Its okay to fall hard,
Its okay to be in lows,
Its okay that life is hard
Its okay that you want to cry out sometimes,
Its okay to not find someone you love,
Its okay not to hear from special someone you like,
Its okay not to find anyone around,
Its okay if things doesn't go as we want,
Its okay if you keep remembering someone,
Its okay if your fate doesn't allow you to be happy,
Its okay if people judge you for wrong,
Its okay to leave what's eating you inside out,
Its okay to break apart,

Its okay! Its okay!

Its okay you are strong enough to figure out all!
Its okay not to lose heart,
Its okay to find the precious moments of being alone,
its okay to smile again after a turbulent storm,
Its okay to not tame our love for all,
Its okay to feel the freshness of life once and for all,
Its okay to live one more time,
Its okay to find your steps one day at a time.

Its okay! Its okay!

To the Dear People Who Ask If I’m Okay
Oh I am definitely okay.
I’m okay with being alone.
I’m okay of feeling lonely.
I’m okay of feeling depressed.
I’m okay about being compared to everyone around me.
I’m okay of feeling isolated.
I’m okay of crying myself to sleep every night.
I’m okay of having to wake up and see myself covered in wounds because of the works of my own hands
due to the nightmares that creep into my mind each night.
I’m okay with being misunderstood.
I’m okay about not being appreciated.

I’m okay of being just okay.

I’m okay about being trapped in an enclosed box with tapes on my mouth and tears in my eyes while I cry for help.
I am okay with not being heard.
I’m okay with pain being my companion every day.

I’m okay about getting used to just being okay,

But I am never happy about just being okay
Because “I’m okay” does not say “I’m happy”.
Yes
Being okay does not mean you’re happy.
Being okay means you’re just trying to look happy
Because looking happy is better than explaining yourself every time your eyes fail to hold your tears for it shows how fragile you really are
But they don’t know how long you’ve been fighting your own war.
They don’t know how long your heart and head have been shooting bullets at each other.
You,
don’t know how my mind shouts at me to force me to be okay while my heart whispers to me how I should just let myself be happy.

Everybody around me is saying
that happiness is a choice because if you choose to be happy, then you will be happy.
But, is it my fault
how my own family does not even see how they push me to the edge of the cliff giving me only two options?
It’s either to learn how to fly without wings or to quit and just fall to the deep deep ground.
Is it my fault
how everyone sees me as selfish and worthless when I am giving the best that I could?
Is it my fault
that I am just a human being fighting my own battles just like you?
I’m sorry, but how is it my fault?

So, to the dear people who ask if I’m okay,
Yes I am okay, but I’m not happy.
I’m not happy with how I am drowning in pain
even if happiness has always been my first choice.
But,
I am going to be.
And I’ll make sure that the next time you ask me if I’m okay
I would doubtlessly answer,
“NO, I am not okay,
because
I am done being okay.”

For years
And years
I blamed
Me
For forever
I hated me
It felt like an eternity

I'm still healing
I have been growing
I feel maturity
I feel less
Insecurities
I'm realizing
For the first time
It's okay

It's okay
It's okay
I misbehaved
It's okay
It's okay
I felt that way
It's **** okay
But it's still a shame

I'm not to blame
I wasn't untamed
I was a child
I wasn't wild
I was alone
I was crying
For attention
Crying
For affection
I was
Always
*******
Crying
Til it left me
Broken
Dying

I been hurting
I been broken
Never healed
Only blamed
Myself
Left in guilt
Disgust
Mistrust

But
It's okay
It's okay
To feel that way
It's okay
It's **** okay
But what a shame

To blame a child
For being touched
To blame a child
Who thought she could trust
To blame a child
For not knowing love
What a shame
I became
To myself
Blaming
Blaming
Swallowed in guilt

Everyone
Blaming
Blaming
So I let them
Be right
I let them win the fight
Lose my might
Never say no
Never let go
Hate myself
Bury bury
Never grow
Let my passion
Go

It's okay
It's okay
To say
I wasn't to blame
It's okay
It's okay
To say
It shouldn't have been that way
I regret
So much
To let you touch
Me
To be so alone
I let you
Hurt me
Inside my bones
But
It's okay
I didn't know better
It's okay
It's okay to
Let it go
To forgive me
And to be ******* angry
About it
It's okay
It's okay
But it's a ****
******* shame
I lost me
I lost all of my childhood
I blocked so many memories
I became a sad vicious story
I was nothing
Not me
Not you
I was nothing
But guilt
I had built
Towers
Of magic
Towers
So strategic
Towers
To hide
*** I never felt
Okay
Living that way

Now I want to say
To myself
To that little girl
So ashamed
So alone
So afraid
It's okay
It's okay
To feel that way
It's okay
It's okay
I know it's a shame
You're not to blame
It's okay
Darling
It's really okay

Let it go
Be angry
And never forget
You're valid
And it's *******
Okay

It's okay not to be so rich.
It's okay not to be so pretty.
It's okay not to be so ****.
It's okay not to be so smart.

It's okay not to have a beautiful hair.
It's okay not to be tall.
It's okay not to be cute.
It's okay not to be cool.

It's okay not to speak english fluently.
It's okay not to have many friends.
It's okay not to watch movies everyday.
It's okay not to travel around the world.

It's okay not to have many shoes & clothes.
It's okay not to own a car.
It's okay not to have a big house.
It's okay not to have a million.

It's okay not to be organized always.
It's okay not to have the latest iPhone.
It's okay not to sing & dance well.
It's okay not to have a gf/bf.

It's okay not to have your fave coffee everyday.
It's okay not to eat at the restaurant.
It's okay not to go to mall more often.
It's okay not to know stock market.

However, it's not okay not to fight for your dreams.