love- deep, engrained, rooted the pulse of human heat keeping me from the cold will I ever change? bundled against the cold, the cracking of my bones is like the creaking of the dead trees i stare up at with their songs of change and the end of fears never to thaw out again
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Lost in the land Of pretending to be grand Saving their conceit For their nearest and dearest Every malignant narcissist Has two middle names: One is "Abuser" The other is "Slanderer" And they live in the shadow Of a deep, unbearable shame That makes them shameless.
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Dec 24, 2011
Dec 24, 2011 at 1:47 PM UTC
Narcissus
they taught us to fear without learning to fear us we're reaping the whirlwind they've sown between us one day they'll realise they didn't defeat us we are on the inside their malignant fetus
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May 14, 2017
May 14, 2017 at 4:55 PM UTC
we the people (us, not the US)
The sad part is that most of us, writers, are almost ashamed to say it out loud. We do it like a bad habit we can't escape. ****** junkies with the leash around our necks. Treat it like a disfigurement; our malignant entries spread like cancer from under our pathetic, hypocritical hands. We're sad. Depressed. "Heart broken". Angst ridden. Jaded. Coping. Coping. Learning to cope, but often failing. Stepping on each other; a sea of cadavers with no bottom, surface, or center. Full of brilliance/ brighter than the sun. Collectively, we are a diamond made from **** A uselessly expensive commercial good, nonetheless. The next Bukowski will be a child molester, or a sociopathic spree killer. Too bad no one wants to be the great writer of course. What greater shame could there be? What bigger embarrassment could exist? What insult and tragedy is more than being a writer?
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Apr 27, 2014
Apr 27, 2014 at 3:47 AM UTC
"Crab-Handed "
If I could speak I would spill these lamentations cloistered sins and secrets whispered vespers for wretched dreams Retching sentiment this malignant manifesto a macabre mantra eats my skin from within transient refuge for temporal treasures inexorable moments carry life away tick tick tick the seconds scurry flurried ineffectual supplications demigods of affluence the cacophony of the machine I spin within cogniscient of my myopia the funneled tunnel vision drips from the end of a pen furtive verses on paper fading ochre moments somber drops of ash and bone poetic exorcisms of wicked things unknown phrenetic sensibilities trickle spilling life black and withering is the gain worth sacrifice crackling fat of dreams too costly this shallow palette self obsessed eyes gouged out hands shackled to the reality the immortality trust the dust the dust becomes me soul focused on decay spectre death devouring this unsparked spirit If I could speak truth into your heart would you believe..... in anything more than what you see I trust the dust and dust will be the remnant me TL Boehm 042508
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Oct 14, 2013
Oct 14, 2013 at 5:11 PM UTC
If I could Speak
’Twas on a lofty vase’s side, Where China’s gayest art had dyed The azure flowers that blow, Demurest of the tabby kind, The pensive Selima, reclined, Gazed on the lake below. Her conscious tail her joy declared; The fair round face, the snowy beard, The velvet of her paws, Her coat, that with the tortoise vies, Her ears of jet, and emerald eyes, She saw; and purred applause. Still had she gazed; but ’midst the tide Two angel forms were seen to glide, The genii of the stream: Their scaly armour’s Tyrian hue Through richest purple to the view Betrayed a golden gleam. The hapless nymph with wonder saw: A whisker first, and then a claw, With many an ardent wish, She stretched, in vain, to reach the prize. What female heart can gold despise? What cat’s averse to fish? Presumptuous maid! with looks intent Again she stretched, again she bent, Nor knew the gulf between: (Malignant Fate sat by, and smiled) The slippery verge her feet beguiled, She tumbled headlong in. Eight times emerging from the flood She mewed to ev’ry wat’ry god Some speedy aid to send. No dolphin came, no nereid stirred; Nor cruel Tom, nor Susan heard. A fav’rite has no friend! From hence, ye beauties undeceived, Know, one false step is ne’er retrieved, And be with caution bold. Not all that tempts your wand’ring eyes And heedless hearts is lawful prize; Nor all that glisters, gold.
