She feels so lost, so alone
Emptiness consumes her soul
Her world has just become unknown
Surrendered to the knife of strife
Cuts so deep, cuts that bleed
Smothered she is by the knife of life

Her heart is ripped to shreds
Her young mind is surrounded by fear
False promises ring in her head
Demons are overtaking her soul
Sacrificed she becomes to the blade
Her release from the never ending cold.

Staring off into the wide open sky
She sees all the stars that shine so bright
Hope starts to glisten back in her eyes
Escaping from all that consumed her mind
the smile once lost, is finding its way back
Slowly but surely…in time

The knife wins again, this time deep
Extreme emotion floods her body
The blood runs down to meet her feet
Her eyes drift off and start to fade
Her world has just come to close
Her soul surrendered to the blade


She screams out for help in her own little way
But no one is there…
She is left in the shadows, left behind in the darkness

the only place left to go is up
so I lick the syrup
from my fingers and drive north,
but every time I leave this place
behind it doesn’t stay;
it relays back and forth
between my head and the
thick rope that ties it to the back
of the car where it scrapes
against the road
and bounces between
the back tires and
the north star,
which you pointed out to me
once on a night
when it wasn’t the brightest
in the sky.

you stood behind me and pointed up
and I heard your hand move
and saw your voice rise
and questions knocked this place
out of my mind until
a child
tugged on my sleeve
and I came tumbling down,
pulled along
by the sheer weight
of here.

I remember when I was the only one who liked you
You have always been in my heart
I remember when we hung out everyday for hours on end
You were my best friend & I was yours
But we got older..
And you got more attractive
Now many girls like you
I am still one of them
But I'm not as attractive as some of the girls who like you
So I don't get to talk to you as much
We have *** every once in a while
Because I just want something to remain between us
But we don't talk in front of other people anymore
We keep our affair a secret
You sneak over after school now
I miss the connection
I miss the feelings
Cause you don't have them anymore
But I still do
I still love you
But I wont tell you I still like you
In fear of losing our only remaining connection

You never remember the small
things like the way you sighed against
my neck and the hole in my shirt
and the hole in my heart
and the hole you left behind you.


F.Z.N

Slowly, night falls.
She remembers him.
The time where they constantly exchange words.
Words of life's experiences
Happiness or sadness, darkness or brightness.
But now, his gone.
Leaving the story line undone.