A wire is all that separates me from them.
It's too thin to see but I can hear the low buzz when I get close.
I don't know if it's electric -
But why take the chance?
I'm not manic enough for this death dance.
Yet, to them - my actions appear egocentric
Or that I want to disappear.

This is not the case.

I wish to join them.
But that buzzing prevents me.
There is no way about it.
And I doubt I could change this dread.
Pulling my teeth out of my head.
So I tell myself I like solitude -
Even if solitude doesn't like me

So when they sigh and say you're not perfect
That you're too good for them
Too normal and plain
That they don't deserve you
That it's not you, it's them
Wipe your tears
Smile
For imperfect never looked good on anyone else
For too good to be true is a once in a lifetime occurrence
For normal is good, your crazy is just in check
For you deserve the best and should never have to settle
Raise your head
Smile
It really isn't you, you are you and that is always enough
It
Is
Them.

All along I was the one being followed!
I awake in my own basement in my own home.
I could hear music but cannot quite make out what the song is.  
I am tied to a chair in the same manner I tie my prizes up.
The next sound I hear is my thumping heart.
And then I hear foot steps coming down the stairs.
Lots and lots of footsteps.
She then walks up to me.
The girl underneath the lone tree in the city.
Followed by all the others I have kidnapped in the last 3 years.
They all stand in front of me.
All of them crying except for her.
The silence comes forth.
I can hear their heavy breathing and my heartbeat make a terrifying song....

I love life too much
      To ever actually
                **** myself
Although, sometimes I wish
          I was dead
So, for now,
       I guess I'll just dream
   Seeing stars floating around
And softly put this pillow
            *To my head

There are things unseen that keep this world living.. Things that go without notice.. Things that we make sure go unnoticed.. So the everyday things you see as everyday things simply are not that at all.. Everyday messengers and receivers are at a constant movement of life giving moments.. The bird you saw fly by, The cat that leaves and never returns, The butterflies that migrate south, And the ghost that sometimes haunt the living.. But when the path is interrupted the unknown ramifications occur.. The disasters, the catastrophes, the plagues, can all be prevented.. On this day two children, two brothers, will set forth a path that is unknown to them.. On a plastic bottle cap they put one large red ant on board.. They float it down the creek and watch in awe at the sailor ant they have set in motion.. This ant has a very small package to deliver.. Across a world to him, at the end of the river to us.. This ant will deliver a small speck of light.. The first star in an infinite darkness..

Because of them
Rules & rules again
Using all their could to hold me away
Ignoring all about my love
Spying me like an adept
Expecting I'm gonna forget
Do not expect me to do it

Hard as it could be
Enraged towards them
All a can is thinkin'
Rage inside me
T**o never forget him