I just wanna feel something, someone not just my days all being blended into one depression, investments, they’re all up actually, they swallow me up but in the stomach of existential dread I feel freer in my head without all these man-made structures they want to let my rivers run red and leave me to the vultures it's the culture we live in, who do we reprimand? who would understand? take me back to ancestral land devoted to my our sacred place among the ecosystem not trying to oversee them we are not God, we are not omnipotent to the creator, we are nothing more than a rodent which fills its niche, which helps another fill theirs we are not individuals in a vacuum but complex affairs
it's all an act a fact I cannot escape always wishing for a sweet place, a sweet escape need a vacation and to sleep until noon **** I might even take two Balance, all the components where should I go? where is my home? should I, should I? how could I, with such little time tik tok tik tok, where is divine the clocks in my head are relentless the stocks hurt my head, can't comprehend it why not balance the scales and restore peace instead, you set it afire and watch the poor man weep
the stars have pretty much aligned when my manifestations did work, a year ago, i scribbled your name nine times across a blank page sending you vibrations that i still exist;
now, mercury is in retrograde i’ve stopped asking for signs over the weekend a year later, more than nine, a hundred times your name appears on my phone screen, stalling, i'm just staying still send me a text and let me know if in my life you still want to exist.
I struggle to stay balanced my asymmetry is well established my to-do list is longer than my hair which I need to cut, by the way So many dead ends, so little day So many tasks, my schedule cannot sway the gears are moving, the thoughts invasive the fears are proving to be quite abrasive too much, cannot face it so I meticulously place my crystals north so I ridiculously colour coordinate my clothes anything to escape myself mischievously I struggle to stay in one place I struggle every day
My Moon went missing and My Mercury kept rising. So I took a brisk walk, around the Rings of Saturn. As My Heart wept Tears, forming a sad Pattern. I went searching for Her, On Jupiter and Mars. Venus had seen Her, with the "Shooting Stars". Pluto suggested that, I may find Her on Charon. As it rhymed well, with Her Name Sharon. Uranus and Neptune, said "Why not try Earth? U may find Her, at Her place of Birth".
The walls, painted with the gloss of all the secrets that you and only you know, or the stuffed animal that has caught your tears through life’s afflictions. Or, the comforter that has kept you warm through those times where you swore this was the night your blood will run cold. Theres a furry, doe eyed, four legged creature of the heart, though there isn't an utter of any sort from either entity, there is a knowing. Stripped to your raw essence, he understands without question.
the sensations of the astral plane create elegant spaces in my mind the mercurian thirst for truth elevates my mind in ways that can create chaos it’s lead me to find an abundance of anxiety but beautiful truth comes from beginnings infernos within the galaxy gave me you apparent it is when the fire begins within me