i waited for you
and it’s not fair to ask
but i’m astonished that you’ve waited too

no one seems to invest in anything
a risky bet is not for the faint of heart
years of agony have fixed that fear for me
no longer can i practice inaction
for the safe bet of sorrow
is waiting for me in bed

this morning you awoke before i did
the emptiness my bed provides me
repulsed me
and i can promise you that without you
my impulses will always have me search
for the parts of you in everything
like i did when i waited

I have you by my side
And that's where you look best.
The circumstances aren't right,
But this life is a test.

I vision you in front of me
And I express my love,
I love you my dear woman
I hope this is enough.

don’t ever come back
you left and that’s fine
it’s always been fine to me
i should have cheated on you
because as confusing as it was
i never loved you
you never wanted me
what you think you hold
this guiding beacon of myself
that i held onto dear
what you stole
and **** on
isn’t my only grace
if only you were to face yourself
for the **** *******
living behind those empty ******* words
bending the truth and reality
with all your disgusting lies
your departure left few and heavy cries
like a dead great uncle
you meant nothing to me

𝗻𝗲𝗲𝗱 𝗮 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝘁𝗼
𝗯𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗿𝗮𝗶𝗻
𝗶𝗻𝘀𝗶𝗱𝗲 𝗺𝘆 𝗵𝗼𝘂𝘀𝗲
𝗮𝗻𝗱
𝗱
      𝗿
𝗼
          𝘄
𝗻
𝗺𝗲.

kiss away my pain
softly please
all i can ask for
is that you don’t hate my dismay
because somehow someway
after yesterday
when you kissed me
i got the rush
that i once felt in the dizzy of our laughter
and this morning it hasn’t gone away