some people think math is beautiful because it's the same in every country
I am not one of those people, the people who see beauty in everything

and I dont needed math to count the days since you have left me..
it were 129 days.. 3096 hours.. 23 minutes and 31 seconds.. since you left
maybe the nigths were harder since you've bin gone, longer and sadder

I wanted to go with you but you never allowed me, he needed his space
I don't believe in 'space' if you love someone you want that person near
he never found that necessary, he never found me necessary

but don't you feel sad for me please, after a while the pain faded away
I learned to deal with the fact he was better of without me..

the picture of his face just wouldnt leave my mind
and the need of wanting the chase him grow everyday..

I waited for days, months, I would wait for years, hours and minutes

waking up every morning still wearing his Iron maiden shirt..
only because I don't want him to leave my life, not for real, imagine

this boy was like a hero from the movies, a prince from the fairytales
a beautiful human being, so different, a melody that kept following me..
he always gave me the feeling of belonging of being worth existing
when I was with him the world was a bit more beautiful

that feeling when you dont even know what the ******* are feeling

I had that, always, whenever I was with him.

I missed you at 3am, when the world was asleep and  when I was alone
I whispered to myself that it's only natural
But when I missed you at 3pm, when the world was awake and I was surrounded by people
It was only then that I realized...
It's always been you

It's just my heart beating, I still got a soul in me but I don't care to love anymore, just take my body and use it the way I ask you to. Place my on the bed and use me to the highest advantage, **** a feeling the moment, just kiss me where it hurts to numb the pain. Pretty girls don't cry we just ***** the pain away with another guy. How does he like it, because I can't find a care to tell you how much it taints me. This night is dry I feel gloomy and gold. Holding the higher power with the loss of gold medal. Da **** was I suppose to do? What was the movie script for how life was suppose to be? I leave for 2 seconds to come back deceived and love thrown away. I'ma hold these tears back out of existence, let our partnership sail off in the night under the stars. Let my body be fulfilled in the hands of my eternity love. With no promises of a better tomorrow. Just slow kisses signaling of a better us. Then you'll never have to worry about what we could've been in the now.
Peace~love~happier you!

I can't help but cry
I think about the distance
And the next time I'll see you again
I don't know the exact date or time
But my lips miss you
Like my lungs need air after being under water for so long
I'm suffocating without the scent of you
Without the taste of you
I want to hear your voice
Not just over the phone
But whispering in my ear
I miss the warmth of your breath
And the smell of your hair
Life without you is so dull
There are no colors around me
Only worry and fear are the emotions I feel
I want to be with you
I have to be with you
5,000 miles with an ocean between us
I am afraid of a future without you
I'm confused and puzzled as to why this had to be so complicated
Why us
Why were we cursed with the terrible luck of finding love in someone who lives so far away
It almost seems impossible to maintain
But what's even more impossible is living a life without you
It's unimaginable
I would wait forever
Just for a single day with you

Everyone always says that the other side is greener.
But sometimes the green is neon,
and how real is neon?

She whimpers atop
Stairwell; I pass by, never
Even to wipe but one tear.

blueberries gasoline and prostate gland
breast cancer Wonderbread and pacifier

controlled experiment space travel and honey
peanuts inductive reasoning and electricity

tornadoes torture chamber and biscuits
copyright car radio cantaloupe

golden eagle lunch break tomato
Romanian songbook rhubarb and barbed wire

always hungry nevermind meat loaf
goosefoot mango juice Ipad

mosquito bite city street and broccoli
Chinese cabbage female *** drive water sport

pure contralto goat yogurt new year
black death white light and green tea

i

Off in the beaten path
An Echelon of secret tribal's;
I pirouetted with them in plumage
Mine queen showed up, just on arrival.

ii

Her timing was perfect
As tis she watched me caper;
Me and mine Reyna's amour'
Like tambourines, shook with ancient shaker's.

iii

Hot coal ember's
Igneous in ourn chest's;
Ourn pulmonary arterie's
Bracketed, by her tribesgirl dress.

iv

We were gladden
Betwixt the wilderness;
Under mango leaves
Jane seduced me, equatorial phene's.

v

Whilst the darkness wore down
And the tribesmen went to sleep;
Me and mine protector
In the dusk, disappeared, into eachother's soul's to keep.



©Brandon nagley
©Earl Jane dedication
©Lonesome poet's poetry

it has been days and weeks
since my tears kissed my cheeks
yet here i am, writing in such a long time
with you in my mind, i cant think of any rhyme

it's always you for months and weeks,
it's you my mind always thinks
your name my mouth always speaks
your soul my heart always seeks