Tomorrow yearns for today's joy
It always asks for more
At the end of the day,
It's your choice

walking around the *****
walking around stones
walking around the *****
odyssey was today or now

walking around the *****
and in the bushes and cacti and words
walking around the *****
as if in stone sands

odyssey poured like tap water
odyssey raced like rain in april
walking around ***** yes
walking around a stroller with stones

21.12.18

"thank you for today"
i told him because he loved on me

he flooded my day with his sunshine
rare and raw and radiant

so i reflected his beams and thanked him
and the whole world basked in our glow

i thanked him for loving my present moment, and we shared the luminous gift

I'm slowly realising that I am falling apart
Whether it is piece by piece
Or all together
I know I have miles to go
To progress and choose my path I want
However I am tired
I want to stop
At the same time I want to keep going
So here I am yet again
Writing out my feelings
Trying to ignore my hurt
While this doesn't always work
I hope it does this time around
Enlisted and hoping for a chance
To prove myself and take a breath
I hope that I am what everyone's looking for
So here I go

I told you about all of the times I believed that you didn’t matter,
You said “baby your heart I could never shatter”
I heard that time and time again in the mouth of another
But time nursed me like if I was her child and she my mother.

I apologize for being so cruel to you
I apologize for all that I put you through.
Just look at how beautiful you done grew
Baby look at all the amazing things that you do.
I am blessed to be... you.

One day, I spoke the truth
You called me a liar
Truly, I am one
I lied for seven years
Every day before today
Hiding the truth to save face
Both mine and your own
I guess grief changes you
Because after all this time
Something snapped
I sacrificed everything I've worked for
To save the few who you affect
You have reputation on your side
But still, I spoke out
And I stand today here to tell you
Every word was worth it

return to the past
it was recently been now
return to the past
was recently was today

return to the past
collision with gray leaves
return to the past
happening happening right now

12.12.18

Today they are on the frontline
not because they are the leaders.
They know how to sneak their way up.