I miss you with all my being
having you in my life was so freeing
I miss the looks we exchanged
I miss the love we held so close
I see lovers every where
parts of me suffocates
as I know I won’t feel that with you anymore
parts of me awaits
as I feel this might still be a bad dream
I miss you with all my being
not having you makes my life meaning
-/- less beyond anyone can imagine

When I remember all the people I knew that passed away.

I keep wondering; Were their spirits standing next to their bodies watching all the wailing and weeping ?

Were they saying.  "hey stop crying I can see you!. ..Can't you see me?. I'm here ...I've not left"

Were they tired of not being heard, couldn't stand the tears then started off a lonely walk into eternity?
or maybe they were escorted by a host of angels ?

These answers I do not know....

What I know for sure is.. no matter how frequent death visits, it sure hurts afresh like hell!

baby I really need to feel your hue
at least in my dreams
I have been feeling heavy since your birthday
drained - weary - weak - weepy
.so alone that I can taste the void inside me.
thought friends of yours be a help but they injected a deeper void within my soul
a reminder they aren’t you
no one can ever be the way you were
...
wish you were here to hold me
wish you were here to adore me
wish you were here to love me
wish you were here to care for me
...
.visit me.please.come back to me.
living without you everyday is another stab right into my heart everyday
.the wound is getting wider and stronger.


.come back.

‪all that I knew and all that I lived for is nevermore yet it’s forever-more

You crumpled my heart,
just as casually as you step and crumple the useless fallen leaves.
I then realized that there I no point to sit and grieve.
I thought that I could trust you again,
but oh I was wrong.

You broke me again,
but this time it made me indefinitely strong.

scared of sleeping
‪to relive the same bad dream‬
the one where death taken you
from me