TODAY

Today
I will wake up to live another day,
Today
I hope to survive another day.

Today
I will adjust to the weather accordingly,
Today
I wonder what the weather gods will bring me today.

Today
I want/will meet you my dear friend,
Today
I hope that you will join me –my dear friend?

Today
I plan to do my usual routine,
Today
I wonder what kind of day-it will turn out to be.

Today
I will try something new,
Today
I hope to learn something new.

Today
I will be adventurous,
Today
I pray not to get injured –from being adventurous.

Today
I will do something kind-for a stranger,
Today
I pray-for those who are having hardships-to soon become and have a better way of life (lifestyle) and health.

Today
I will love myself,
to my fullest.
Today
I pray-that you can give me the strength,
to learn to love myself more.

Today
I want all my loved one,
to be able to enjoy and have a happy day.
Today
I will take care of you,
if you are sick or need some cheering up.

Today
I know somewhere - there will be a new birth,
a birthday and a death(s)
Today
I pray for all to share this joy and excitement of love -New Birth.
To bring love and happiness- to that special person -A birthday.
The support and strength, for you to give to those, that need this the most in these times of sorrow -Death(s).

Today
I will create a new experience,
Today
I hope these experiences will become happy memories.

Today
Is a day –to live in the now,
and to try to make each/and every, moment count!
Today
Only happens once,
And just may be your last.

Today
Remember –that life is short!
Today
Do what makes you the happiest,
Or try to create a new way of happiness –for yourself.

Today
Is a moment
-made of many moments,
Today
Will become -a new memory.

So, for today,
Make your day count,
And enjoy your day.

© By HF-Whisper
7/5/2020 15:10PM

My heads so hard today
As I stare at my scars today
And maybe I'm afraid today
That tomorrow will be the same as today

I don't hear what you say today
So I won't change today
But maybe I'll scream today
Or maybe I'll bleed today

I will not win today
I will lose again today
This is my fault today
I have my fought today

I can't see to escape today
I'm stuck in place today
If I try to run today
I would chase the sun today

But tomorrow became today
And I choose to change today
I won't be the same today
I accept my pain today

I'll do my best today
To use what's in my chest today
My head will have a seat today
I won't be beat today

I am so bruised today
But at least I flew today
My wings were healed today
My fate was sealed today

Today is the day I will live, or I will die

Today I traveled to await the outcome  of my life


Today is scarier than yesterday that's for sure
Today could be my last

Today I might seem a little dramatic to you
Today to you might be just like yesterday

Today for me though, has been looming around the corner for so long

Today has finally come, and isn't going to be like any other today


Today the reality of existence for me sinks in

Today I will go to sleep and I hope I will wake up

Today I am tired, I am alone, I am scared


Today's sleep will be long either way



Today I am definitely unprepared

Today is something we will all one day face

Today doesn't feel easier just because it happens to us all


Today is, without a doubt, my Alpha, or my Omega

Today will be the first chapter of new beginnings, or the final chapter of an old tale

Today I feel like I haven't done enough with my life
Today regret and fear runs through my mind like wildfire
Today I promise myself  If I make it through, today and everyday after will be treated more sacred

Today I am telling myself lies just to get through today

Today I contemplate death. I contemplate prayer I contemplate afterlife I contemplate heaven and I contemplate hell

Today isn't a day I wish upon anyone

Today wouldn't be so bad


If only I knew


Tomorrow would come

Just for today,
be peaceful.
Just for today,
be loving.
Just for today,
be compassionate.
Just for today,
be merciful.
Just for today,
be kind.
Just for today,
be better.
Just for today,
be understanding.
Just for today,
have pity.
Just for today,
be forgiven.
Just for today,
live.
Just for today,
meditate.
Just for today,
pray.
Just for today,
smile.
Just for today,
be happy.
Just for today,
just listen.
Just for today,
relax.
Just for today,
be helpful.
Just for today,
make love.
Just for today,
stop, don't ****.
Just for today,
live in harmony.
Just for today,
be respectful.  
Just for today,
give a hug.
Just for today,
be generous.
Just for today,
be alive.
Just for today,
survive.
Just for today,
understand that you are part of the healing process to the earth. Together we all can contribute to each others lives to bring peace amongst our world family tree for survival.
Just for today let's join each other to bring healing to our homes, our family and our communities. Be part of it. Live in harmony. Each of us have something to give. Look inside you, it's there and it's free.
©®2018,Emeka Mokeme. All Rights Reserved.

Today I am human
Today I got two legs out of bed to face a world that is sometimes cold
Today I walked tired feet just to make sure they still do their job right
Today I ran fingers through hair and remembered there were teeth to brush, a face to wash
Today I woke to a bottle of water half full by my nightstand
Today I drank it's contents with a handful of vitamins
Today I remembered the importance that breakfast holds so I had it
Today I dressed a body that now and then can feel unfamiliar
Today I pushed the sheets back on the bed to make it almost neat
Today I fluffed a pillow to its full extent
Today I put lotion to skin that is too dry from the California sun
Today I put gas in my car
Today I fed myself without guilt
Today I filled my stomach with meals instead of anxiety
Today I breathed
Today I sighed
Today I did what most consider to be routine, but is so much more to me
All of these simplicities are proof of surviving
Doing so is not always easy
But I do
Today I lived even if I did so quietly
Today I am alive
And tomorrow I will be as well
Tomorrow I will say thank you to today
Tomorrow I will appreciate the effort of before
Tomorrow I will be too proud for too little
Tomorrow I will repeat
Tomorrow I will try again
Tomorrow I am human.

