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1017

K A L A Y A A N
Tila kaygandang pakinggan,
Pero nung minsang sinabi ****
"Malaya ka na"
**Pwede ko bang hindian?
061224

Malaya kong isisigaw ang Ngalan Mo —
Dakila Ka,
Dakila Ka ngang talaga.

Saksi ako sa kabutihan Mo
Sa buhay kong balang araw
Ay babalik din sa alikabok —
Na ang bawat pangako Mo’y
Mga balang lumagablag sa aking kaibuturan.

Saksi ako sa pag-ibig ****
Umaakap at umaakay sa akin
Pabalik at papalapit Sa’yo —
Ang pagmamahal **** kusang ibinibigay,
Ibinubuhos, mabuhay lamang ako.

Saksi ako sa grasya **** umaapaw,
Nalulunod ako Sa’yong pag-ibig
At sa Liwanag Mo’y nabubulag ako
Hanggang sa…
Hindi ko na masilayan
Ang dati kong pagkatao.

Nagbago na pala ako,
Ako’y binago Mo.
Malayang-malaya na pala ako,
Ako’y pinalaya Mo.

Dakila — ‘yan Ka,
Mahal — mahal Kita, Ama.
0219

God’s provision is manna to keep,
Manna to embrace,
Manna to enjoy.

Under the heavens, one can burst into complain
When he knows not the worth
Of even a single drop pouring like rain.

While the others rejoice —
Dancing in the moonlight, in the fiercest milky way
For his prayers have been answered,
His tears, he knows are worth keeping in a bottle.

One can roar like a lion in desperation:
And so he starves but neither he was killed by others’ bow
Nor the strong cravings in his belly
But by grumbling with his poisonous words
Like wearing a snake as a scarf on his neck.

One can ask for more that are outside of his reach,
But there is one who before he asks,
has already been greatly received.

His grips are not on his pocket,
Not even on the purses which were secondhand,
But it’s a grip of one who is courageous enough —
The one whose arrows are not traded to the west,
Nor does his shield echo while in defense of his keeps.
The one who knows whom he truly trusts:
A trademark of a mighty warrior,
Never peeling in deceit.

Two eyes can be set on the same red sparrow
But in the goodbye of the mist,
Truth is still the truth, there’ll be no hidden things.
One eye blurs into the abyss of fire
While the other is embraced with the kiss of the heavens.

We can choose to be one who is choked by his words —
The one whose sword is in his golden chest,
Never knowing the bleeding of his heart,
The one whose spirit is mourning alive.

But rather be the one who is the recipient of grace,
Melody is the Sun, shone on his face
The one whose greatest weapon is the decree of his heart.

He thirsts for instructions,
Knowing the throne isn’t his.
He dwells in the court of corrections, disowning his pride —
So be the one whose trust is never in his might.
Numbers 11:17-20
And I will come down and talk with you there. And I will take some of the Spirit that is on you and put it on them, and they shall bear the burden of the people with you, so that you may not bear it yourself alone. And say to the people, Consecrate yourselves for tomorrow, and you shall eat meat, for you have wept in the hearing of the Lord, saying, “Who will give us meat to eat? For it was better for us in Egypt.” Therefore the Lord will give you meat, and you shall eat. You shall not eat just one day, or two days, or five days, or ten days, or twenty days, but a whole month, until it comes out at your nostrils and becomes loathsome to you, because you have rejected the Lord who is among you and have wept before him, saying, “Why did we come out of Egypt?”’”
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As for me and my house,
We will serve the Lord.
We will build a home,
A home that once built me,
A home that I dream to build us.

Let me hold fast to you as we shall be one
And I will not be ashamed,
For I will be with you in both spirit and truth.

The Lord has fit us together, I am your helper (Gen 2:18)
I was brought to you, from the rib that was taken from you (V. 22).

I will walk in love as Christ loved us
And gave himself up, what a fragrant offering! (Eph 5:2)
I will submit to you as to the Lord (V. 22)
Love me as you love the Church, the Bride of Christ (V. 25).
Let me be washed of water w/ His words
That He may sanctify me (V. 26)
Let me respect you as you love me as your wife. (V. 33)
Parang ako yung nag-aabang sa kanto
Yung ang tagal makasakay
Yung umulan, umaraw makapaghihintay
Yung kahit naiinitan na, mag-aabang pa rin.

Aasa pa ba ako sa muli **** pagdating?
Pano pag dumaan ka’t hindi pala nakatingin?
Pano pag bumalik ka pero may sakay na pala?

Kaya nga ayoko ng laro
Minsan madaya kasi
Seryoso na, pero ba’t nakikipagbiro pa?

Hindi laruan ang puso
Na pwede may mag “Time First”
Pag na-checkmate na ang isa.

Pilit ko mang ikubli sayo
Pero sana hindi na lang
Tinanggap ang hamon
Ang hirap pala mag-move on
Tutulak ka nga
Pero may pasan pa rin.

Walang pasintabi,
Katapusan na pala.

May nabibigo pala talaga sa laban
Hindi man lubos na maintindihan
May istratehiya pala
Pero sa bawat laban, bawat laro
May sasalo pa rin pala sa bawat kabiguan.

Titingin pa rin sa Kalangitan
Titiklupin ng Hari ng Sanlibutan
Ang pahinang walang saysay
May maisusulat pa rin pala
Kahit sa pusong naging sugatan.

Ang Amang may Likha, nagbigay-pag-asa
Patuloy na iibig nang tunay
Pagkat simula pa lang nang pagsagwan
Hindi ko alam kung kailan hihinto
**Pero alam kong may mararating ito.
102216 #PortBarton

Bata pa lang ako,
Pinagmamasdan na kita.
Sariwa sa kamusmusan,
Puno ng mga tanong na "bakit?"

Ba't ayaw **** magpakita?
Na kailangan Mo pang magtago sa mga ulap;
Na hindi ko maabang-abangan
Ang eksaktong pagsikat at paglubog Mo.

