Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
Maria Etre Jan 2016
Tuesday night was always dull
however this one was oddly full
of events from 6 to 1

I don't know what happens
but suddenly alcohol sharpens
all your inner untamed inhibitions

Why is it so?
That when I am with you at night
I am always hit by delight

You're there and I am here
and so is she
but there is a certain kind of comfort
that elevates me to feel to resort
to what "us" is

That meaning that floats
over seas of oblivion
over mountains of stupor
over valleys of friendship
for the lack of a better word

Here, order me another drink
and let me drown
whatever makes sense
tonight
Maria Etre Nov 2015
The wet smell of the earth
was **** enough
I woke up to the moon glow
feasting his eyes
on my silky skin

The sultry feel of the night
covered me like silk sheets
caressing every goosebump on my skin

I tasted you in yesternight's alcohol binge
there were bits and pieces that surprised my tongue
along with my memory

The cigarette stench in my hair
whiffed instances that slapped
the drunk off my face

The crumpled money
harvested ash from the drive
in every crease

The burn marks on my hand
brought back the inhibitions
I felt that night or lack there of

what happened I have yet to decipher
yet, I still remember the blurred lights
that lit my eyes with seduction
one that I shared
with you
on
that
one
night!
Released from this atrocious cage,
An animal bursts from the core of me.
He maintains my callous facade,
And yet is bound to my very being-
So that he may not stray far and neither may I.

There is a leash and I do not yet know who bears the collar.
He is an enraged beast and I am but a liability.
Nothing will stop him from running and ripping my heart out,
Beating fast, unable to keep pace;
Nothing will stop him from halting in his tracks,
Preventing the next step along the path I've chosen.

Perhaps someone may tame him.
Those who have tried have been defeated;
Mauled by his furious resentment for failure
Regardless of my attempts to protect them — to perfect them;
Regardless of my appeasement.

Perhaps someone may destroy him.
Or maybe just release him from this bond
And bring him to where he belongs.
But he was born in me; how could he belong anywhere?
I was mistaken with his purpose, it seems.

I am his sole contrast.
I am his body — he is my soul.
He is what I have suppressed and forced to nothing
As I attempt to appear as though it is what I want.

I have abused him and neglected to make amends
And he has returned with sharpened claws and a vengeance.
He is as I am; he is a part of me.
He is the only good part of me — the only strong part of me,
And in the wake of his death I'd die alone.

So I myself will guard him with the vigor
I'd imagine I would reserve for you alone.
He is not to be touched; not to be desecrated,
As he has become more important to me than even you, my love.
And I depict his blinded dedication identical
To that which allows me to watch you go.
Amitav Radiance Jun 2014
Drop all inhibitions
Let your imaginations fly
Unchain from doubt
That makes you stationary
Soul is all pervasive
And let it be your guide
Venturing new avenues
Take the boulevard to freedom
When you will meet yourself
To reveal and expose the truth
When, the null will surround you
Cocooning you into the infinite
Forever, bliss will kiss your soul











© Amitav (Radiance)
Jacob Oates May 2014
Verse 1

Formless, Unyielding, I cling to this feeling

"Contain yourself" they said (well I think I won't!)

Know this, discerning, submit to this yearning

Cause when it ties me down I (slip right through the rope!)

Arcane Prisons cloud these visions

Pressured by my inhibitions

Only when I see through the mist

Will I have the means to prove this

Chorus

(Give up it's so absurd!)

In time you'll find, I have the final word!

(Give up it's all a dream!)

Or so it seems when all of your thoughts are blurred

(Step up if you deserve)

In time you'll find, I have the final word

(Step up, it's all a dream)

Or so it seemed, are all of your thoughts confirmed?

Verse 2

Shameless, revealing, the key to this feeling

Sustain yourself they said (and they think I won't!)

Know this, determined, submit to this burden

Cause when I hear that sound I (give in to the hope)

Arcane prisons cloud these visions

Tap these walls for breaks I listen

Only when I see through the mist

Will I have the means to do this

Bridge

(Patience is befitting of a master

Still life's short and we just want it faster)

Chorus 2x

2nd Bridge

Break my locks, unlock the breaks internal

Burn down the walls, from my prison infernal

One last knock in case there's any more doubt

I won't stop until my fire burns out!

Augmented Final Chorus

(Step up if you deserve)

In time you'll find, I have the final word

(Step up, it's all a dream)

Or so it seemed, are all of your thoughts confirmed?

(Give up it's all a dream!)

Or so it seems when all of your thoughts are blurred

(Give up it's so absurd!)

Today you'll find, I'm having the final word!

— The End —