i don't want to utter
the words "only if i was "
only if i was brave enough,
only if i had enough courage,
only if i had convinced myself that
pain is better than regret.

but i'm scared too.
scared to hear any words from you.

i don't want to be rash.
but i don't want to just sit here either,
waiting for everything to be too late.
i'm scared of making a move.
i'm scared of waiting it out.
i'm scared i'll end up ******* everything up.
i'm scared you'll find someone already.
i'm scared you'll find me stepping out of line.
i'm scared you'll leave me
and nothing will ever be the same.

i'm scared, for ****'s sake.
i'm so **** scared yet,
i don't know what else to do.

One day
I was walking
By this lonely road
Heading for nowhere
Then I thought of you

One day
I was dreaming
This unintelligible haze
Of maddening nothings
Then I thought of you

One day
I was writing
The days of my life
Where not a thing stood out
Then I thought of you

One day
I was reading
This bumbling love story
That I never related to
Then I thought of you

One day
I would say
This out loud to you
Then probably it can be a reality
And not just a thought of you

i'm a mess but i love you more than the universe could ever confess.

You are very curious about who loves you,
You always share about those crush things,
But can't you just wait till the season becomes spring?
Right, summer is our only season here.

If I tell you, would you avoid me?
If I confess, would you still talk to me?
I am a coward, I know,
I'm just scared to lose you if I do.

I knew from the start,
That I have no chances for you.
But it's March, we are getting apart,
Should I take the risk?

With you in my heart
Staring at your face that looks like an art
This time, the light appears in front of my sight
Now I know that I can finally find my Mr. Right

Is this attraction?
Or a drug that can be an addiction?
Inside my mind, I have a mission
But I have no confidence to make an action

Loving you is not a mistake
But maybe confessing can make my heart break
If you only knew from the start that you are my aim
Will you be right beside me for our feelings are the same?

Tried many times to confess
Yet no confidence for I don't have finesse
Suddenly we became close out of the blue
But why do I felt the space between me and you?

They maybe think that It's absurd
"A lady with no chance", that's what I heard
But I don't care a thing for what can I do?
I just want him to say, "I love you too"