Okay, for a moment let’s be honest
Let’s not worry about tomorrow, yesterday, friends, family
Expectations, goals, dreams, reputation, stigma, social norms
Let’s forget ALL of that, and let’s focus on this
This feeling, in this moment
Let’s indulge in our desires w/o hesitation or fear of judgment
Succumb to the passion and lust we feel,
Let’s feel – together
Our heart’s pain intertwine without our hands exploring and
Discovering every flaw we have in ecstasy
Let our eyes decode our cryptic body language and understand each
Gasp of breath and listen as the concept of time windless to a whisper
Let us depend on our instincts to guide us towards infatuation
Coated in our scent filling the room forever buried in these 4 walls
As these covers shield us from shame and capture our moment
Stay with me – stay in our moment of freedom and safety.
As our hands interlock let it be a symbol
Not of empty promises and doubt
But as a reminder of what we wish forever felt like
Let me see you – the real you – all of you
This is our moment, one that can’t be replicated, re-imagined or understood
By anyone, but us.
In this moment, all that matters is us
So let’s not let them, or us deprive us, of our moment

Always know;
Someone wants to see you smile
Not to conform to social standards of beauty and femininity
But because flowers need light and love to bloom and your happiness provides that
Always know; someone wants you to feel appreciated
Not limited to a princess’s robes and a queen’s jewels, but with the honor and honesty that a goddess deserves from those that speak her name
Always know; someone wants to see your vision manifest
Because mankind feeds on negativity, but our deliverance is in your eyes that guide the path for your lips to speak
Lips that appear so soft, clouds grow envious with each word released
Always know; someone understands what you have to offer the world
And for that will align the stars in your likeness and grow stronger in your presences, refusing all contrary notions against your name and heart
Always know; someone wants you to win
Always know; someone feels they already have by knowing and caring for you
That someone is here
That someone, always will be

no one knew how i felt except
for all the dusty back roads
in their dreary isolation and brokenness.
i spent countless hours standing outside
the entrance of the buckaroo tavern
with stephanie when i was 3 years old
because daddy was too *******
wasted to drive home. the heat waves
from that broken down neon sign
during the frosty seattle winter of 2001
felt like a security blanket at times
if i pretended hard enough,
i felt like there was something in
the big bad world that actually cared for me.

-*z. vega

∆ Space Needle (Fireflies & Trainwrecks) ∆

It’s raining,
out in space,
on the needle in Seattle,
the record spins at an agreeable pace,

and every song sounds cliche,
we're stressed out domesticated and wild,
got this knot in my stomach again,
hey how have you been I know it’s been awhile,

God says,

“Don’t you worry don’t you worry child,
see Heaven’s got a plan for you.”,
how have you been I know it’s been awhile,
have you finally found your truth?

Even though time’s only relevant,
so in the future we reminisce,
about when our stars crossed in spontaneous ascension,
into the darkness of this deep Abyss.

Ships,
passing in the night,
whatever to get my mind right,
whatever to numb the pain,
to take the edge away from us,
take the edge end with a migraine,
passing trains,
train tracks,
trains wreck,
we connect,
a flash of lights,
I, I,
I am by your side,
everything else fades,
fire in your eyes,
flicker like fireflies,
it’s gonna be a fire fight,
because both of us still fight for our rights,
ships in the night,
passing in the night,
whatever to get my mind right,
whatever to numb the pain,
to take the edge away from us,
take the edge end with a migraine,
passing trains,
train tracks,
trains wreck,
we connect,
a flash of lights,
I, I,
I am by your side,
everything else fades,
fire in your eyes,
like fireflies,
it’s gonna be a fire fight,
because we both still fight for our rights.

Like,
how chances come,
as flash floods across our plains,
how you had me you held me,
you wage your war then left me slayed,

laid,
out across that battlefield,
chest open heart exposed and drained,
love light extinguised lighter out of lighter fluid...

I thought I had the answer,
and I thought you knew it,
opportunities come like thunderstorms,
don't wanna hear that you had your chance and blew it...

It’s raining,
out in space,
on the needle in Seattle,
the record spins at an agreeable pace,

and every song sounds cliche,
we're stressed out domesticated and wild,
got this knot in my stomach again,
hey how have you been I know it’s been awhile,

God says,

“Don’t you worry don’t you worry child,
see Heaven’s got a plan for you.”,
how have you been I know it’s been awhile,
have you finally found your truth?

Even though time’s only relevant,
so in the future we reminisce,
about when our stars crossed in spontaneous ascension,
into the darkness of this deep Abyss...

– ∆  Aaron La Lux ∆ –

from 'City of Angels' volume 1 of Hollywood The Trilogy
available worldwide 7/7/16.
i love u

∆

nothing is as freeing
as aimless wandering
*i am free

I am built like city blocks
crooked and running in all directions.
My veins run up and down like busy streets,
lit by headlights and street lamps.
My scars are like demolished buildings,
a reminder of something that once was.  
I have a skyscraper mind that
reaches higher than anything else.
My heart is a monument that many see
but don't really know.
My thoughts are subways and buses that
move everywhere all at once.
There is no stopping- only a hushed hurry.
I am hard and concrete, my sidewalks are stained;
but to some, I am home.
I have hidden secrets inside, that you only know once
you decide to stay in the city
and choose to love me.

Couldn’t be found anywhere else.
The coast is home now.
A door closed on what used to be.
Dramatic moves, all for something new.
In hopes of far-fetched ideals.
Three years later,
A picture perfect realization;
This life is mine.
I get to choose.
Adding value, welcome.
Adding pain, dismissed.
It is dismissed.
All is left behind,
Down by the water.