Ba't Mo ako sinusunog?
Na sa t'wing naglalakad ako,
Sinasaktan mo ang mga balat ko.
Na hindi ka nagsasabing
Magdala ako ng payong o kapote.

At ba't lagi mo akong ginigising?
Na hudyat ng pagbibilang ng panahon,
Na kailangan ko pang bumangon
At buhayin ang sarili't umahon.

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Di Ko na kailangang magpasikat sayo
Pagkat hindi na lihim ang Liwanag Ko.
Ilang lugar na rin ang pinasuyod Ko sayo --
Sa Norte at Sur, buhay ang presesya Ko.
"Walang kupas at walang katulad,"
Yan ang sambit mo.

Ika'y Aking saksi;
Sa iba't ibang pagbunyag Ko ng Aking Sarili --
Sa iba't ibang katauhang may sari't sari ring kwento:
Silang simpleng manggagawang
Lakas ay Sa'kin ang paghugot.

Isabit Mo ang bawat larawan
Sa dingding **** Aking ipinagtitibay.
Nais Kong mailawan
Ang bawat madilim **** espayo.
Madilim man, nakikita Kita.

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Ikaw ang Pag-asa;
At Sayo dumadaloy ang lahat.
Kakatok ang Iyong Sinag sa butas-butas kong mga haligi.

Pangako mo'y pasalubong
Kaya't ako'y sabik sa pagdating Mo.
Sasalubungin kita saking pagbangon
At bubuksan ang aking mga bintana,
Bilang pahiwatig
Na nais kong taglayin ang Ilaw Mo.

Bukas ang pintuan ko Sayo;
Ikandado Mo ako, tangan ang di papupunding Liwanag --
Yan ang pagpapasakop ko;
Saklawan Mo sanang ganap ang hain ko.

Gagayak ako sa Iyong saglit na pamamaalam
Na siyang susubok sa Ilaw na pinaiwan Mo sakin.
At may galak akong magsisindi sa bawat poste,
Ng gaserang may purong langis.
Iihipan ko ito sa aking pahinga,
At sadyang ang dilim
Ay tamang pansamantala lamang.

---
Tiyak ang oras mo
At singhaba ng araw ang pasensya mo.
Nagbabalik akong may hubad na sandalyas --
Marumi ako pero saking pag-uwi,
Dito rin pala ang paghuhugas.

Pinagmamasdan ko ang putik sa mga paa ko
Maging ang alikabok sa mga palad ko --
Pawang nakuha ko sa trabahong
Bansag saki'y tagautos.

Pansin ko, ang dumi-dumi ko pala;
Kailangan ko nang pagpagan ang sarili;
At pawang ang lahat pala'y
Di ko makikita nang wala Ka.
Ang pagbabalik ni Juan sa mumunting tahanan; at ang pagmulat ng Araw.
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Nakulob na ata ako
Anong silbi ng mga patlang at espasyo?
Nagagalit tayo sa tono ng pangungusap
Ngunit kung may kuwit nama'y
Magtataka tayo bakit may paghinto --
Baka kasunod na'y pagkitil ng talata.

Hindi natin alam ang takbo --
Kung saan hihinto ang nasimulan na.
Pero nakikipagsabayan pa rin tayo.
Hindi natin alam ang takbo
Eh baka naman kinaligtaan lang talaga
Tapos, nakaalis na pala
Tapos, tapos na pala.

Bibigyan kita ng blangkong papel
Di para dungisan mo ng tinta
Di para guhitan mo ng sari't saring parirala
Hayaan **** magkusa ito
Na parang pagpipinta sa napakalawak na pader
Na parang wala kang nais gawin
Kundi maging isang malayang sining at katha.

Hindi sya makasarili
Pero mabubuhay siya nang kanya.
Kinabahan akong bigla
Sa isang basong tubig at kapsula.

May takot, may hikbi
Pagkat sa paglunok
May gawad na pighati ng kahapon.

Nilisan ko na iyon
Ikinubli na ang kahapon
Sa estanteng kayrupok
Malay ko ba,
Nagbabalik-tanaw din.

(5/1/14 @xirlleelang)
Lost to backdrops scrolling past,
She sits knitting
in the carriage of a train.
The vague needles
They scintillate and glimpse
With the cadence of the wheels –
Upbeating ceaselessly.

Strips of tiny loops
And eyelets like dewdrops
Of condensation
Grouped on the superior rim.

Once in a while,
She gives a heave
To loosen more yarn from the skein
Of Filipino-made wool,
brushed worsted weave.
Spun and carded
from the richest fleece,
Deeper in the wicker basket by her feet.

The needles flash,
With ancient rhythms and attack
Of duellists in their chainmail coats.
With little hesitation she can tack
From plain to purl to blackberry.
Count back by rote or slip a stitch
While the fish-eyed gimlets gleam.

All gather profusely in her lap,
As windfall trove, rich-patterned
And warm with peach-fuzz nap,
All crafted from a single line of yarn.
Marvels fall continuously from wise
Spell-binding hands and all is well for now.

(9/11/13 @xirlleelang)
Waves are the ocean
Black and untainted
Detailed without needles on.

I ****** the same waves
And its curls recoil
Playing safe with fine fingertips.

The clips got messed up
Some flora makes ends meet
Roses without thorns*
Oh, perfect fit!

(6/29/14 @xirlleelang)
Minsan nang naging utal
Ang dilang
Pait lang ang nalalasap
At isang kalansay
Sa malamig na sansinukob.

Dumi ng iba’y
Singkong duling
Heto ako’t
Isang krikitiko
Sa mapanglait kong titig.

Minsan nang
Naging kasapi
Ng pagluray sa bayan
matatas ang pananalita
Tangan ko pala ang madla.

Saksi ako
Pati silang kapwang
Panay bulag
Lahat sila
Minsan ding nanibugho
Sa taglay kong kagalingan.

Ibinandera ang sarili
Sa mga lapastangang dayuhan
Ngayo’y sila na
Ang yumuyurak
Ang pumapalakpak
Sa pagsalipadpad
Ng mga letrang
Ibig isuka’t ilabas.

