heart racing, can't catch my breath, hand rubbing against my thigh repeatedly, pulling my knees up to my chest and holding my body so tight, it hurts, i can't think logically, only fear and loss of control ensues. my own thoughts tear me apart and scare me.
the only real danger is in my thoughts, so how do i get out?
Anywhere, Anytime; Anxiety Attack, Panic Attack; Sometimes I cry; Sometimes my chest tightens; Sometimes I feel choked; Sometimes I hyperventilate; Sometimes I feel like I'm dying; It's hard... But I'm trying to fight....
Worry a'creapin Confusion sets Nerves are startled Fear Upsets
Minds a racin' Thoughts implode Face is flushed Fear Explodes
Hearts a'flutter Chest tightens up Voices stutter Fear Erupts
Hearts a'poundin Sweat then rolls Panic resounding Fear unfolds
Deaths a'loomin Dreads attack All consuming Fear is back
Peace a'buildin Calm ensues If Gods willing Fear defused
I learned a 2 beat structure similar to this from a friend on Facebook. I took what I learned and put my own twist on it by bouncing back and forth between 2 and 3. Even kind of a 3-4. I think it sounds better with that beat rather than a constant 2. As if I did anything to explain what I mean by a beat-structure lol. Its just my personal language that I use. I used that structure while thinking about anxiety and this is the result.
It’s a trap I fall unknowingly, Unwontedly It comes anytime An emotional meltdown Suddenly I stop breathing My hands freeze Face turns hot Like the blood is boiling My legs trembling I close my eyes And the poison It comes out in tears A silent cry Like an open tap Like drops of rain From a heavy tree And everything freezes I hear no sound but my heartbeat I see nothing with my open eyes All I feel is the wind Blowing through my hair The air stuck inside my chest But I breathe Slowly but surely It’s suffocating Yet I breathe It’s heartbreaking And I still breathe