#kms poems on Hello Poetry

Spooky Babe Jul 2018

Every time I look in the mirror
I’m confused by my reflection
I don’t think I’ve ever recognized her
It’s complete and utter deception

Those bright eyes that I once knew
Are now useless and dimly lit
Hiding and concealing all that’s true
As if that could make me ever forget

The lies that they once spewed
Whether I was aware of it or not
Especially how trust can’t be renewed
And how loyalty can’t ever be taught

Funny I never thought that’d be me
I never took the time to know who I am
I hate myself for not being able to see
That I’m just a lying, attention seeking sham

I literally just wanna drink bleach
07/08/18
6:46pm
For the loml I guess

#love #pain #lies #deceit #hurt #death #i #want #to #kms

Sam Mar 2018

OG Emo

The word emo is used to describe someone who dresses dark and scary.
Or someone who hurts themself.
For me, it’s a word I use to describe my real emotions.
Emo = emotion
I am “emo” because I am emotional.
Sure, I joke around a lot.
I make fun of my own emotions.
I call myself emo just because I like wearing black.
But there’s a reason why I wear all that black.
I’m too afraid to be happy.
I’m don’t deserve to wear color.
I feel like I should always be grieving.
I feel like I don’t deserve happiness.
Why would I?
I always feel guilty for what happened back in the seventh grade.
I could’ve done more.
I could’ve been more useful.
That’s a lie.
I’m useless.
Worthless.
A terrible person.
The point is that I am the original emo.
Not because I wear black.
But because I am emotional.
Does that make me human?
No.
It just makes me sad.
That’s as plane as it gets.
I’m just sad.

#sad #bad #dreams #flashbacks #depression #kms

Lee Matvey Mar 2018

Empty

My head spins,
As I lie down.

I stare at the ceiling,
Feeling light,
Weightless.

And sick.

Gathering strength,
I lift myself from my bed,
And carry myself to the bathroom.

In the mirror,
I see a whale.

Despite so long of holding back desire and cravings,
What i see is still the same,
And it will never change.

#emo #vent #depressed #ana #ed #sad #kms

Grace Spellman Feb 2018

go

something just feels
off
and wrong
something isn't sitting right inside me
it's telling me to get up - go go go go go
go do that one thing
but im not sure where it wants me to go
or what one thing it wants me to do.
it's a feeling of urgency
without a proper cause
what is wrong with me?

anxiety

#anxiety #fml #depression #relationship #breakup #suicidal #kms #sad #go #anxietyattack

Lost Feb 2018

need

I love him.
I love him so much.
And it hurts so bad.
I don't deserve him,
But I need him.

#kms

Beeb Jan 2018

Bricks?

Kate said that she liked bricks.
I was taught that bricks are bad.
And they are bad.
Kate likes to tell me about bricks.
I don't like to listen,
But I must listen or else Kate will lay bricks down.
Kate scares me.
I don't want to talk to her,
But I must.
I don't want to become like Kate,
And I don't want others to become like Kate.
Bricks are bad.
Stay away from Bricks and Brick Layers.

#self #harm #suicide #bricks #meaning #kate #scare #life #***** #kms

Charlie Harman Jan 2018

The Man who Shan't be Named

What a guy,
Me oh my.
His hands move fast,
Makes me want to cast,
A line into the water avast,
Ye matey he is the most ashen fellow
My god sometimes he looks quite yellow;

When the trumpets blare,
He gives them a stare,
And the words we fear,
He says just loud enough to hear,

I have never been so disappointed in my life,

Oh boy what a tear.

For the trumpets of the UHS Wind Symphony, I dedicate this wonderful poem to you folks, love ya.

#band #kms #trumpetplayersrule

Mikaail Jul 2017

Clarity

My eyes snap open:
I am walking
not by choice
for I am weighted down
it lurks behind me
every second
of every day.

People stare
and goggle at me
tongues throw knives
"Why are you so strange?"
some miss entirely
"Why can't you be normal?"
others hit home.

Doubt is constantly,
relentlessly,
gnawing at my brain
How?
Why?
When?
Too many questions

What if all I ever do,
when light recedes
Is stare up at the ceiling
And drown in the past
When I think I've come up for air
I find a crashing wave of nightmares
That shoves me further down.

I do not understand
I lack perfect vision
Yet it is not I
that cannot see clearly
Even when the trees
***** at my eyes like needles

Nothing stops the pain
no matter how hard I try
I cannot escape
No matter how hard I try
No matter how far I get.
I end up
Closer than ever before

One day
I will be too tired
to keep going.
It will consume me.
And I will be lost.
Forever. I Am Sorry

#life #death #mind #soul #end #kms

Erin Nicole Jan 2017

Not Sad.

I am NOT sad.
I am DEPRESSED.
There is a huge difference.
If you don't get it then got look it up.
Learn about it before you judge me.
Deal with it or leave because there is only one cure. I won't get it for a long while. be there for me or leave.
I am done. With it all.
Only a few things are keeping me from finding a blade or overdosing.
RIGHT NOW.
So before you want to run your mouth.... how bout ya make an effort, know me. Then maybe you can be smarter about what you gotta say.

#cutting #depression #death #depressed #stupid #done #smart #overdose #kms #killmenow

Erin Nicole Jan 2017

It's me.

It's me who is my enemy,
Me who beats me up,
Me who makes the monsters,
Me who strips my confidence.

#sad #depression #sadness #depressed #me #monsters #killme #enemy #noconfidence #kms