You would think I would learn my lesson
That I wouldn't be such a fool
You would think after the first time
That I would know and follow the rules

You would think that a heart like mine
So tormented and broke
You would think that a boy like him
Wouldn't take it as such a joke

You would think that the friends around me
Would learn not to be so fake
You would think that I would figure out
That I can't change a snake

You would think things will change
We will become more mature
You would think that high school drama
Is something anyone can endure

You would think that since I am a child
My opinion are completely invalid
You would think that as a full grown adult
That everything you say is valid

You would think that as the years fly by
We could learn to love one another
You would think that as the world moves on
We wouldn't care about skin colour

You would think that since its been so long
That women have equal rights
You would think that with all the new changes
That the LGBT could finally sleep at night

You would think that due to the history of the world
That we wouldn't have bloodshed or war
You would think that we would learn more morals
that young girls wouldn't be labeled as ******

You would think that since everything we've been through
No matter how big or how small
You would think that since our world is so advanced
That we wouldn't build up such walls

But its clear to me that our world hasn't changed
We haven't learnt at all
But we all pretend things are different now
Because we simply don't want to fall

You Would Think That

The chilling wind that drops it's temperature as Autumn sets in with the now crumbling leaves that begin to fall in the chill of approaching winter.

How I used to smile and laugh before was a month ago, I often think to myself that I should stand in the rain, and be drenched in the tears that God whimpers out over our pitiful humanity
Life is a never ending struggle designed that way.
Designed for disaster.

Paper holds more value to someone then anothers life.
A chase kiss holds more passion then a one night stand.
An animal keeps the runt for as long as possible, while humans discard their own.

We pay, we trade, we slaughter, we cower.
His grip is strong, pinning me down with ease by my wrists, I have no hope. But yet I keep fighting back, trying to slap the girl who keeps crawling back to those pills and that **** needle she feels so lonely without.
Hypnotic in the moment he is, slowly holding out my arm with an injection in the other hand, letting the needle scrape against my skin gently, before piercing the cold flesh.

I'm addicted to this pain that I keep constantly feeling all because I get a head turn or even one word to leave your mouth. I'm in a tranquil garden of lies that I hide behind my "Okay" facade.

I FOUND NOTHING
I AM HAPPY !
I HAVE NOTHING
I AM AT PEACE !
I FOUND NOTHING
I AM RICH !
I HAVE NOTHING
I AM BLESSED !

I FOUND SOMETHING.
I HAVE SOMETHING.
THE ULTIMATE TRUTH.
ANSWERS TO MY QUESTIONS.
SOLUTIONS TO MY PROBLEMS.

I HAVE EVERYTHING !
I HAVE NOTHING !