So a funny thing happened I had *** with a boy Sounds common enough right Except this boy wasn't my boyfriend I'll give you a moment to let that sink in
***** **** Harlot Really I've heard it all But won't you please listen Because every story has two sides
I was drunk Off my *** really And what had started as a fun night was coming to and end Walked with my friend up from the shore And walked him to his car Except he was farther off his *** than I I stole his keys and hid them in my purse Because I wasn't going to let him drive home **** himself and the girl in his backseat So we went into the house Down into the basement with all the other children And we shared a mattress on the floor Just like everyone else And one by one we began to pass out Until it was just me and him
I wasn't afraid I had grown up along side him I knew all his secrets And he knew mine So we talked, and we talked and I don't remember when it changed When the wheels began to turn When I lost my shorts I don't remember when his hands landed on my body And my memory begins to fade And I know my heart began to race And my body became aware of every single movement all at once And I think I was a tease I think I was too much And before I knew it he was on me Fumbling around and I told him just a little please and I told him no *** And then it happened I'll be the first to admit I don't know what I said to be exact I don't think I said I changed my mind though And I know I didn't say no But it's hard to say anything when you can barley breathe And then I just shut down Body did the hard reset and I just blacked out I know I momentarily woke up when you crawled off of me sobbing A moment of haze before I was back into darkness
And I woke up and he was gone And I as alone I made the call to my boyfriend A man I loved more than anything I panicked I told him I cheated on him That I was sorry and that it was a mistake And he accepted it, but he didn't accept me I was a disgrace Still am
But yes I had *** with a man But it wasn't *** like you would know it It was *** spelled with four letters R A P E So call me what you will But you can never hate me as much as I hate myself so don't even try With that being said goodnight and goodbye
You know how some people come to terms with incidents in their life, if I so much as ever catch a glance of that man again I'll end him. He took everything away from me.
*** clipped his wings He cast him out Now he lies on broken ground He's turned from faith Found shelter in the dark But still within lies a spark The tiny flame of hope Buried between all the hate and the pain He has grown to call home But maybe someday He will find the way Back to heaven
"I ought to be thy Adam, but I am rather the fallen angel" - Frankenstein's Monster
Well what can I say I'm not her I don't have her warm eyes Her thin waist Her cute laugh Her smart brain I'm not perfect like her I'm not even close I lack her sense of peace And her immense love I don't dream like her See like her I will never be like her What more can I say I'll never be beautiful or perfect Never see clear or pure I've ruined my chances of happiness in this world And how can I blame you She dances in the light And I dwell here in darkness out of sight She is all that is good and right in this world And I'm all you should fear So go ahead Get out of here
I suppose I'm just frustrated. But can you really blame me, I'm the daughter of a monster and nothing can erase that path I've followed. So no I'll never be anything quite like her.
Your words are lingering in my mind And I can't help but wonder if you're right If you're not meant to be mine Because I've been wrong before And I see the way you look at her And i'm stranded in this island in my mind No ship of hope in sight Because I thought just maybe paradise would last forever But I am now forced to recognize it An inevitable storm on the distance And it might just tear us apart but if it doesn't well stand strong together Because then you were meant to be mine