Always remember that,
just for today,
it is well.
Just live for today.
love for today.
Believe for today.
Dream for today.
Be Inspired for today.
Hope for today.
Change for today.
Be respectful for today.
Do the right things for today.
Laugh for today.
Embrace that which endears
your heart today.
Invest in yourself today.
Dare to do today.
Leave your comfort zone
and be that which you want.
Be gentle to yourself today.
Always be true to yourself today.
Today visit the elderly
and your grandparents,
they are and will be your ancestors.
Remember the law of amra,
be generous and give today.
Today be kind.
Treat the weak and afflicted
with compassion today,
you will find yourself
in their place someday.
Arise now today
and do that which you
have never done before.
Remember you did not fail,
just do it differently today.
God speed you today,
and always.
©2018,Emeka Mokeme. All Rights Reserved.

I’m eighteen today.
My shirt is crumpled on the floor. My socks are still on.
I’m eighteen today.  
My eyes try and focus on the ceiling. That’s cheap tile. This house is old.
I’m eighteen today.
I drank too many beers.  I think my cigarettes are by the pool..
I’m eighteen today.  
I’m ******* Steve. He doesn’t know my name.
I’m eighteen today.
Not like I thought he’d  be. His cheeks are rough and sudden.
I’ll be eighteen tomorrow.
I’ll write down his name. I know it by heart.  Number 28.

I’m nineteen today.
I’m in a bathroom. The light is off. I’m kissing girls.
I’m nineteen today.
At a house that I couldn’t find my way home from.
I’m nineteen today.
Her hands squeeze my *******. She’s not into it, I can tell.
I’m nineteen today.
Four people are at my feet. Hands pull at my skirt.
I’m nineteen today.
I’m loving this. But it will be over before it gets good.


I’m twenty today.
A plastic cup in my hand. He’s pushing up on me.
I’m twenty today.
She’s standing on the stairs. I know I’ll walk her home later.
I’m twenty today.
The grass is cold and wet. Her hand on my arm.
I’m twenty today.
Walk her to the door. I wish she’d ask me up.
I’m twenty today.

I’m 31 today.
He’s naked next to me. He knows I love him.
I’m 31 today.
He asked me if I was gay. Said he just wants to know.
I’m 31 today.
I smile and say no and take his **** in my hand.

I was 22 that day.
Driving her back from the hospital.
I was 22 that day.
Her small warm hand rubbed the back of my neck.
I was 22 that day.
It was the first time I felt whole.
I was 22 that day.

I’m 34 today
And he’s stopped asking me.

today i listen to "Switzerland" by daughter. the soothing hums of her voice melt my soul. i'm dreaming of sitting on a yellow porch wrapped around the home i want to own. i sip green tea as a fall in love with you. today i learn to not let hands hold hands but to let hands hold hearts. to let fingers intertwine with feelings. today i learn to kiss birthmarks goodmorning. and to kiss bruises goodnight. today i let you put me in the bathtub let the warm water make waves that crash on my skin. let you lather me in big blue bubbles of hope. today i pray the hope bubbles never pop. not because i want them to pop tomorrow but because you told me to live in the present not the future. i hope to buy you a present in the future. today i eat fruit loops because your tastebuds love sugar. and i hope the next time we kiss i'll taste like the sweetest sugar you know. today i throw aveda smoothing infusion in my damp hair and scrunch it around until i've crinkled every crisp perfectly. today i brush my teeth with crest whitening toothpaste. let the bristles capture every leftover crumb of those crispy colorful circles. today i slip on my denim black skirt with rips and pull the black abbey road tank top over my head and tie the once white laces on my black high top vans.  i brush a light gold eyeshadow over my fatigued carmel eyelids and swipe mascara on each of my lashes, i put my cartilage piercing in, then my two ear piercings and i hook my black hoop into my nose. today i don't dress for you. today i dress for me because i'm starting to want to maybe try loving myself again. i have so much love bundled in big brown blankets ready to be pulled off. i've given all of my love to you because i stopped loving myself. but today you made me want to try wanting to love myself again. today i feel more like a person than a speckle of dust. today i don't see myself as leftovers in the fridge. today i see myself as a fresh cooked meal i want to eat. today i walk out of the front door. hair half up half down, back straight, teeth shining, eyes glowing, tears streaming down my face because it's pretty freaking crazy when you want to live again. today i am not a ray of sun. today i am the sun and i hope to brighten my heart with a dose of pure vitamin D. today i wear a colorful crystal crown because victoria always told me she didn't care who i was but i was a *******  queen. today i place a vase on my kitchen table filled with sunflowers and daisies because roses are overrated. today i gather up all of the scraps of rage and sadness and build myself a castle of poetry. today i listen to "Switzerland" by daughter. the soothing hums of her voice melt my soul. im sitting on the yellow porch wrapped around the home i own. i sip green tea as i fall in love with you all over again.