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On The Death Of A Favourite Cat, Drowned In A Tub Of Gold Fishes
Malignant gazes warped the the fabric of the air around me. I couldn't do anything but tell her that to wish upon a dying star                           will never end well. The atrocity that clung to the ships hull, was no less human now than     the artificial meat 3d printed.. It taste liked chicken, but..             there were no eggs in space. Words like plasma cannons fired around me bouncing off the walls. Ok, ok listen I didn't do this to you! Your the penny that could pay the price, and this is your tarnished self pity. I wasn't having any of her grief,        though it could vacate me with ease. Standing before her I said I could less cure her than breath in space.. With that she raged in a language of ferocious exasperation. I knew that it was time to vacate her need for some sort of vengeance. I'd got the necklace on under my garments. Pointing my pistol at her, she smirked,              then a gargled laugh spat out. That toy cant harm me, is this your last stand what a pointless endeavour.. Now it was my turn to smirk,         I don't know if it was panic or confusion to why I was laughing.             like a hyena knowing that the pray had just cornered itself. With that I shot past her, like a random act, I still laughed loudly. And then a buckling ache approached. As the hull cleaved open like a piñata hit feverishly by an excited child.   As we where exhumed from our coffin, suffocating in the emptiness of my actions. I could see her fear, no matter her augmentations, nothing could survive the vacuum of space. I pressed upon my chest, my nanite suit encompassing me.             I was like a new born taking a first breath Looking at this sorrowful figure, floating in to the abyss. I knew I was partly to blame. But now was not the time for respective thoughts. This was about survival, and I used the small thrusters to edge closely to the air lock.                        Time to move on, time to breath deeply.
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Mar 14, 2019
Mar 14, 2019 at 7:00 PM UTC
When The Past Isn't Welcoming
Malignant gazes warped the the fabric of the air around me. I couldn't do anything but tell her that to wish upon a dying star                           will never end well. The atrocity that clung to the ships hull, was no less human now than     the artificial meat 3d printed.. It taste liked chicken, but..             there were no eggs in space. Words like plasma cannons fired around me bouncing off the walls. Ok, ok listen I didn't do this to you! Your the penny that could pay the price, and this is your tarnished self pity. I wasn't having any of her grief,        though it could vacate me with ease. Standing before her I said I could less cure her than breath in space.. With that she raged in a language of ferocious exasperation. I knew that it was time to vacate her need for some sort of vengeance. I'd got the necklace on under my garments. Pointing my pistol at her, she smirked,              then a gargled laugh spat out. That toy cant harm me, is this your last stand what a pointless endeavour.. Now it was my turn to smirk,         I don't know if it was panic or confusion to why I was laughing.             like a hyena knowing that the pray had just cornered itself. With that I shot past her, like a random act, I still laughed loudly. And then a buckling ache approached. As the hull cleaved open like a piñata hit feverishly by an excited child.   As we where exhumed from our coffin, suffocating in the emptiness of my actions. I could see her fear, no matter her augmentations, nothing could survive the vacuum of space. I pressed upon my chest, my nanite suit encompassing me.             I was like a new born taking a first breath Looking at this sorrowful figure, floating in to the abyss. I knew I was partly to blame. But now was not the time for respective thoughts. This was about survival, and I used the small thrusters to edge closely to the air lock.                        Time to move on, time to breath deeply.
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Whenever I'm around my family, I get this low kind of feeling. My family is full with the kind of people that become vps, investment bankers, nurses, lawyers. me: little ******** that smokes **** calls himself "a writer", and doesn't like to have long conversations about his future. I am not one of them, I am not a black sheep, or a black pharmacist, or a black lawyer. I am something that wants to become something, when I am unsure of what that something is. A continual rebirth of somethings likening myself to God with so much internal creation. This is malignant to my family's ideals of self-assuredness and placement, brutal placement in America.
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Nov 23, 2011
Nov 23, 2011 at 5:18 PM UTC
Family.
The malignant light blinds me into a drunken haze, intoxicating my toes until my body begins to dance, thoughtlessly Eyes closed, arms open, godly, peaceful, strong Why doesn't everyone raise their arms to the grateful sky and soak in the golden bath of golden sun, to feel for once in their lives golden Why do I seem alone in my gentle ****** curve while they seem bland and gray, straight lined lips across their face, a line of soldiers, unforgiving and unbreakable. Why do I only feel joy? Thoughts shoot through me like tommy gun bullets through the streets of old Chicago, covered in hot blood, hot money, and hot nights. Drugs in my veins, matches in my pockets, all eyes on me and my mafia heart raising a pistol to my brain and conquering its control. Baby I like it, the way I move through the floor, seeing the monsters that weren’t there before, descending into maniacal darkness unknown, smiling while I’m screaming, never alone Sunshine, you are mine, my arms coddle you close, the sunshine endlessly streaming through my fingertips, a buzzing crescendo of ecstasy. You are all mine. This perfect heart contained in the cavity of this body overbeats, skipping steps, tumbling forward, 800 miles per hour, too fast to be caught by the blue-sheilded men who wish to stop it. Stop this heart and stop the world, for it is its red hot core. Pompous, conceited, it paints itself across my soul, yet I cannot contain what my emotions do, a little twisted, a little crazy, a little unwell. And then I crash again.
