Our eyes deceive us
Why don't they believe us?

Play pretend for a night
The sheets were ocean breeze

God, she was beautiful
I took a bullet to the head

If I could I would draw her
So I wasn't runner-up

But we were just temporary
My penciled-in girl

and will leave you with tears and just go?
Why is it so easy for some to fling,
and later ignore your feeling?
Why is it so easy for some to tell a lie,
and then leave you with a question 'why'?
Why is it easy for some to call you special,
when you are treated just like normal?
Why is it easy for some to say they love you,
but they don't show that they do?
Why is it easy for some to surrender,
when they've promised to love you forever?


*-Steph Dionisio, June 06, 2016

"Paint me yellow," was the weirdest line i got from you.

"I like my egg as raw," was the silliest prank you've ever thrown.

"People cry, so let's laugh," was the best advice i got from you.

"Dont come looking for me," was the line that i didnt see coming.

because with the endless things i learn to know about you,
you just left me with a letter,
with no words,
no letters,
just our last picture taken this summer.

Dreams caged inside your eyes
And love begging to be had
Since I looked at you I knew
That all I'd searched for was in you

Every little dreamed I've dreamed
Falls apart instantly
But everything I've had with you seems
Never ending

And I can't wait to fall asleep
Right next to you
I can't even open my eyes
From the fear that you may not be there

And I can't express
All of the things I feel and
I've never felt this way before
I can't tell you
Just how much I love you
I don't wanna drive you away
Take away the keys and make you stay
All that you are
Is every single thing I hope for in me
I'm nothing without you
I'm nothing without you

Every single dream that I've dreamed
Is in the way you smile at me
And every little thing that I feel
Is right there waiting to be seen

I'm high on your touch
And every single time I can't stop
Grinning ear to ear when you look at me
And I can't feel your love

When you're laying next to him
How can I trust
Anything that you say
How can I believe

Every single word that you say
Has no meaning to me
I can't see me
With someone like you

Cause every single word I said
Only seemed ricochet
Instead of making you fall for me
It worked the other way

I can't sleep a night without you
I can't dream a dream
You're always right there waiting
To ruin me again

And I can't express
All of the things I feel and
I've never felt this way before
I can't tell you
Just how much I love you
I don't wanna drive you away
Take away the keys and make you stay
All that you are
Is every single thing I hope for in me
I'm nothing without you
I'm nothing without you

I'm nothing without you
But I'm better off without you

Quite enticing, plush
she is a spectacle,
all the same lacking
substance and depth.
A coffee table book
everyone who is
someone, curiously grab,
turn the pages in a jiffy,
just to feel the gloss
eye the seductive shine
ogle the ostentation,
and caress the pictures
in opulent colors,
then, let go quick
without any qualms.

Throw it back on the table
with a resounding thud
in no time and leave
without even looking back once!

unexpected, although assuming
breathe, self -- he’s two feet away
and gazing at you
don’t look, don’t look, don’t look

heart pounding, walk past, stride gracefully
great job -- so far, so good
pretend you’re busy, smile
laugh if you must, do not look

i failed, he looked back
we caught each other
fixed eyes at one another
what is he thinking? should i smile?

tick tock tick -- the end

i'm so tired of meaningless conversations with meaningless people...
i'm so tired of meaningless kisses...
i'm so tired of meaninglessness...

can't i just invest my energy in one person that really deserves it,
rather than dividing myself to temporary flings
that don't even feed my soul?