today,
someone said your name,
and my heart still aches,
five hours later.
i never want to see you again,
because old wounds will open
up, wounds that have healed
over these past three months.
if i see you again,
i will fall in love with you,
and it would be a lot harded,
and a lot more painful to
fall out of it.
that's why,
i am saying goodbye,
for now,
because i don't know,
what will happen if i
see your face standing
in front of me,
instead of in my mind.
just know,
that i will love you
until i die,
because you stayed the same
person through it all,
and i am the one who changed.
*you appear in my daydreams, dreams
and reality, g.
i just wish you would
stop appearing in my reality,
just in my dreams and daydreams,
because there you are who i
want you to be,
and who i need you to be.
as much as i want to,
i can't see you smile, again.
it will melt me
like last time.
you are the only one
who can get to me,
g.