All of this torment
I did not consent
In all this suffering
There is no comforting
In all this despair
No one cares
In this grief
I get no relief
I am so spent
More than bent
In all this pain
I am not sane
In all this anguish
I just languish
It's pure desolation
If I failed to mention
With no more hope
I only cope

Dripping like hot molten rock
Liquid gold it just won't stop
Dropping like rose petals to the ground
The splashes of red is all around

I've seen that face
So full of sorrow and disgrace
I've seen scars like those before
The demons are poring through the door

Let them come, I don't care anymore
Living has become to much of a chore
I scream and yell, trying to get someone to care
But no one will, learned long ago life is so very far from fair

So I'll take my pills
There suppose to cure my ills
But they don't, nothing will
Living my life takes to much skill

Anguish is over running my cup
I'm so very close to giving up
So if you don't see me come tomorrow
You'll know I couldn't take the sorrow

A woman draped in a black hooded dress
Softly and slowly the coffin she caress
She is here for the death
She is quiet bereft
The tears slide down her flawless face
Cheeks a pink rose tint, lips blood red hue, there's no disgrace
Her hair is raven colored, she is nothing, if not grace
Her healing hands over her face she places
Her gut wrenching anguished moans can be heard for miles
She falls to her knees in the aisles
Behind her closed eyes she sees every moment of this life
The microseconds of happiness the years of anguish and strife
She cries and wails for a life lived this way
She moans and sways
For in that coffin is where her life lays

All of this torment
I did not consent
In all this suffering
There is no comforting
In all this despair
No one cares
In this grief
I get no relief
I am so spent
More than bent
In all this pain
I am not sane
In all this anguish
I just languish
It's pure desolation
If I failed to mention
With no more hope
I only cope

Here you are, my oldest friend
I knew we would meet again
I realy wish you would of stayed away
But again I just seemed to cave
The stress was all to much
And on me you decided to munch
You didn't just walk through my door
You ******* knocked me to the floor
You made sure I did get up
With grief and sorrow you filled up my cup
So I'll just lay here and slowly languish
In all of my gut wrenching anguish

I am caught, crucified,
My hands trembling, extended,
I clasp for these walls.
I have lost faith, in the night,
In the tight embrace of love
My back is broken.
Prepared, for this crooked bed.
Prepared, for the hounding face of time.

During this month I was told that
My level of intellect was dangerous.
It truly makes sense because
My speech can't keep up with my thoughts and
My wandering daydreams control my nights as I lay still,
Begging my mind for rest.
I have no patience for my peers
Because I read them with confusion and shock,
All easily and quickly
Like ******, young adult fiction.
A boy once told me that my mind was a maze,
But he was wrong because
There are no dead ends.
There is no rest.
Every fully dissected thought,
every soul crushing emotion
Leads to the next.
And so, my mind won't let me rest.
I will never be at peace.
They say intellect is a gift,
But it is truly a curse
As I grow more restless
With each passing hour.

All of this torment
I did not consent
In all this suffering
There is no comforting
In all this despair
No one cares
In this grief
I get no relief
I am so spent
More than bent
In all this pain
I am not sane
In all this anguish
I just languish
It's pure desolation
If I failed to mention
With no more hope
I only cope

As the sullen figure of a woman sets alone in her room
You can feel in the atmosphere all the gloom
As memories rap on the doors in her mind
They well remain there for all time
For her they will never depart
For even if time erases them from the mind,they are written with scars in her heart
She sits there shoulders hunched over
A river of tears sliding down her checks, no longer able to hold her composure
She had slipped into her room, her sanctuary
The burden of being the strong one, for the moment she could no longer carry

Please don't look for me I've hidden myself. I'm stuck in an endless void, there is no escape, surrounded by voices that won't let me out.. won't you tell what Ive done its the only way I'll be set free.
I'm breaking down and shaking 'round in
This world so helplessly
But you just laugh and grin
Completely blinded..
Nevermind What's the point now, I'm broken..
I try to stop my breath
Even knowing the truth won't unravel
Me until my death
So breakable I am, unbreakable you are 
I'm shaking but you are unshakable I'm fragile and you are not.. Now 
The real you I've found and it has corrupted me.
I stand alone in this world that keeps on changing
But im hiding away, my true self is fading!
I hope you give up
There's nothing left to see...
No,  I don't want you to look at me.
I never wanted to hurt you, helping you was my only intent.. The guilt ways heavy on my conscious.. Sins I must have commit..so until the end
I'm begging you, please, just to remember me...
As clear as I used to be, before my heart and mind was broken... the time where you first met me.
The loneliness that wraps around keeps deepening until I drown
Fond memories we used to share pierce me 'til I no longer care
I cannot run, I cannot hide, I cannot think, I cannot find
I cannot move, I cannot leave you! I'm 
Unravelling in this world.
A change thats so illogical
It shouldn't have been possible
I'm left behind now a forgotten memory of a time once passed
Before our fate and future starts tell me will we last?