You are my best mistake
and if I could go back in time
I’d still choose you.

All was wrong
but felt so right,

following you down,
struggling to lift you up.

I’d make the same mistake
all over again

over anything,
over anyone,

I'd always choose you.

I am afraid of affection
yet I crave it

I want you to stay
but then I want you to go

I'm content one minute
and the next I am angry

I blow up with anger
after taking in so much

My mood swings from highs and lows
every. single. day.

I want to care for me
but then I want you to treat me like trash

I want you to love me
but then I want you to not give a **** about me

I like to be alone
but I don't ever want to be lonely

My sadness is always there
just sometimes milder than others

And don't forget about the
suicidal thoughts

My mind has convinced me
that I am a horrible person

My mind has convinced me
that the people around me hate me

My mind has convinced me
that I am trapped in this hell

What is wrong with me?

Can someone save me?

What is it about
Does anyone really know
Does anyone care

Brian Hill - 2019 # 311

It takes twelve minutes for me to arrive
So if I come over, is that alright?
I know it's late
And I’m in such a state
But, baby, I need you tonight