Why is it that I'm never be seen?
I'm the only one that doesn't  gleam,
Through my joyful, happy disguise,
Can't you see the pain in my eyes?

Though still I have friends,
But I locked in my head,
Hurtful words they never said.

You made me feel worthless,
Like I'm the odd one out,
But on the inside,
I have won.

It's been a year since first time I've met you,
I don't know how to explain,
It's late at night,
And I still can't get you out of my mind,
I remember when I saw you,
I couldn't believe my eyes you were so beautiful,
Nice looking,
That perfect smile,
I just couldn't believe it,
At the moment,
I didn't know if I were dreaming or what,
But you were the most amazing girl in the room,
I almost had you in all my classes,
But I was too scared, and shy to approach you,
And now,
Its like, if I don't say,
"Hi I feel like if I was,  I'm the darkest place in some universe where you are my sun"

I just feel so much guilt,
My words and actions built,
I know, what I did was wrong,
Tried to avoid it and be strong.

Following me has been the truth,
It was hurting like a tooth.
A second more, I could not deny,
Not apologising was a lie.

I'm sorry, from deep inside,
Clearly guilty, my hands are tied.
It was obviously, all my fault,
I have opened my inner vault.

I'm really sorry for my recent actions,
Selfishly searching for your reactions.
What I did wasn't kin,
I don't know what got into my mind.

Something wrong with my psychology,
From my heart I bring this apology.
I know there are no valid excuses,
Negative feelings arguments produces.

I'm really sorry, I truly care,
What I did was completely unfair,
Hope you forgive me over time,
I feel awful about my crime.

Please  give me a chance to explain,
What I did was completely vain.
It was clearly way beyond rude,
Completely stupid, I must conclude.

I used words, I did not mean,
I need to stop-acting fifteen.
My actions and words, simply not right,
I'm sorry for my anger and spite.

Please give me a chance to explain,
There must be something wrong with my brain.
My emotions, I must learn to control,
And never hurt you, this is my goal.

I look in the mirror, feel so much shame.
It was my fault, I deserve all the blame.
Just don't know what I was thinking,
With all this shame, I feel like I'm sinking.

All the consequences, I completely deserve,
Can't imagine, where I found the nerve,
I just feel like the biggest fool,
What I did, was simply not cool.

Your forgiveness, I earnestly plead,
Without it, my heart won't be freed.
Please forgive me, I miss you so much,
Beautiful voice and your tender touch.

I agree, I was wrong,
Wish I could, sing a song,
I know you're are mad,
What I did was bad.

Nothing about it, I'm proud,
I was trying to impress the crowd.
Next time I should really thing,
Maybe even see a shrink

What I'm trying to say,
My love for you grow everyday.
We should never fight,
I need to hold you every night.

I've been lucky to have a girl like you,
I'm sorry if you only knew.
Feel so bad, for being so rude,
I'm sorry for messing up your mood.

I promise to treat you like a Queen,
I'm sorry for being so mean.
If only somehow, I could make things better,
This poem's from my heart, not just a letter.

Your inner and outer beauty amaze,
I'm sorry, for my crazy phase.
I wish to give you my entire heart,
Please forgive me, we could make new start.

If I wore a suit and tie,
And buy you anything that you want,
Would you leave that naked man for me,
Who gave you his clothes, when you had none?

What if I gave you a ring for each finger,
But his life savings could only afford the cheapest one,
Wouldn't you just throw the ring back into cereal box where it is basically came out from?

If you passed away I would remarry,
While he'll probably sulk at your grave everyday,
But I would make your wedding dream comes true,
Would you rather do in his backyard,
With all those plants in the way?

Tell me young lady who would you chose,
Show the world what love means to you.

Choose him she should,
But,
Choose him she didn't.

She chose a man who could give her everything,
But not love,
Instead,
Of choosing a man who could give her love,
Over everything else.

When I see her,
Lust fills my heart,
Imaginations on my mind,
All of her body parts.

When we're alone,
My heart beats fast,
I try to keep to myself,
But her curves, I must embrace.

As we past down this path,
Where point of no return,
I notice her eyes full of fear,
Her trust I'll need to earn.

For thou I wish not to hurt,
Nor do I wish to scar,
Something so fragile,
Must I not go too far.

If this her first,
For it is surely mine,
I'll do my best,
To ensure it sublime.

I don't believe in hope,
Hope is only a feeling of expectation,
A desire for a certain thing to happen,
If hoping too high,
I'll crumble easily towards failure.

I don't even need sympathy,
Because there will be no desire,
Loves aren't remarkable if based on pity.

For me,
All I need is chance,
Chance to earn your faith,
Chance to build up trust,
Chance to know you better,
Chance to grow older together.

Just give me chance to love you better,
Give me chance to build up spark and desire,
To give all my love to you forever.

Give me chance dear crush,
Give me chance to enter your life,
Give me chance to win your heart,
Give me chance to fulfill your dreams,
Where I'll be the king and you'll be the queen.

Infatuation,
Is that a real feeling?

Oh, I still remember the first time I took a glance at you,
Your smile,  
Your eyes,
Seems perfect for me,
For that very moment, I thought I was in heaven.

Only if I have guts to expressed my feelings towards you,
I won't even be in this mess,
I won't.

Oh, let me be a dreamer,
At least in my dream I could dreamed,
Its the only place for you and for me together,
We get older,
There is no infatuation feelings,
Only love, lust and desire.

Do you ever felt the same way I did?
Do you ever dream what I dreamed?
Do you?

That feeling,
I don't even know how,
Is it love?
Is it hatred?

Day by day I've been wondering,
Is it what do we call as love?
Or better yet, hatred?

I love being surrounded by you,
In the same time I hate the fact that you were around.

With you by my side,
Cheering me up,
Until late at night.

With you by my side,
Every single moments wasn't right,
We end up with fights.

That feeling,
It so ****** up,
Either hatred or love,
Our feeling is always baffled.