Mapusyaw ang kulay
Ng aking pagbubunyi
Pagkat bibig nila’y
Kandadong mga
Walang susi
Walang kusang palo
Talusira sa katotohanan.

(11/29/13 @xirlleelang)
Kung kaya lang nating saluhin ang bawat hinagpis,
Ang bawat sentimong
Tinutunaw ng humahagulgol na kalangitan.
At kung kaya lang natin syang sabayan
Sa mga gabing tinutukso na sya ng antok,
Tinutuklaw papalayo sa nais nyang direksyon.

Ngunit hindi sya magpapaubaya’t
Mananatili syang gising
Na parang naghihintay ng panibagong panimula —
Ng bagong punlang ihahasik at ihahabilin sa kanya
Ng tinuturing nyang “mahiwaga.”

At balang araw ay darating ang kanyang gantimpala,
Pagkat walang ibang naging saksi
Sa bawat butil na isinisilang
Na sya mismo ang nakikiramay.

At sa bawat burol
Ay nauubusan na rin sya ng dahilan
Sa kanyang pagtatago at pakikipaghabulan.
Pagkat sya na rin mismo ang nagiging libingan
Ngunit sya’y tatahan at maghahanap ng tahanan.

Patuloy ang kanyang panlilimos,
Patuloy ang kanyang pagkauhaw,
Ngunit patuloy din syang umaahon —
Yayakapin ang sarili’t tatahan.
111921

May mga gabing kukuha tayo ng pluma’t
Kakatha ng mga himig sa ating isipang
Itinuturing nating mga bala’t sandata
Laban sa mga nanghihimasok na mga ideolohiyang
Kumikitil sa ating nag-aalab na mga pangarap.

At may mga gabing
Isusulsi pa rin natin nang magdamagan
Ang mga alaalang pinunit ng kasaysayan.
At siguro nga’y wala na rin tayong
Ibang kuwentong maiaambag pa.
Marahil ang lahat ay maging tuldok
Bilang panimula’t pangwakas.

Kusa ang ating pagtiklop
Bagama’t manhid na tayo
Sa malamig na pag-ihip at pagsipol
Ng bumubugang panahon.

At maghahagilap pa rin tayo ng dahilan
Sa bawat puwang, sa bawat patlang
Na bumabalandra sa ating harapan
Sa bawat pagkabit sa araw
Na parang mga parol pagsapit ng kapaskuhan.

At siguro nga’y magugulat tayo
Sa paparating na sorpresa
Na hindi na tadhana ang may akda.
Na baka bukas o sa makalawa’y
Ibang lenggwahe na ang ating binibigkas
At ang ating mga kasuota’y
Mapupuno ng mga palamuting
Pinili at tunay ngang may basbas.
Mauubos na naman ang mga pahina ng kalendaryo,
Sabay-sabay nating pupunitin
Kalakip ang bawat pangakong
Akala nating matutupad sa kasalukuyan.


Gayunpaman, ang lahat ng ating tinatamasa’y
Tunay ngang may iisang Tagapagbigay ng Biyaya..
Mag-iba man ang anyo ng Kanyang pag-ibig,
Mag-iba man ang ihip ng hangin,
Maging mitsa man ang mga delubyo
Ng saklolo sa pawang dalampasigan at kabundukan,
Ay Hindi pa rin titigil ang ating pagsamba.

Naubos na ang mga taong nagsasabit ng parol
Sa kani-kanilang tahana’y
Patuloy pa rin ang ating pananampalatayang
Matatamasa natin ang mga pangako Niyang
Gaya ng mga bituing
Pahiwatig Nya Kay Abraham.

Ang bahaghari na naging simbolo ng iba’y
May iisa pa ring pangakong ibinabandera
Sa mga totoong may pananampalataya.
Tayo'y nagpapalit-anyo
Sa bawat pagsipat ng mga pagsubok,
Sa bawat pagsirit ng mga tanikalang
Akala ng dilim ay tutupok sa ating mga lampara
Habang tayo’y naghihintay —
Naghihintay sa pagbabalik ng ating Hari
Na Siya ring kabiyak ng ating kabuuan.

Sa bawat araw na lumipas at lilipas pa’y
Wag nating kalimutang
Ito ang taong tayo’y nagpatuloy
Sa ating pakikibaka sa kadiliman.
At tayo’y patuloy na bumangon
Sa kabila ng mga nakatatalisod
Na paghuhukom ng mundo.
061616 #AM #SirFrancisHouse

Lumang musika sa bagong umaga,
Nangungulit na insekto, kriminal naman akong ituring.
Kinamusta ko ang kapalaran sa'king palad,
Tila ako'y nabubuwal sa landas na walang kasiguraduhan.

Naging sagrado't taimtim ang pagsuyo ko sa Langit,
Sana'y matamnan ng Kanyang brilyante ang pusong humihikbi;
Gaya ng ulap na kampante, gaya ng bantay na tumatahol
At gaya ng pagbulong ng makina ng sasakyan na siyang tambay.

Naglalaro ang isip -
Nakikipagpatintero sa tadhanang nanglilisik.
Minsan, mas mabuti pa ang Diktatoryal kaysa Demokrasya
Pagkat ang kalayaan ay nakakapanting-hininga
At higit sa lahat, ako'y napapatid ng mga hangal na oportunidad.

Paulit-ulit akong nagbabalot ng kagamitan
Nagbabaon ng mga kailangan sa pagbalik sa piniling saltahan.
Pero ako'y paulit-ulit ding nauuhaw -
Nauuhaw sa tubig na siyang kinasanayan
Ang tubig na wika ng aking kasaysayan.

Hindi ako mag-aatubileng iparada ang sarili sa kalsada,
Na harangin ang mga sasakyan kahit ako'y masagasaan pa.
Kung ganito ang pag-ibig na siyang may martir na ideolohiya,
Nais kong maging luwad na siyang hamak na sasalo
sa pagbusina sa nag-aalimpuyong pagsinta.

