Every child has a family, that cares about them and always there

I once knew  a friend name Amelia, her family will play the fair.

I think I like it better there than I do here,  I am speaking the truth.

My whole life I liked it better when I was just little youth.

Why do I keep trying to send letters to the baby me.

i once felled on my knee, I got right back up and start

to  climb back up that tree, when we were young

we were young and free. And alive just to see the sea.

My family is okay, but I miss those days when my brother will ***

his pants cause he had no idea what to do.

Latety I've been getting these thoughts

why do I feel so alone

it just feels like my whole life is a huge knot

no ones knows why i even have a phone

when i hear your name gets brought

up, i don't know what to do, but just drown

in  my empty hole,  and just whip my frown

away, but my tears will remind.

I often ask mie friends, “ Are you okay?”
Because for me “are you okay” can mean a lot of things like:
Are you okay? I’m here to listen you.
Are you okay, because I care for you.
Are you okay,
Because I Love you.
Are you okay??

I should’ve known how this would end
We played the part of distant friends
And I knew it’d hurt like a metal fist
A strong uppercut that almost missed
You should’ve seen my hand the other day
Shaking and trembling like a rusty train
When it comes and goes in a fiery blaze
Lungs burn, stomach turns, this must be fate
I’m calling around for a saving grace
And with two bruised knees, I’ll try to pray
What was that thing you said to my face?
Honey, you’ll find love, but not today
And I never wore a frown very well
But it’s been hard, if you couldn’t tell
It’s not even summer and I already fell
I’ll buy any hope that you try to sell

I know you’ll just be okay
When you work
Till your whole being shivers
With exhaustion
And your eyes cloud
With salty perspiration
And you push yourself
Into that one last lap
And keep pushing for another-
And yet another.
I know you won’t fall;
That much faith is essential.
And, wherever you trip,
You don’t tread on again.
With all those lessons
You’ve learned on your way,
You know you’ll just be okay.

Love is a dangerous game
That I don’t know how to play
Sometimes I wish you never came
Sometimes than I think I’d be okay
You have the sun In your eyes
And i the moon
Too bad you spill nothing but lies
Maybe I just let you in too soon
For you are the sun
And I am the moon

My mental health is not doing okay.
I’m not doing okay.
But i pretend I’m okay.
I’ll be okay.
Probably.
Hopefully.
Maybe.
I’m fine.
It’s fine.
Everything is fine.

It's not the end of the world.
It's not even the end of the day.
Just because the sky is gray
Doesn't mean the sun can't come out
As if to say "it's okay."
Remember. We see the world in color.
If you don't like the ones you see,
Just close your eyes and breathe.
Please don't give up, and I promise you'll see it's not the end.

I look up at the sky
And cry

Every night I hope this is some sick dream
That life isn't what it seems

I lost myself that day  
When you went away

I hid it well
Mommy and Daddy could never tell

I have a flashback in my mind every time
I see a cigar or a gold watch or even a cross necklace

You are constantly playing in the background of my brain like a movie that is up too loud and I am on the phone with my boss but can’t find the remote to turn it down

I googled how to let go
I realized that I can’t let go if I don’t want you to leave

I can’t turn raw pain into an elegantly worded piece of literature
I tried it's evident exactly where my heart broke

It visually depicted  exactly when my tears start to stream down my face

If you look close enough

I am drowning in a pit of false happyness and fake hope