Slowly slipping
Losing control
Heartbeat blipping
Losing control
Blood pressure dipping
Losing Control
Hands griping
Losing control
Blood dripping
Out of control
My mind is breaking
There is no mistaking
I'm out of control

I have a coffin full of memories
Love of death and morbid curiosities
Grave full of dirt and lifeless bones
Not cold or dark enough to be home
Pale and lifeless, limp and dead
Thoughts of eternal night fill my head

My strength comes from my anger
My anger comes from my pain
My pain comes from my failure
My failure is my shame

Adrenaline pushes me forward
Synapses  fire in my brain
My ideas become my plans
My plans drive me insane

The spiral is unending
It keeps taking me around
It crushes my inner being
It dumps me to the ground

I keep on listening
I hear the deathly sound
My voice has denied me
I can't be heard in the crowd

My life is bittersweet
It's left a sour taste in my mouth
Since the day that i was born
My life's been going south

Heal me preacher
Do what you can
Heal me preacher
I'm a godless man
Heal me preacher
Deliver me from sin
Heal me preacher
Make me new again
Hear me preacher
I cry in my sleep
Hear me preacher
Listen to me weep
Hear me preacher
I shout your name
Hear me preacher
I scream in pain
Help me preacher
I've lost my way
Help me preacher
I'm dying today
Save me preacher
I hold out my hand
Save me preacher
No one else can

Razorwire and landmines, a war inside my head
Losing my grip on reality,driving my insane
Sinking into delusion,obsession with the dead
Tearing myself apart, thriving on the pain
Closer to the edge than ever before
Icarus's wings, watch me soar
Sun in my eyes, dirt in my mouth
A fall from grace, such a disgrace
Icepick to my eye, mallet in your hand
Two taps, a twist and its done
Peace of mind, emotions gone
Now I'm the perfect citizen can't you see
Calm and docile, sheepish as can be
And all it took was a Lobotomy.

How much do you want
How much do you need
There's only so much
I'm able to concede
Talk means nothing
When your silent
Aggression is everything
When your violent
I stand alone
In a crowd
Nobody hears me
I scream so loud
In front of your face
But never seen
I'm so *****
You're so clean
From the beginning
Until the end
Rigid and uncompromising
You'll never bend

Trudging through the fields of grey
Worn boots that have seen better days
Sword hanging from bloodied hand
Death spreads across the land
Crows circle around his head
They carry the voices of the dead
Sky grey with cold, bitter rain
He stares across the dismal plain
A journey long through endless years
Left behind his childhood fears
Long forgotten love and joy
No more an innocent boy
He's killed for duty, honor and pride
Now he kills just to survive
His battered face and bloodshot eyes
His wounded soul's unending cries
Adorned shield, like him battered and broken
All the oaths he should never have spoken
Promises made to god and to man
Abandoned like a misguided plan
Hunched over and broken the wasted land he roams
There's nowhere left he can call home
Laid to waste by his own hand
Once a paradise now a desolate land
The last one standing wins the prize
He should have read between the lies
Sold his soul for fortune and fame
In the end only he's to blame
Killed them all, newborn to the old
From the weak right up to the bold
Couldn't be stopped once the blood-lust started
By his hand, from life all have departed
A job well done or done to well
Now he lives an eternal hell

Don’t you realize your dying to live 
Always wiling to receive

Never willing to give

I’ve heard what doesn’t **** you makes you stronger

I believe it made you harder

I can’t take it any longer

You blame me 

I blame me too

Closed eyes will never see

What you’ve put me through

You tore out my heart put it in my hands

Told me I’d never make it

I wasn’t part of your plan

You left me standing here in the rain

Now I’m cold and lonely

Full of misery and pain

I blame you

You blame me 

I blame me too

Open eyes may never see

What I’ve put myself through
I just couldn't let things be
Now there's nothing I can do