Ang kariktan ng sandali'y walang maikukumpara,
Kahit pa ang pagdadalamhati ng bawat oras na may kahati.
Hindi ko man mapisil ang tadhanang nasasakdal,
Pag-asa ko'y ipinipihit sa bahagharing nangako
At siyang hindi mapapako -
Ang huling sandali, nailagak na't naipako.
013017 #SampalocManila

Habang nagkakalampagan ang mga boses sa entablado
Habang sila'y tila nakikipagtayaan sa lotto
Habang may iilang hatak-talangkang Pilipino -- HABANG.

#MissU -- ito nga ba yung sinasambit ng puso ko
Tuwing nangungulila sayo
Tuwing nais kang masilayan
Tuwing gusto kong marininig ang tinig mo
Tuwing napapawi ang lungkot sayong yakap.

At oo, ewan ko --
Pagkat ang lahat ay magtatagpo sa **pagitan ng habang at tuwing.
Let me carry Your ark
Let it be on my shoulder
As how You carried the cross
It is mine, but You owned it.

I disowned life,
But You’ve redeemed mine.

I am a Modern Levite
Let me call others
That they’ll know Your vision
Let their ears be open
And hearts be willing.

Oh, hear me, my Lord
In consecration, I allow myself
To submerge in Your eternal grace
In Your presence, make me whole
Shower me with Your anointing.

Oh Lord, pour not the spirit of flesh
But Yours be found in me
Capture me with Your words
My eyes be blind
That I may learn to trust You
And let go completely those trash of the world.
You can hear the voices of our peers
Being silenced, ignored, shunned and distorted.
Staggering out of their bedroom doorways
To the street corner to score a dime bag.

Bright, insightful kandi kids freezing
In search of warmth from something to believe in
Hopin’ those will encourage them
To look forward to see another day.

Where our economy has made financial prudence clear
The price tag of university tuition’s skyrocket
The refused, the ones with hope
But no money or scholarships;
Tread the streets
With the echoes of electro-house
Pulsing in their skulls.

Those who strip themselves down
And shred their own morals
To scraps just to find themselves
And to see their own limitations.
Searching for answers to the unknown,
To ascertain what they are,
Who they are and why.

The bewilderment of adulthood,
The abundance of pressure and responsibility.
Awakened from nightmares of lost opportunities,
Missed trains and lost contacts.

Everything went astray
But hope crash in
They wear the armour
Facing the giants of their lives
They conquered
Became champions of this new generation!

(3/13/14 @xirlleelang)
041118

If life is a journey, would you waste a lifetime?
Sometimes you wonder
Why the journey is much harder than the test itself
But instead of chaining yourself into doubt,
A voice says, “Your free in My arms.”

If life is reliant on Truth, would you trust your own?
And if progress is instant, would you value the process?
Or rather easily change your mind and say,
“This is not what I prayed for.”

When wisdom comes, it’s never by your own
When you grasp for strength but fail to hold on.
Even in your might, hope is still tight
But mercy comes in a white and silky cloak
Where there’re tears in Sky’s eyes.

Sometimes, you don't need to ask God to move the mountains for you;
But ask yourself, “Am I seeking righteousness in God
Or simply zip into pockets the whole Truth?”

Ask God for strength to intervene in your weaknesses
Ask God’s wisdom to overpower your understanding
Ask God to do the only thing He can do
And there, you'll remember God’s promises to You.
“On the mountain of the Lord, it will be provided.” - Genesis 22:14
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Ayos na ako sa makalat at madumi, basta MUDaling mahalin.
**- XL
092222

I may not be desired by many —
As they pick their most adored flowers,
Smell it with gladness and praise them,
Picked them up and even displayed them.

I may just be so ordinary in the Garden,
But since I am planted in the Yard of my Beloved,
I know I am uniquely beautiful —
He shelters me every day
While He strolls and sees me in person.

I am rooted in His fertile soil
And He waters me with love that is so enough.
The kind of love that rescued me,
The kind of love that I’ll cherish forever.

So even though I am not wanted by many,
My heart is rest assured
And I can dance with His approval and grandeur.
He made me significant so what more could I ask?

Maybe I am different
But that “difference” made us all the same.
And no eyes can ever satisfy me anymore
Like those burning eyes
By my most treasured Possession.
I trust You, Lord
With all my heart, I surrender it all
With all my strength, I let go of the heavy burdens
And with all of my soul, I trust Your deliverance.

My pain today will no longer matter
As You bring justice to every fault
That the enemy has done over me.
You will punish him with all Your might
And all the glory that he tries to steal from You,
Will all be restored to Your so deserving throne.

Oh, Jesus
When I speak of Your Name
I know that You alone are my strength
The source of my hope
And you lit back my lamp stand
So I won’t fail as I wait for Your return.

The oil that You pour
Should be enough for me
Even if my eyes are sometimes swayed
To look after me —
There You are
Bringing me to my knees
So this mess that I see
Will be brought to praise Your Holy Name.

Your yoke is not heavy,
So I lay down my own life
It is You who has rescued me
So what more could I ask?


If I see myself in the mirror
With tears in my eyes
All of these that has shed
Is the reason for my strength.

Oh Lord, in Your mercy
I will crawl on my knees
To be back in Your Kingdom
And no one would no longer get me out
Of the Home You have prepared for me.
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As I look to the skies, I see the stars
Waving their light
In the vastness of their own universe.

In the mirror, I talk to myself —
“I see your scars and you’re messed up…
You’re tired and everything’s heavy.”

I tried to close my eyes
Where it’s just me and You —
You who always believed in me.

You say,
“I see your scars and yet I love you…
I know you’re tired but I have you.”

When I try to quit,
You say, “Quitting is not an option.”
Your love is enough; at the Cross, I surrender.

Who am I to be numb?
When Your love was the only hope I cling to…
Who am I not to love you back?
When Your love was the reason of my existence?
092516

Sumasabay saking pag-ibig ang pagluha ng langit
Sumasabay sa ihip ang bulong ng damdaming
"Tama na, bitiwan mo na sya."
"Tama na't bumangon ka na."