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Jun 2, 2013
Jun 2, 2013 at 6:57 PM UTC
Mafia Heart
The malignant light blinds me into a drunken haze, intoxicating my toes until my body begins to dance, thoughtlessly Eyes closed, arms open, godly, peaceful, strong Why doesn't everyone raise their arms to the grateful sky and soak in the golden bath of golden sun, to feel for once in their lives golden Why do I seem alone in my gentle ****** curve while they seem bland and gray, straight lined lips across their face, a line of soldiers, unforgiving and unbreakable. Why do I only feel joy? Thoughts shoot through me like tommy gun bullets through the streets of old Chicago, covered in hot blood, hot money, and hot nights. Drugs in my veins, matches in my pockets, all eyes on me and my mafia heart raising a pistol to my brain and conquering its control. Baby I like it, the way I move through the floor, seeing the monsters that weren’t there before, descending into maniacal darkness unknown, smiling while I’m screaming, never alone Sunshine, you are mine, my arms coddle you close, the sunshine endlessly streaming through my fingertips, a buzzing crescendo of ecstasy. You are all mine. This perfect heart contained in the cavity of this body overbeats, skipping steps, tumbling forward, 800 miles per hour, too fast to be caught by the blue-sheilded men who wish to stop it. Stop this heart and stop the world, for it is its red hot core. Pompous, conceited, it paints itself across my soul, yet I cannot contain what my emotions do, a little twisted, a little crazy, a little unwell. And then I crash again.
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*Heated... Like the fevered blood coursing through veins Malignant... Like open sores upon the skin Defeated... Like the drums that faltered in the rain Potent... Like the potion quietly bunged within Temporary... Like the promise doomed never to be kept Hasty... Like the mouth which spoke too quick Greedy... Like the palms, too eager to accept Dead... Like the heart that now refused to tick*
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Mar 23, 2017
Mar 23, 2017 at 8:01 AM UTC
Depression (IV)
I scrutinized the miserable wretch harnessed to the table Polished my knuckle with his murk, malice, and fable                              Placing a centipede on his stomach as it shuffled to his eye Languidly impending horror as he begged me to die                                 I put pressure on his abdominal with the ball of my hand Took a breath to my diluted lungs as the boy’s jawline ran                           Tantalizing screams of dread, poor boy fastened on steel bed   I protruded my hand deep and to his intestines, it fed                                           My malignant clasp ripped and mangled as it went Like the centipede too, itched and mangled as it went                                  And as his entrails to, like sizeable centipedes they went In a ****** stream of fluids crawling and sprawling as they went I bound up with glee as my poor wretch lay be, and I swung him head-toe to a pit Where billions of legs crawl, but human ones not at all, a realm where arthropods permit
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Feb 17, 2014
Feb 17, 2014 at 10:34 PM UTC
The Centipede Pit
They'll find me hanging upside-down. Ankles bruised by the ropes From which you strung me up for field dressing. Lacerations where you’d cut my throat, Bled me dry, spilt my guts, And broke past my ribs, to uproot my heart. Can they carbon date the remains of my reputation? Trace the ****** back to your mouth? Will they know the cause of death to be the Malignant rumors you couldn’t help but spew? Your false words: the final nail in my coffin. Do you regret ever letting them past your lips? Slowly, my reputation crippled by the aggressive Cancer that was your embellished utterance. And it didn’t bother you in the slightest. You marveled at the sight of my struggle. And amazing how these things seem to spread. One caustic, contagious, breath from you was all it took. Though the slanderous virus wouldn't make it 'til morning; Addicts to their fix; gossips, crave your empty words. Like ******* the rush is intense but brief. Interest fleeting, they move on. Off to the next peddler. For all these inconveniences, I thank you. Thank you for lifting the masks that curtained your distorted self. How blind I must have been not to see it outright. Another leech, feeding on slighted words. And to think; all it costed you to buy in Was me...
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Mar 9, 2015
Mar 9, 2015 at 8:10 AM UTC
Malignant Rumor