And when i first met you, you had this genuine bonhomie vibe about you, and your words were so sincere.. as well as gentle, kind, and soft just like your touch, but as time kept passing your inner soul kept decaying.
and your words became unclear and the feelings that were once there began to fade.

Are the most thrilling,  the ones when things are unclear

Not understanding why you elect him ahead of me; he takes you for granted... Me, I take you for panic!!!

caught in a spell
caged; blocked,
closed and locked
covered in tears
ink smudged
paint dried
all useless
patience is missing
running out of ink
words unclear
and unwritten

Did you call her at all,
drunk and alone in the middle of the night?
Did you tell her
she was the one you wanted?

I suggested we spend the weekend
away in the city that sleeps
as well as we do together.
You used an exclamation point
in your response
which you never do.

Why don't you talk to me
the way I imagine you do
to people you are less invested in?
I always assume you are
actually
invested
in me.

The only thing I think about
is you.

Will I ever manage
to be strong enough
to get what I deserve
from you?

I wonder,
and wonder,
Maybe so much I don't know what's going on,
It's as if I try and block,
Rather sit in silence than to talk,
Imagining,
Dreaming,
and wondering,
The thoughts about what I want,
Thoughts about how I want to serve,
Serve those around me,
The mark I want to leave on this Earth,
The person I want to be,
The things I wish I could free,
I may be small and young,
But I've got a plan to do good,
I know I haven't had that plan set out I know I should,
But I guess that's how it is and I wish it would,
I wish it would be a plan sought out the way I want,
Its like a fog,
Like those ones on a cold Monday morning,
Im in a haze,
More like a daze,
It's unclear of what is to come,
Maybe that's the beauty in it all,
Once you come closer and see the things you are confronted with,
You find out what to do,
Just if I knew
It's like a fog,
I am unaware of what may be in front of me
I guess thats what my life is meant to be,
That time will come when I set myself free.

The roses weren't red,
The violets weren't blue.
I know it started off cheesy-
But let me get through.
Everything lost its' identity
when I kissed you.

You wanted to kiss me?
Are you sure that was true?
My heart fluttered frantically against my flesh...
I literally couldn't catch my breathe.

My emotions still unclear-
I dreamt my love will never dissappear.