Parang tubig na maingay sa bubungan
Ang tinig **** minsang
Himig na pinakaiingatan
Parang butil na hindi mahawakan
Ang pagtibok ng puso kong iyong sinusugatan.

Ilang beses man akong umasa
Mga salita mo ma'y tila kilig lamang sa umpisa
Naglaho na lang ang lahat,
Pano na ang tayong sabi mo ay alamat?

Tama na ang paasang mga salita
Tama na ang pagbihag sa mga pusong pariwara
Tama na ang mistulang sabi **** "mahal kita"
Pagkat alam kong ikaw yung tipong
Palaruan lamang ang tingin sa Tadhana.

Bibitawan ka na, pagkat tapos na
Parang lirikong nalaos nang bigla
Parang boses na napaos na parang bula
Nagbago, naglaho, oo, *
mistulang alaala
Paagkat sabi ng kaibigan ko'y gawan namin ng kanta
Ang liham nang nagdurugong puso
Na paulit-ulit **** pinaasa.

Sabi ko, di na ko magsusulat eh. Tara, hindi naman tayo mauubusan ng salita eh.
100921

Ilang beses pa ba tayong magpapaliguy-ligoy?
Pagkat sa pagitan ng paghahasik ng dilim
At sa pagsilang ng araw ay doon tayo magsisipag-sulpotan?

Hindi ba tayo mapapagod?
At hanggang kailan ba natin ito kayang ipagpatuloy?
Ganitong estado ng pamumuhay rin ba
Ang nais nating ipagmalaki't ipasa sa ating mga anak?

Pandemya nga lang ba?
O kahit hindi naman gipit
Ay ito na ang pamamaraan natin?
Kaninang madaling araw, may pumasok sa aming bakuran. Malakas ang buhos ng ulan kaya hindi ata namin namalayan. Wala man kayong nakuha ngayon, sana dumating kayo sa puntong hindi na maging madilim ang inyong mga paningin. Sana hindi mangyari sa inyo ang mga bagay na inyong kinasanayang gawin. Sana matuto rin kayong maging patas sa kabila ng hindi pagiging patas ng panahon. At tandan n'yo, hindi lang kayo ang hirap sa buhay.
Your rays are the strength on my dying bones,
And You cry the tears my eyes won’t shed.
0318

Whose face is it that we long to see?
That every d(r)ied bones His healing comes.
Whose face is it for the sun to rise?
That He shines so bright even to our darkest sides.

In the midst of the dark, He strolls us out
Now, whose words is it that our raging seas calm?
In the depths of the oceans, the thunder roars
But His rod becomes the correction of the soul.

Whose words is it that we call the Breath of Life?
For we died for a moment and sins were torn.
From East to West, every transgression is gone
He says, “Behold, I am coming soon.”
Psalms 30:6-7

As for me, I said in my prosperity,
“I shall never be moved.”
By your favor, O LORD,
you made my mountain stand strong;
you hid your face;
I was dismayed.
0919

I looked up at the mountains
And saw it was the same
When I expect it to move,
Wasn't it faith that should've moved it?

One day, I strolled again
And I was sad —
"For it's all the same,"
From the beginning of times
To the end of my eyes,
I keep asking myself,
"How long shall I wait?"

And then I heard a Voice like thunder,
"Move again!"
But that Voice became a whisper
As I yearn to listen for more.

So there, I ran over
I was searching for that small Voice —
Searching for its Source
Until I was caught off guard!
I was silenced
With how little things and even the simplest things
Have the greatest value
More than a lifetime!

As I opened my eyes,
It was a sea of clouds!
And I have never seen this even once!
I was mesmerized by Its radiance
The black thick sky was gone —
And it's as if I was about to lose my sight,
"It's a Hidden Glory!"

Even in my heart, my reasoning was ceased
With a moment of silence,
I know it was that Voice —
That same Voice from the very beginning
And it was Him who brought me here.

At times, I worry too much
With how the mountains will move —
Even with the time of the falling of the leaves.
Should I tell it to move?
Should I tell the birds to stop chirping?
Or should I be the one?
To move forward instead?

So here's the thing is:
A simple thing that will put everything aside
And will focus you on the Greatest upon the greats.
For while you seek that Voice,
You'll learn to stick with grace
Which is out of this world
And it will just unfold before you.

And your heart shall be stilled
With why most of the time
You need not actually understand everything —
And you're never required to worry.
You need to stop asking for answers
Even in the toughest circumstances.

This time, you are invited to rest in His love:
You are commanded to pursue!
You are enabled to walk!
You are anointed to speak!
You'll know when the time is right!
For the Spirit is there!
The Spirit is here!
The Spirit is your guide!

Who then shall bring down your walls?
Who shall stop you from declaring?
If you are commanded to prophesy...
God will light up even the darkest nights —
And yes, in that mountain; in those mountains,
You're gonna create an altar for God!
Coz every mountain is a mountain of God!
He shall deliver to you!
He is now delivering to you!!

And may it never be the same for you —
Your life shall never be the same
As you'll have that Encounter.

I tell you —
There are truths that this world does not know
And there are things you thought of as "truth".
But with that genuine heart and desperate cry,
You'll find out soon
What your soul is really searching for!
1 Kings 18:43-44
And he said to his servant, “Go up now, look toward the sea.” And he went up and looked and said, “There is nothing.” And he said, “Go again,” seven times. And at the seventh time he said, “Behold, a little cloud like a man's hand is rising from the sea.” And he said, “Go up, say to Ahab, ‘Prepare your chariot and go down, lest the rain stop you.’”

You are blessed not to see what’s ahead for you’ll surely be surprised by what God has prepared! You’ll trust more while you worry less — there is something even in one’s nothingness! Coz when God says “there is something,” He means He has enabled you! He has prepared everything and all you have to do is walk through it, experience and enter His rest and joy. To take God’s voice into your heart. Listen while he tells you something for the first time until the seventh or the hundred times. It’s for your own good! You will see it and God will make sure to you: He will see you through! Our God always win!
020722

Lord, may I always see that You are with me
And that on every mountain that I climb,
I am climbing with You.
And You have never left me nor forsaken me.