Internal conflict
Life of lies
Lonely convict
Freedom denied
Tearing from the inside
Struggling to get out
Seeing through dead eyes
Voiceless I still shout
Here I am
Trapped in my skin
There's no escape
Prisoned within
My body is a prison
Ridden with strife
Dying on the inside
This is my life

The sun has set and darkness calls
Alone I walk down these empty halls
Silent speech on deaf ears falls
Surrounded by high built walls
The thing that shouldn't be has come
His very presence makes us numb
Speechless we're all struck dumb
To his rule we shall all succumb
The fires roar to the sky
Evil in every man's eye
Enemies all they must die
In the bed we made we lie
The waves crush upon the shore
Ever seeking evermore
Always out to settle the score
Never ready for what's in store
The temptation to give in
To every heedless mortal sin
To never loose but always win
To never stop but always begin
The master calls to his slave
Tells him to dig his own grave
Doesn't matter how much he gave
His soul just couldn't be saved
The temptress sings her siren song
Her nights are cold, lonely and long
Only looking for a man strong
But the love she gives is so wrong
The story ends where it began
As darkness rules and covers the land
It comes down to one last man
Will he cower or will he stand

Angels fall from heaven
With ****** in their eyes
Swords drawn for blood
They won't be denied
They've come for vengeance
They've come out of pride
To take back what's theirs
What they've been denied

The demons rise up
Like the dead from their graves
The dying masses cry out
They cry out to be saved
Angry and smelling of hell
They come to protect
****** swords drawn
They demand your respect

It's a clash of the ages
As demons and angles war
The earth is the battleground
Here to settle a score
A brotherhood divided
Since the beginning of time
A difference of opinion
Over the divine

Those that were cast out
Those that were raised up
The fine line of obedience
Knowing when you've had enough
The war will go on forever
The end will never come
We are the pawns caught in the middle
And will be until kingdom come

We are the causalities
In a war over beliefs
We are the plunder
That the victors get to reap    
So close your eyes
Try to get some sleep
I doesn't matter what we believe
Our souls aren't ours to keep

It was a bright day full of gloom

As we gathered about your tomb
Buried deeply beneath the surface
Solemn mourning was our purpose
Dressed in black as should be

Dark smiles for the world to see
Somber souls we came to morn

For deathly dying we were born

Now body lying beneath the earth
Decaying corpse farthest from birth
Dancing the dirge of final death

We dance it until our last breath

it all went away

I closed my eyes and the world went away
No flash of light, no new day
It just all went away
I opened my eyes and couldn't see a thing
It was all gone, nothing remained
No dark of night, no light of day
It all had gone away
The emptiness frightened me at first
I was lonely and scared
Like those times when nobody cared
When I had nobody and nothing was shared
I had nothing anyway
Before it all went away
The world didn't end for those who believed
The world didn't end for those who were decieved
The world didn't end for those who recieved
The world only ended for me
I had nothing anyway
Before it all went away
Someone took it and gave it all away
They left me here by myself
Like a forgotten toy on the highest shelf
They left me here without any help
So I closed my eyes and made it all go away
Never to be another new day

I am everything
While being nothing
I know you
Without knowing me
I've been inside
From the outside
I see your soul
With eyes closed
Everything has changed
But remains the same

The blood on my hands holds no shame
The more I **** the higher my fame
A god of war I claim my throne
For all my sins I could never atone
The righteous I trample under my feet
They are full of lies and deciet
My crimes I wear proudly on my sleeve
I have no reason to decieve
I hold the keys to eternal judgement
I mead out the rewards and punishment
There is blackness on every soul
Life on earth has taken it's toll
If i could I'd wipe every slate clean
But that is well beyond my means
The system is set, the rules in stone
As is the marrow to the bone
You think me evil, you think me cruel
Remember I'm not the One who made the rules
The scales I hold are balanced and true
As long as you have paid your due
You see no one enters for free
This is just the way it has to be
So toil your lives away in the field
And hope you bring in a high enough yield
Me I'd rather weild my sword
And claim I **** for the Lord

