I've traded the butterflies in my stomach for birds
woodpeckers,— they seem to be of the groans I have around you. tap, tap, tap There goes the sound of my love for you, flying south to the warmest parts of my heart Truly I am bird shy in expressing my love Is this truly love? Butterflies are birds now
Your nectar trickled down
It’s flavour was renown The sweet tasting caramel Slowly chipped at my will It’s damped my mouth And pretend I had drought It spilled its honey substance And did my longing, justice It painted my tongue And between my gums Lastly it started to float Down my aching throat It crawled down my pipe And made the tube ripe But it’s objective was my heart As it would slowly rip me apart So before it could continue I started to swallow it whole Making sure your loving covet Stayed at the bottom of my stomach
All I've eaten today was crackers,
But i'm fine. I can't stomach anything; I'm too full on emotions. All I ever saw was you, But now that's gone. Why can't it all be fine? I only slept 3 hours last night, But i'm fine. I can't seem to bring my tear brimmed eyes to close. They say it's okay to cry. It's okay to be sad Or to have emotions. But I don't want to feel anymore. I don't want to cry anymore. I hate it. I just want you, But i'm fine. I'm fine. You're fine. We're fine. It's all fine , eventually.
you make my body quake leave cracks in my esteem and invite doubts to harbor and fester as you send a shiver down my spine to drown my fire. Fear, you soak up all the syllables. that I was to mutter so I stumble and stand there mute with my stomach heavy with nausea. Fear, I take guilt bites as I am lost in panicky howls. while you lay out procrastination unevenly and drink from the reservoir of my energy. Fear, you trick my potential wipe out my credential leave nothing but raspy and rough remnants for me to draw from. Fear, you rule the beats of my heart pulling me out at the first hello. you grip me, whisper obscurely whilst darkness grasps my sense and wraps my dreams with dark matter. Fear, with you my my soul remains parched like the desert, and my brain wrecked with nervosity as the sensation spreads across my body. But Fear, I want to be one step ahead of you this time. I don’t want my fate to collapse beneath your decisions. Fear, I want to spell courage louder than your stifling whispers as I embrace opportunities regardless of how daunting and risky you paint it to be.
He smelled like a bar I was too young to get into and marlboro lights
just for a while, I wanted to live something new to wake up to pancakes in the morning and kisses on the cheek instead of with my heart broken from the night before and a sinking feeling in my stomach I hated you for the things you chose over me and the love you never gave I hated you because a daughter should never have to beg her father for a relationship
i feel like
uncertainty is pinching my flesh. pinching my elbows my ears on my neck my ankles my stomach my nose my toes this uncertainty won't leave me alone.
I wanna eat something
but it won't fill me up only drag me down.
Everytime I make plans with you
My gut clenches up Like a fist ready to go But I know Already I know I know that I'll kiss you After buying and sharing your food After hugging and talking Like good old friends do I know that I'll miss you After kissing and setting the mood After wishing and wanting Like long lost lovers do So everytime I make plans with you My gut clenches up But there is no fist ready to go Just butterflies squirming Because I already know