And I will climb this mountain in humility before You
As I walk carefully on the path that You had before me.
Let me look up to You as I rely on every Word that You say
Oh, pour Your Spirit so sweet and refreshing to me.

Lord, forgive my doubts and my fear of heights.
If I fear because I’m already out of my comfort zones;
If I fear because I think I cannot make it.
And if I fear because it’s so, so new to me.

Lord, I pray that as I see new but great heights,
I will realize that it is Your new thing to me.
This is Your new way to increase my faith
By showing me what You can constantly do in my life.
And You can do more
And I am just a witness of all that You can do.

As I climb this mountain,
I am a witness to the good view
That You’ve been showing me.
Every view will be beautiful
Because I am with You
And I should not be afraid
Of the transitions of ups and downs.

I am secure even if I trip and fall.
And You will amaze me soon,
I can and I will declare that You are God
And that Your promises are true.

You are My God
Oh Jesus, thank You so much
That You call me by my name.

Apart from You, I can do nothing
And I am just as weak as I am.
But Lord, because the Words that I hear from the Bible
Come from Your mouth,
I know that I can rely upon those Words.
And those are not “empty words.”
Those words are alive and You are in it
And You live in me.

Oh Jesus Christ, what a beautiful Name.
It is not just a Name but it is You – everything is in You.
Protect me, Lord, and let Your will be done in my life.
Show me how and increase my discernment.
In Jesus’ Name, Amen!
030417

Carry me in Your arms
Caress me with Your love -- undying.
Let Your wisdom be my source
For I cannot hold onto what I have
I can only long for what You own.

Let Your glory shine on me
I may fail in the brightness I alone can see
The speckles of hope are upon me
Full with intent and unveil each color.

I grasp not on my strength
I failed too much
I trembled much
I gain nothing from self-deceit
Dreams were shattered
Left in coated shells, oh such debris!

I cry tonight for the moon to see
For the stars to brighten my way
Yet darkness vowed to silence me
I lose my steps as days roll by
I hear doubts and worries
All over me, they're dead lies.

I shut my eyes
And left my heart to lose its thumping
I left my hands holding no reinforcement
My nails were punished as the wall cracks
My head bangs at the loss of flooring.

Here I am, I chase not the wind
But Your infinite and tight embrace
I dream dreams to which You own
And like the rest of Your creation,
I die to be Your own.
022924

My hands were weary
Even before I came here —
But the stone was already rolled away!
Where are You?
Where are you, my Lord?

I was a nobody
But still, You called me.
Where is Your Body, Lord?
Where did they take You?
Or, what miracle are You doing?

I look at the skies
As the sun rays kisse my skin.
I lift up my hands and praise from within —
I lift up my eyes to the One
Coz I know You always make a Way!

No body’s in the grave!
But I know the promises You made!
No body and yet my soul rejoices!
What a wonderful resurrection!
Jesus, the freedom is here! Reign! Reign!

My soul waits for You
But I wait not in vain
But in hope, I continually trust in You.
Nobody before, but I’m somebody now!
And You will come, You will come!

Come, awake my soul
Come and get me to rest in You!
I sing to Your magnificence!
I dance in the hymn of the Spirit You gave me!
I’ll wait for nobody else, but You!
A Covenant Maker
A Covenant Keeper
Yes, You are.

You have given me my portion
And told me my boundaries
My limitation, for the greater good.

You gave the promised land
It's now in my hands
And my heart is full of thanksgiving.

"What then do you want, my child?"
You asked me
* "Bless m, O Lord,"
I uttered with *
tears burning my soul.

"Give me springs of water,"
For I thirst for more of You
Allow me to embrace the vision
Of winning souls and making disciples
For Your greater glory.

I am limitless
I am a *life changer

A rebrander of old self
As I became Born Again
Both by water and in spirit.

You are the Way
The Truth and Life
My only way to the Father
To whom I love.

I ain't a claimant of Your land
For You gave it *generously

Overflowing in me
Named and entitled after me.

You extended my territory
To the forest of darkness
To which I should clear out
In order that Your Light
Shall go through
Entering the Paradise.

The wild animals are there
I found no one but darkness
But You trust me
That I'll fear no more
For every mouth with fangs and venom
You shut and give me some favours.

This land you gave is my portion
I shall treat it well
Learn by heart how to preserve it
And not destroy it's **inner beauty.
Joshua 15-16
See http://xirlleelang.wordpress.com/2014/07/09/devoshare-the-productivity-and-the-forest/
"When you ‘**** time’, just remember that it has no resurrection. You won’t get it back. You’ve lost it. Be wise.”
- *
Pastor Ancho Buenaventura
"It is not my agenda that matters; it is God's."
- **XL
You saw my back on You
Trying to be strong, concealing every hurt
Every malfunction of the soul.

It was no longer the flesh that has tempted me
I have not tried to escape from the darkest grip of him
I even tied myself up until I gasp for air -
Drowning with sharks and whales who were all in depth.

To breathe normal, to make you famous
I should be doing those
But instead, I became a ******* of the world
I got my back painful, the labor now is in vain
That wasn't your plan
But how could I..
At times delight with the wicked one.

The Words were already engraved in me
I know, how it should be transforming me
All those filthy things I've done
I almost lose myself assessing my own life.

The circumcision was not by hand
But the cross has carried away every hideous act
I myself am *******, how then could I abandon You?

I was baptized in Spirit and in truth
And the thing is: You've payed every debt
To where my soul was about to meet what's hell.

You just told me I'm forgiven
Even though I tried to turn against You for so long
And reminded me how the world would try
Stealing every thing You've taught in me.