Our polite smiles
Are so easily fake
Our courteous words
Are hidden with hate
A warmest of welcomes
Couldn't be more wrong
A most cheerful refrain
From a long hated song
Won't you stay for dinner
We really wish you wouldn't
Won't you have another drink
We know you really shouldn't
Our warmest wises goodbye
Just another great lie
We hope you'll soon return
We much rather you die

Threw it away (The Kiss Of Death)

She walks through the forest barefoot and cold
She used to be young then she grew old
Used to glide across the dance floor
Endless suitors knocking at her door
Time slipped by and left her alone
The hourglass turned and left her a crone
She used to dazzle with just a smile
Was at the top of every trend and style
It fled away with the leaves of fall
Now all she has is death's call
The winter's snow has come to stay
She cannot escape, gone is the light of day

It's been so long since she felt any cheer
Eternal night brings mystery and fear
Death's embrace is stiff and cold
After so many years she decides to be bold
She walks through the forest unto her death
Watches the mist that is her last breath
What is before her she doesn't know
So tired she lays down in a bed of snow
The cold covers her and eases her journey
She relaxes and lets go of her worry
The days are past when she had a care
When her skin was soft and so fair
The days are gone to never return
When for love she would yern
Her last thoughts pass through her mind
Non of them are beautiful or kind
She starts to think she gave in too soon
Longs for the days when for her men would swoon
With cheeks so rosey and lips so red
She could get anything with the promise of her bed
But death is cruel without a care
His judgement never seems fair
He is not your lover or your friend
Your stubbornness does not offend
His only affection is the kiss of death
As he steals away your life's breath

A loaf of bread
A cup of win
Feast of the ******
So divine
Corpses rot
In open graves
Food for crows
The end of days
Hourglass broken
Times spilt sand
Famine and pestilence
Cover the land
The fires burn high
Mother Earth moans
Her children all dead
She's covered with their bones
Opens wounds
Never healed
Mothers last breath
Our doom sealed

Come walk in my Garden
Come hold my hand
Give me your attention
I'll take all I can

Let's stroll among the Roses
They are so sweet and pure
Keep your hands from the thorns
From their touch there is no cure  


We'll walk in the Moonlight
I assure you I mean no harm
Keep your eyes on the Roses
I'll keep a hold on your arm

Walking over the Graveyard
You'd never guess it was there
Deep beneath my precious Roses
I tend it with great care

It feeds my Roses nicely
You have no need to fear
It's never over crowded
Am I making myself clear

Let's walk a little farther
Stepping out of the Moonlight  
I'll take you to a special place
Give you a kiss goodnight

I'll hold you oh so close
No reason to be scared
You've come this far with me
I hardly believe you dared

You look a little pale
Would you like to lie down
It's just you and me and my Roses
There's no one else around

Here among my Roses
You've left the world behind
Liberties I have taken
I really hope you don't mind

I'll lay you in among the Roses
You'll bleed out nice and slow
No one will be the wiser
No one will ever know

We walked in my Garden
We shared the pure Moonlight
I gave you a final resting place
Your last kiss goodnight

Life is simple
Life is sweet
Life clean
Life is neat
Death is easy
Death is sweet
Death is final
Death is complete

Darkness falls
Over my heart
Love fails
I fall apart
Dreams crushed
Never realized
Heart breaks
My soul dies
Sinking fast
I can't swim
Everything lost
I can't win
Darkness prevails
Nightmares reign
My life ends
Full of pain

Fearless and falling
I go down
Helpless and drowning
I go down
Burning and dying
I go down
Crying and moaning
I go down
Alone

A ballad composed
But never sung
A masterpiece painted
But never hung
A love confessed
But never returned
A lesson taught
But never learned
I feel no sympathy
For chances thrown away
I feel only apathy
Towards the coming day