look ...look .
I see it clear . don't all your people hear it coming near . a new beginning in these times of rough . and our skin is getting a little tough . with each tear and each tear . we cry in the dark shadows that fill us with fear . I love all who feel , because without you, we wouldn't have a world to share . or even care to have such a fair feeling there . today we shine , I encourage all of you to make one random compliment to someone random . not to gain fandom . but just because who cares what happens . the entertainment in there reaction should be filled with caps and screamed out loud . have them floating by us like clouds . cause we are who we are , nothing changes that . why not enjoy it until someone can enjoy us . I love you all even when I fall . I express words that won't be heard at all . but at least its a letter to someone who may understand one day . I just couldn't take the pain . I feel so good that I'll die for everyone's gain .

Im now 20,

and sympathize those in the same age category as me

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The painful

insanely, mechanical yet dizzying push to be

--something --
titles, names, high status nothingness
Yet, we search

every corner we turn to
say
Is this it?
Security, Purpose, a treasure trove of possibility
find me - you - me - you see?
Did you land here on my lap, perfectly?

Today this is it
But, then Tomorrow blows up
Like an a unpredictable field mine.
In my precious heart, that thought it knew
it was right, right?

And this pressure crushes me
And somedays I feel so lonely

Yet, this insane pressure
To be this mold
And hold this space to be a list
And the uncertainty
Unfamiliarity
It literally crushes me
In it's silence, yet ferocious noise that pounds in my skull

The wild voice,
It drives us insane,
And drains me with this internal pain

That 'I will never be enough'

That....

--money, not enough
-- my schooling, not enough
-- my experience, not enough
-- my materials, not enough
-- my social circle, not enough


And this pain of enoughness is stuffing me with fear
So I try to turn every direction
Scattered, and seared with this
Deep insanity to grab it all

Yet, we sometimes fill ourselves with doubt
that pushes us to a dangerous, unforgiving - edgde

Yet, after being broken down by the day
vulnerablity blossoms
Honestly, I say - where do I go?

Now?

I search, plea, beg..
I grip tightly,
asking - pleading for guidance

When life is a struggle always think ahead,
Looking back will only cause
Trouble in your head
Your heart will ache forever
For you are no longer here
I may shed a tear throughout the year
But I promise you'll always be near

what i long for are those lips,
to take long, slow, and passionate sips.
to caress your rough, worn face.
as you play around with lace,
both our legs intertwine under the covers,
as you and i mold into one another as lovers

I see you happy.
Flowers smile at the sight of a woman and her child.
God is proud of his world, as the angels smile.
I brace my chest and growl the pain away.

I see you eager.
Infecting others with a desire to please.
Breeze, the love you spread fills minds with ease.
I ball up my fists and dig my own nails into my hands.

I see you care.
The smile you give, the hand you extend. I could never repay such kindness again.
Forever I am lost, lost and in love. With a taken woman.
My scowl answers your extended hand.

I see you go.
And I tear every memory of you from my heart, and write it into a poem.

Have you ever been falsely accused ?
              Well ive been
Ive been falsely accused so amused
By my last ex
the last text she sent
Was “all you  ever wanted was ***”
We are human beings thats just
Something that we can expect
See i should of known better
We went through bad times and
Good weather
i should've responded back
To her and  said “never”
i wish i was Betta. but i wasn’t in that right state
Of mind i tried to give all of my Pick up
Lines but they all DIED
So i cried, so i cried   yeah i might’ve lied once
Or twice but maybe what i needed was
A Man to Man advice thats right
Im Kingzachg of HeartBreaks
We just two different couples
Trying to make out of the same  struggle
But its hard for me to juggle
I remember we used to splash on puddles
Blowing out bubbles, staying out of trouble
And cuddle on a day to day basis
Im just trying to keep my homeostasis
But it doesn’t seem  like she can face it
Im not trying to Chase ****
That's real talk  she Falsely accused
Me of being a cheater
I'm No Chris Brown im No woman beater
Im just trying to treat her
Like no other *****
Did
Shout out to all the ******
That did u *****,
may you find a real *****
Who’s actually sturdy.
I dont think you guys get it
I ******* cheated on a girl
I used to call mine
She was all on the phone
With her friends
Throwing all these differents SiGNs
Im drinking so much hennessy
This ***** getting out of line
Im like the rattlesnake
Stone Cold steve Austin  
Cause that's the bottom line.
Im more like Romeo  
Your more like Juliet
Im a montague
Your just  a  freaking capulet
Were just two genders of different ***
Cause That's my intellect
I expected love to be the same
But she left me for another lame
Im not the type of ***** thats good for playing games
Dont you ever forget the name Kingzachg
The Heart Break Kid is comming out in two weeks
Yes indeed, best believe there’s no I in team
Im doing this for my family best believe sheesh!!!!