The One who is in me is far greater
Than the one who is in the world
That's why You've told me
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

I am for promotion
I should be the warrior, not the slave
The conqueror, not the one who grieves for lost
No one and nothing shall disqualify me
Nothing shall distract my focus.

And upon Your teachings
By the help of the Holy Spirit,
I will overcome the world for my generation
For You have been victorious already.

I am forgiven and redeemed
The only thing that would matter now
Was You who was in me
And Your great plans and works in me,
That I may praise and offer my thanksgiving.

(5/29/14 @xirlleelang)
100121

You are more than a billion lights
You shine the brightest among the rest,
Your light overcomes the darkness
And no darkness can ever halt Your existence.

You are the Light from the beginning
And 'til the end of death,
‘Til the end of times
And the latter unfolding of Your glory,
It is Your light that will remain.
John 1:1-5 (NIV)
In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.  He was with God in the beginning.  Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made.  In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind.  The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.
012917

Ginising mo ako ng iyong mga salita -- mga salitang sabi mo'y di mo pa kayang ikatha.

Ako'y hinihele ng bawat malalambing na mga talata -- mga talatang bumuo sa kauna-unahan **** piyesa.

Sana'y hindi ka mapagod sa paghabi ng mga salita. Sana'y di ka mapagod sa paghihintay. Sana'y di ka mapagod hanggang sa masilayan kitang muli at oo, alam kong ang babalikan ko'y pag-ibig ang siyang pagbati.

Gigisingin kita gamit ang puso ko -- pusong itinaya ko para lamang sayo -- pusong makapaghihintay sayo. At hindi ko alam kung paano tatapusin to -- pagkat **pag tungkol sayo'y di alam ang pagsuyo.
Tugon sa piyesang "Alas Kwatro na Pala"
050917

I found you --
I chose to love you without return.
The kind of love that tested me,
More than a thousand heartbeats
The love that I waited for so long.

I found myself --
The love that was once silenced
Was brought to a halt as pain arises.

And I was deeply hurt
Hurt but there was no regret.
Hurt that brought me to repentance,
To forgiveness and redemption,
To surrender and trust.
To love you while keeping no record of wrongs,
To love you more than before,
To love you as new as in the beginning.

For He found us --
As we're lost for how to love each other
We've defied gravity, somehow denied prosperity.
Are we afraid to lose one another?
Like fallen leaves in moody weather.

But still, He restored us
We're mended by His healing hands.
He brought us back to His love
The only love that rescued us
The only love that can truly change us.

I found us --
You and I are never enough.
Loving you is never easy
But it's simple as this:
I want to stay until it's dawn
Until the sun and moon collide
Until we're found by His time --
To stay with you in His arms.

For in this day, there's no "us"
No more "we can," but "He can"
I count one, two, and three
This love is of grace --
From beginning to end, it is His.
032320

When terror tends to rise,
Your mercy will unveil
When the world loses sight,
Our faith will be our eyes.

When the strong one loses his strength,
You’re the Core of our lives
When the mountains shake and tremble,
Our weapon is our praise.

When the sun won’t extend its rays,
We’ll declare and lay our hands
When the seas no more split,
We’d still believe in miracles!

There’s nothing in this world You cannot do,
You cannot do
There’s nothing in this world
Will remove our eyes that’s fixed on You.

Hallelujah, Yours is the Victory
Hallelujah, trample down all enemies
Hallelujah, Heaven down to earth
Hallelujah, Jesus saves eternally
Proverbs 3:21-22

My son, do not lose sight of these — keep sound wisdom and discretion, and they will be life for your soul and adornment for your neck.

Proverbs 4:25-26

Let your eyes look directly forward, and your gaze be straight before you. Ponder the path of your feet; then all your ways will be sure.
God cannot be explained
But He then, can be **experienced
"All of your disobedience to God is your obedience to Satan."
*- Pastor Ancho Buenaventura
"If you're not obeying God's words, you are despising Him."
- *
XL
112715 #8:20PM

Pagkat ako'y tanod sa pagtalilis
Sa yari **** agos
Ni tikas mo'y nakakubling paraiso
Sa bulag kong pag-irog.

Ang masimod **** yakap,
Daplis lamang O, Sinta
Sana'y matantya mo
Ang pagkukumahog ng pangamba.

Di nais na masukol ang tiyak na pagdaloy,
Kaya't heto ako't hahalili sa bukas
At tunay na buhay, **siyang isisikhay.
(Para sa amazing creation ni Lord na beach front ng Las Cabanas, El Nido, Palawan! Amazing!)
052716

Sining ang hampas, kumpas ng sandali.
Artikulo ng Langit, kristal ang pagbahagi.
Luha ni Katipan, sasayuri't iigibin.
Sisikat ang Araw,
Pagsusumamo, kanyang babawiin.

Kanyang pagbango'y
Siya ring pagkitil ng mga buhay.
Siya'y saklob ng bughaw na kumot,
Sinta'y haharanain ng paglimot.

Aakmaan ng tono ang pagtinging hindi lihim,
Maglalaro ng bangka't eroplano,
Magsasabuyan ng tubig na kumikislap,
Maghihintay bagkus hindi magtatagpo.
Papunta kami ng Snake Island kanina, napatingin ako sa dagat at na-amaze sa reflection ng langit. Sumagi sa isip ko na parang kumot ang dagat kaso lang hindi pupwedeng bumangon kasi mamamatay ang mga yamang dagat. Para silang lovers ng langit na kailanma'y di magtatagpo. Masisilayan lamang ang isa't isa pero masakit na alaala na lamang.
I'll run my fingers over you
The lines overlap as if they know you so well
Your breath was numbered by them.

Your death was my comfort
I lay myself indeed not in your arms
For those were the branches of yours
Cut down and embraced by millions.

They sprayed you with chemicals
You cried but no one has heard it
For in every pain, you are numb
And they linger in your countless tremor.

The hammer pressured you
Every impact was brought to disgrace
Those silver yet rustic points
Made your skin bleed with tears.

I found you affectionate
For every time I'm near you I felt so good
Now I can't live without you
Hold me in your arms and sing me lullabies.

