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Elioinai Sep 2016
Mommy must have thought Dad would love her less if she got fat
(I laugh at such an obvious lie)
She was sad her daughters were chubby
(One got anorexia, but I didn't change)
She told me my knees were ugly
I shouldn't wear such short skirts
fat legs weren't pretty
What?! 17 mag didn't say that!
But the lie hurt and tore my confidence
A crop top with a round belly isn't ugly either,
Ok?
No, I'm not OK
What do clothes have to do with freedom?
I dress for attention sometimes
But it's not ******
Is it alright to dress for attention?
We all want to look nice and get a complement
This Is My Freedom
It's Worth The Fight
Luke 12:23 "For life is more than food, and your body more than clothing. Look at the ravens. They don't plant or harvest or store food in barns, for God feeds them. And you are far more valuable to him than any birds! Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? And if worry can't accomplish a little thing like that, what's the use worrying over bigger things?"
Hello, my name is Emma,
and I'm fat. But when I try to eat less and lose weight,
I'm anorexic.

Hello, my name is Emma,
and I'm a **** for kissing too many women. But when I try to kiss men,
I'm a fake lesbian.

Hello, my name is Emma,
and I'm a ****. But when I tell you that I have only had *** once,
my new nickname is ****** Mary.

Hello, my name Emma,
and I'm human.

In the society that I live in the perfect human doesn't exist.
I could be doing everything right and I would be boring,
or I could do everything wrong and I would be a failure. Society is never satisfied.
People are trying their hardest but in today's society the hardest,
isn't good enough.
We need to learn to love one another as equal people.
Let them weigh what they weigh,
love who they love,
and sleep with either one person or a thousand people.
We need to accept that people are different but that difference,
is just an opportunity to learn new things about living.

(e.k.j.)
fleuroses Sep 2016
Beauty is not subjective.
It can be measured in
Pounds, inches, sizes, and angles.
Please don't tell me that beauty is
In the eye of the beholder because
I have been on both sides of the battle.
Skinny girl, starving girl, dizzy girl,
Cute girl, wanted girl, size 6 babe.
Fat girl, feeds herself, insecure,
Never good enough, size 12 *****.
There is no way to win this battle
Unless you conform
To their standards.
I need to find what I have lost
ab Aug 2016
am i insane that i want a label for this
thing living in my mind

i can't enjoy food
without making it a numbers game
carbs and calories, carbs and calories
not too much meat but keep protein up
fats are okay as long as it's not oil
and you know the exact caloric value
measure every bite
weigh everything
round up
add it up twice just in case
you were wrong the first time

i'm not even close to underweight

but i can't stand without getting faint


they tell me it's my bipolar acting up

but do you know how many times
someone has looked at me and said
"you're not my usual type,
i usually go for the really tiny ones"

god, i'm making it sound like it's worse
than it is, i'm teenage girl
trying to be dramatic, right?

but why can't i look at a photo of myself
without wanting to cry
~sigh
ab Aug 2016
it
it gnaws on my brain rabidly,
with its razor-like teeth

what is it?
i don't know

all i know is that it makes my breath catch in my throat
as if it's being held there by taloned claws,
my heart beating as though it's being used as a drum

and this...this thing
haunts my dreams

it causes nightmares
of losing everyone i love

it also takes my will to live
and smashes it between its palms,
so that my mind is whirling

but is void of the ability or motivation to take action

what is this creature?
how can i defeat it?
surely this is not a part of me

but it seems like
no matter how much ice i press to my skin
no matter how much control i have
no matter what medication i'm on,

it returns

and in returning,

steals my mind
~probably the last one, it's 2am
fleuroses Aug 2016
"You're not confident. That's what makes you unattractive"
Well *******, I tried to be
But somehow confidence is not achievable with a big body
Did I have "low self esteem" tattooed on my forehead?
What made you think it was okay for you to criticize me?
The love I had to give was endless
And it wasn't skin-deep like yours
I mean, it wouldn't have lasted if it was...
You weren't exactly a looker
I had a big heart, but maybe big hearts only come in big bodies
ab Aug 2016
what is
one bite less?
what is two
in the grand scheme of things

i can't seem to stop,
yet i'm finding solace in it

he tells me
aim for 1200,
but what does he know?

i'm getting where i need to be
and nobody, living or dead
will stop me.

it's not that i don't want to

i just can't stop

not yet.
~sorry for the absence
Veronica Jul 2016
For all the girls who are out there
And think they are fat and ugly
Your not
Your beautiful
Your body is ****
Don't let anyone bring you down
We all can't be the same sizes
Imagine might as well make us all look alike
Thats why god made us different
And we all go through different stuff
Please love yourself as who you are
Trust me there is someone out there
Who loves you the way you are
Veronica Jul 2016
I want to do this for people who feel or think they are fat
I sometimes feel like that
I start letting my brain run and i look in the mirror
And "Say no one will ever want me like that."

Im 5"1 and weigh 160 pounds
And honestly im proud and at the sametime not
I have started to do my exercise to loose this extra fat
But i still dont see anything wrong with my ***
But when someone tells me how much weigh i have gain
I response telling them "what can i say god made me like this"
And "please dont worry,"
"I will loose my weight whenever i think is the right time,"
And "in my own way,"
When i was told "No one is going to want you like this,"
I would say "i have a bf who is deeply in love,"
"We are about to go out do you wanna come long?"
"Oh wait i dont want you as a tricycle taggin along."
"But even if i werent to have a bf i know im good enough,"
"I could have anyone i want,"
"Is just that im not ready and it has to be whenever i want."
So please mind your own bussiness
And worry about your own life
Because i dont need your useless critizes killing my vibe.
Lose weight
2, 5, 7, 10 pounds a week
You're still fat
Restrict no food for a week
Under 200 calories everyday
Get skinny
Too skinny
Do it
You'll just go back anyway
40 lost 9 weeks
Now we go faster and harder
Look, you're in control
Can't find that anywhere else
17 in 4 weeks
Then on 'til death
But you won't look like you have no self control like when you were 40 pounds over weight
Hey, did you know that you still need to lose a lot
Ya still look fat pig
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