I'm screaming your name but you'll never hear me,
when the tears fell onto the pillow that is now water resistant.
I wake up embarrassed because the stain on my sheets was me thinking about you.
It was me collapsing for a minute, or two.
My eyes will never see you again,
my memory only knows your name.

The first time I met you
You said I was too quick,
That you liked to take your time.

I said, well okay fair enough
Let's take this as slow as should.

It didn't take two weeks
Before you broke me.

Speak of quickness.


-- Eleanor

If I could be the one you want
That song in your soul always on repeat
Just a glance could save my life
Give back my breath and beating heart
Carry these crippling doubts away

If I could be myself for once
That book your heart just can't put down
Just a smile could break my silence
Give back these hands and moving feet
Scare these dripping fears away

If I could be a human being
That movie your spirit knows word for word
Just a truth could set me free
Give back the hope and fading strength
Wipe these shameful tears away

If I could be the friend forever
That call your being waits for all day
Just a hug could ease my soul
Give back these eyes and trembling voice
Take this dying boy away

how should i know ...

that you will be the visitor to me ...

how should i know ...

that you will be the hero to my dreams...
how could i know ...
while i should know...
because you are the one and only one ...
whom always runs through the mind ...
and dance with a wing's love between my eyes ...
the only one whom i hear her voice as a whispers ...
among all sounds in this world ....
the one whom i see wherever i be ...
in every thing ...
through every one ...
even when i look at the mirror to my face ...
yes,, i should know ...
that you will be the visitor to my dreams ...
and you should be the hero to my all dreams ...
that's why i should know ..


hazem al...

If I had known that would have been goodbye,
Maybe I wouldn't have left so fast,
I would have kissed your cheek,
Squeezed your hand,
Sunk into your hug a little deeper.
But now you're down in Texas,
And I'm here in Minnesota, alone.

I fell in the river
Of your tears
As I wasn't looking
Just for a little while

What if we
lose our we would.
What if we
take out we should.
What if we
don't scream and shout.
What if we
We stop saying we could.
Is there anything more
we can leave out.
Our lives so full of doubt.
These words we can't live without.

My brain and I
We play these sick games

Most games are fun
But not this one

Where I stop eating
Just enough to keep my heart beating

And at night I wish it wasn't
Or at least that's what my brain says

It makes me cry
even when I have no reason why

Until I meet the darkness of sleep
To wake with last night's tears

My brain almost always wins
Talking trash and whispering sins

But this time it's different
I'm not battling my brain, but my heart

I can't stop eating
I feel like I'm barely breathing

I can't do this to myself
But my heart says I need him

It makes me cry
And I can't stop no matter how hard I try

When I meet the darkness of night,
I get a chance but I'm too filled with fright


If I win, my heart breaks,
If it wins, I break