(6/3/2014 @xirlleelang)
Matutulog na sana ako, nag-iisp kasi ako ng concept. Eh nakahiga ako sa doubledeck na luma. At yun na!
Remember when you couldn’t wait
to show up early and find your place.
Cause you didn’t want to miss a thing.
And your heart was open and ready for change.
Oh, those days.
You were never afraid to sing,
never afraid to lift your hands.
Didn’t care what people would think.

Remember when you weren’t ashamed.
To tell your friends about your faith.
A time when you felt the pain
of just one lost soul that was slipping away.
Your heart was soft, you had radiant eyes,
but slowly the pressures and burdens of life
pulled you into the dark of the night.
But when did you lose your sight?

Cause you were on fire,
and church was more than a place,
and people were more than faces,
and Jesus was more than a name.

Oh you were on fire,
you let life put out the flame.
But he’s still calling out for you
cause he wants to light your heart again.
And set it on fire
Set it on fire.

Turn your eyes, turn your eyes
and don’t forget what it was like
Set me on fire, set me on fire
I wanna hold God’s people close
wanna feel the power of Jesus’ name

Set me on fire
Set me on fire
0418

If the Words I hear aren't from You,
Never let me go.
If it is not for Your glory that I do what I do,
Let me stop here
For me to take a stand for what I truly believe in.

If Your Spirit no longer dwells in me,
Will You satisfy me with Your anointing
As I leave my past behind
And enter Your mercy and be in Your Heaven's place.

If it is not by Your wisdom that I understand things,
Let me not be deceived by the schemes of this world
That I may not trample down every word that You say
And as You speak, it shall be my breath of Life.

If it is not by Your army who rise up for my protection
Where shall I find comfort?
Or to whom say, "My God is my Defender."

If power is given to me
Yet I found You no longer reigning in me
Take away my eyes that make my flesh live in filthiness
That honor and glory be bestowed on Your throne.

I call to You
And for the rest of my Life
Let Me call to You --
Alone and sweet Your Words shall be
I will not be deaf
Let me not be in silence
Let Your Words Speak
This is my call for today.
1 Samuel 26:8-12
Then Abishai said to David, “God has given your enemy into your hand this day. Now please let me pin him to the earth with one stroke of the spear, and I will not strike him twice.” But David said to Abishai, “Do not destroy him, for who can put out his hand against the Lord's anointed and be guiltless?” And David said, “As the Lord lives, the Lord will strike him, or his day will come to die, or he will go down into battle and perish. The Lord forbid that I should put out my hand against the Lord's anointed. But take now the spear that is at his head and the jar of water, and let us go.” So David took the spear and the jar of water from Saul's head, and they went away. No man saw it or knew it, nor did any awake, for they were all asleep, because a deep sleep from the Lord had fallen upon them
Oo
Oo
071816 #3:55PM

Kung pipitas ka ng tatlong rosas,
Kung susulat ka ng tula,
Kung harana ay siyang pagsuyo,
Oo.

Kung makapaghihintay ka
Sa tila kalsadang pinintahan ng pula,
Habang ako'y may paanyaya,
Oo.

Oo ang sagot sa mga tanong na naantala,
Oo ang sagot sa pusong hindi pa nagkukusa.
At oo ang pamagat sa tulang tila walang panimula.
Oo, pagkat mahal kita.
032417

"Mahal Kita, tandaan mo sana"
Ilang beses **** pinaulit-ulit sakin
Pero minsan, napupuno pa rin ako ng kaba
"Magtiwala ka kasi.. wag ka nang umuo,
Gawin mo na lang."
Natuto akong itiklop ang bawat sanang nais sambitin
Pagkat sabi mo'y maging buo ang tiwala ko.

Walang himpil kung paano mo ipinaaalala ang lahat
Ang lahat ng kabutihang ipinatamasa mo sa akin
Gamit ang iyong pagmamahal
Na minsan ko nang pinagdudahan.

"Ganyan talaga pag nagmamahal,
Pero wag kang matakot
Kasi di kita iiwan."
Di ko mapigilang hindi umiyak
Sa bawat pagsambit mo ng "mahal kita"
Nagiging kampante yung puso kong
Ikaw lang naman ang nais maging parte.

"Wag muna tayo masyadong mag-usap,"
Wika mo para rin sa ikabubuti ko.
Pero hihintayin ko ang pagbabalik mo
At patuloy akong kakapit sa bawat pangakong
Binitawan mo hindi para ipatangay lang sa hangin
Pero para buohin yung kulang na ako.

"Mahal kita," at diyan ako lubos na kumakapit
Sa pagbalik mo'y hawak mo ang aking mga kamay
At sabay tayong lilisan sa lugar na'to
Sasabay ako sa pagbangon mo.

"Oo, payag na ako,"
**Tara na.
These things I have spoken to you while I am still with you. But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. - John 14:25-27 (ESV)

I will no longer talk much with you, for the ruler of this world is coming. He has no claim on me,but I do as the Father has commanded me, so that the world may know that I love the Father. Rise, let us go from here. - V. 30-31
073024

I  store series of stories in my eyes —
Numbing baggages and broken tires.
In the midst of every split second,
Those who fall short lay their nest
Defying their shells and stitching their wounds.

And yet every tear has thousands of words,
Before it spills out into the oceans of the unknown.
There’re notions to unfold, motions untold.
Distraught and yet it brings the purest worship,
Singing hymns of praise like a roaring lion.

I hear the echoes of my own entity,
The lamentation of the inner child within me.
She speaks the alphabets of her journey,
Every rhyme’s a new mime
Mimicking the old times —
The few times she drives herself home.

There’s crimson in her eyes,
There’s a prison when she cries.
Her heart’s a burning furnace —
I touch it with my trembling fingertips
And everything turned into deep smokes.

“This too shall pass”
Her hopes are high and there’re no boundaries
For the miracles she believed in.
Now she’s ready to emerge
Witnessing the splitting of the oceans,
Hoping to rewrite her story.
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