i came back to see
the notifications
but you left a message
which made my day

my frantic anxiety used to wait for you,
now it just waits for a notification.

Everytime you see my name light up on your
phone what do you say?

Like what the H she won't !

Or do you say it's her again?

Or do you be like leave me the f alone

Well let me tell you what I think when you see me and I get no reply:

I feel like I'm bothering you and I'm trying to hard to hear from you because I can't stop my mind from racing....

I miss you and all I want is you to tell me you miss me and you want me around I know your dealing without but do you know I can't stop thinking of you I try to move I am texting someone but I only want you

I try to ease my pain because I don't know if you will ever come back and I miss you I know upset  it's my fault.

You probably laugh and talk about me to your friends I don't know what you do I just want stop the little people in my head to stop talking to me saying negative things about you.

Or are they true about what they are saying in my head ?

Help me say something

You've got mail

Is it weird that I want to hear that again

Not
you have a notification

but mail

Waking up and running to the mailbox
heart pounding with excitement and fear

is your letter here yet


That one thought
everyday
carrying my little legs
racing
in the hopes that I would see your handwriting

and when that letter finally came

like a squirrel with a prized nut
I race away to the safety of my bed with
a flashlight
some poptarts

and pages of your letter

So happy



that I have a friend like you.