Remembering the way
you pulled me close to your heart in the promises
of never breaking me
staying here, dancing in my mind
in the dark
making the tensity in my body, release
telling me you love me, keeping yourself hostage
in my body,
i listen deeply.
i am home to you.
no matter where i go, you're chasing me out of love.
perfect human imperfections
the gentle roll of a teardrop
down a sun-beaten cheek
falling from eyes of incomprehensible depth
endless moments in time
snippets of absolute joy and content
small eternities of a life that's been lived
early morning hours
a mind, a silent fortress
deep breaths on cold days
seeping warmth from a hot drink
the slow spread of a smile
the result of a scandalous idea
a wisp of smoke from a house-chimney
conjuring images of a cosy, loving family
all the little things
the little bits of beauty
are what to live for
Seems I've forgotten my ways
The little things
constant change of directions
my train of thought on its way towards a head on collision
And the obstacles on the track don't worry me much
it's more of the thoughts powering the train
Giving into simplicity everyday
A smile might be all it takes
A nod to a stranger walking down the street sending off a reason to believe
Tired of holding all the weight letting go back now and back to the little things
I care so much it hurts
I care about the little things
The way his eyes light up when he talks about something he loves
The way he tells jokes and stories
Laughing so much he can't get the words out
The way he smiles when we hold hands and dance together
Even if it's just for show
I care so much about things most people don't even notice
But I care about the big things too
Things most everyone sees, but fails to address
The way his eyes are now, dull and void of life
The way he jokes about hating himself and wanting death
In a way that makes me think he really means it
The way his face is permanently frozen in the same weary expression, now that I can't make him laugh
Or even smile
I care about all these things, and they scare me
Because what if I'm right
About the way he feels
Because I don't know how to fix it, how to make him smile again
How to make his eyes light up the world like they used to
Because what if there's suddenly nothing more to notice, nothing more to care about
Because it's all gone
Because he's all gone
And nothing I did made a difference
I wrote this a while ago and I'm happy to say things are getting better now, but this poem still makes me emotional and I wanted to share it with you guys.
Do you truly know what it's like to dream with your eyes open?
To confess that you don't know why you dream the way you do.
The need to miss as much as you do.
Missing the reality of the things that make most happy.
Catching yourself in the beauty that goes unseen.
Everything that goes unseen.
The light that twinkles in the melanin.
Quiet spheres that guard us from what we fear most.
Legit watching you the way you watch them.
Bowing in your essence while you share in their regal.
The way your shoulders slide into a dress made in their likeness.
The rest of the world goes on
The only word
I could use
When the wind caught
The tangles of your hair.
Your eyes as dark as the night
Spears through my soul,
Through my heart.
Down to my very core.
Casting me on fire
The flames of the lightest touch
When our fingers brushed.
When I saw the life
Flashing before me,
Giddy, bumpy, fulfilling
wise men say, only fools rush in. but i can't help, falling in love with you.
When you've reached the end,
Will you have done all you'd hoped?
Even the small stuff?
have you ever notice
how things just shift?
Plate tectonics shift,
and I love it!
Its something so simple,
but I felt like my life
needs to shift.
I want my life to shift to something knew,
because for about 7 years now,
I've been doing the same old things
Is warm apple cider
Drank on a porch
On a cold November day.
Is a friend
To whom you don't
Have to clarify and censor.
Is having a moment
And soak in the world.
Is having a friend whom talking to
Gives you energy
When you're an introvert.
Is a quiet read
After a stressful day.
Is somehow knowing
Is going to be okay,
And if it isn't,
That no one
Will leave you.
Joy is a slight smile,
A faint contentment
Upon the cheeks and lips,
And a great relaxation
Is what I have,