God made you.
Respect that.
Some die even before they are born,
even before they get to see the light
Which makes every person survive..

as I sit here alone
On the day of Christmas,
As the jolly shadows,
Of jolly people pass me by,
Laughter fills the air,
But I lay here alone,
Waiting for a text,
Or just a call,
Or the slightest
Voice of yours,
I get to hear nothing but sadness,
In myself,
You told me that you'd call me,
The first one to wish me 'merry christmas',
But here i lay asleep,
half awake,
But waiting in silence,
In darkness,
Hearing carols,
hearing reindeer jig,
Hearing bells ring
All around,
Its midnight now,
Still the snow's falling,
As I dream of standing,
And kissing you,
Under the misletoe,
A tear rolls down my face,
Still holding on to the thought,
Of you coming and staying with me,
But I know,
I've got to accept the fact,
that you'll never come,
'Cause the ones who go away once,
Never come back,*
They stay far away in the stars,
As my mom says,,
Guess I'll keep waiting for,
a last wish still to be told,
I wish I too get to stay in the stars now,
I don't  want to stay this way,
just,
Me,my silence,
Under the misletoe...

I would rather draw awkwardly
than have a sleep without dreams..

Hello! I call out,
As I walk on the cold
wet grass,
With bare feet I walk around,
Not scared if I hear a sound,
I turn around,
My eyes in search of something,
Something I'd like to find,
Here and there I sneak around,
in hope of something divine,
No! Something which can catch
my heart,
not that caught my eyes,
Red,blue,yellow or violet,
Maybe white, or black
like an eye of a pirate,
Across the land,
On a beautiful chariot,
my mind goes round
A girl name Hariot,
who's she,
I don't know well,
But I think I've found the smell,
sweet yet cold,
yes it's the ground,
The old ground on which I lay awake,
yet again as the day shoves in,
through the night in an ancient ship,
Yes,no,yes,no,
please don't let it go,
The moon's no longer beaming,
Yes I hear sceaming,
Well,
I've just been dreaming..

(French)
luminosité tout autour,
rien ne peut vous voir,
la seule chose responsable,
C'est l'obscurité dans
vous et moi ..

(English)
**brightness all around,
nothing can you see,
the only thing responsible,
is the darkness within
you and me..

I took a deep breath, and fell right onto my pillow
I said to myself, "People leave, that's what they do."

I breathed deeply, almost panting because of the anxiety creeping on to me.
Abuse, betrayal all of it flashed in front of my eyes.

I breathed deeply, in and out, as the world stood still, right in front of me.

I breathed deeper, consoled myself, things will be fine if not better, this isn't the end.

I breathed deeply, this time holding my chest, as if trying to tell it that all was well.

I breathed deeper, while a tear flowed down my left cheek, it's alright, it's just a difficult week.

I took five more breaths, before telling myself this, "it's okay, and that people leave."

My heart almost spiralled into confusion.

Blaming myself, and then not.

People leave, that's how it's been all these years, it's like my head was in a knot.

I've been bothered by this approach people have in life, "live and forget" as if there's nothing else in sight.

In moments like these, when I can't breathe any further,
I write, and feel,
Because I know,
I'll never be like the others.

everyday my eyes go fluttering,
here and there, everywhere,
every hour seems like a year,
waiting for a person in despair,
not a person I would love,
but someone I long to see,
every minute of the day,
I may sound confusing,
but pay attention,
'cause I do.
Attentively watch, await,long,
for that one envelope,
inside which would be a page,
a white but unblank paper,
with words and exclaimations
About your explainations,
and your whereabout,
as I wait for that person
To bring me a letter from my beloved,
my dear love, my craving,
* my sole purpose of living,
I convince myself by saying,
the post man must be lost!
or perhaps just lazy and late,
for he never comes,
and makes me wait in vain,
Sometimes I loose hope,
the only thing I've got,
but recall your face,
and remake my mind,
saying, maybe times are rough,
reason why you can't write to me,
these days,
perhaps just the work
that keeps you busy all day,
but yes I do wish you could just take time out,
to write three words on a card,
i love you.
send it to me,end my vacant wait..
It's been five years now,
you never wrote or even called,
ah! yes I received a telegram today,
Right now I opened it,
and as I opened it,
tears kissed my cheeks,
of happines that you did care!
but soon my tears of joy
turned into blood sobs,
when I read in the letter that you were gone,
passed away five years ago,
while saving someone at war,
sorrow could not leave my side
knowing it was all I had,
and my heart wept,
my eyes went numb,
at the letters on that little note,
but at the end were the three words
I had longed to hear,rather see,
"he loved you."
Was all I could bear to see,
my brain stopped working,
my limbs went void,
now, I still don't know why,
I wait for you..
I'm old now you know?
I wish you could see me,
wrinkled and stupid,
for I still wait for that day,
when I would get to see you at last,
with a letter saying those three little words,
"come with me"
tonight and forever,
we would make up for lost time,
and spend once more our lives,
but for now my longing is still not over,
for I still wait for the postman,
behind my window,
and I need no doors or even locks,
*as my gaze still remains fixed on my post box..

no matter how stong you are,
Or you act,
There will always be a time,
When you'll think and say,
"When did I become such a
fragile
little
broken
thing? "

"When a Writer falls in love with you,
You can Never Die...."

Sweet sleep,
Oh dear beloved,
Safe keep,
My honor beloved,
Dance free,
Hail to thy loved,
March,stomp,
Run, beloved..
Stand tall,
No better no worse,
Keep calm,
Till the hours are coarse,
Nights haunt,
Days are blunt,
Weather coaxes,
My soul grunts..
Caress me hard,
Let me loose,
And you will fall,
Hold me close,
You'll come around,
See I'll lead you
Out and about,
up and around
Now you've grown,
Not too tall,
Yet you let me,
make you fall,
Not like an angel,
But like a doll,
Frail and senseless,
Numb and null..
May your soul
not rest in peace,
'Cause the light inside's not bleak,
burning candles,
Burning sun,
with all your might,
May your spirit,
Blindingly burn bright!

As I listen to the beats of another wild song
My feet tapping on the cold hard ground
In the darkness I ascend the stairs
Sharp eyes and all spread out hairs
Under the moonlight I let my sorrows out
Drenched in loneliness
I roam around and round
I know my heart is in ruins
The ruin is fun
It gives me pleasure
To be fallen apart
I leave those pieces behind me
And dance on and on
Till those pieces cut me deep
And I frown and I laugh
I'm happy to know I've thrown away a part of me
that will never come back
Shards of memories in my vicinity
I smile I cry
Till I let it all out
And I'm all in ruins,
My body is one,
My mind's out of control
But I think I'm alright,
I'm beginning to blossom
in this silent night
I dance on and on
Till those pieces cut me deep
And I cry and I laugh
Till I transform into light
Something I've always wanted to be
I feel a void
But that's alright
Because I'm no longer in ruins
But I still remember those times...

Once there stood a Sailor,
Tall and Bold he was,
Upon the waves was his home,
Eye of the storm he was.
Some called him Charming,
Cindrella was in love,
Sindbad wanted a friend
SnowWhite could'nt succumb.
Jasmine searched the seven seas
To bring him back to ground,
And Alladin pushed him underneath
Hoping he'll fall.
But there stood a Mermaid,
Upon a stubborn rock,
Her eyes were like wet sand
Her nose a pebble soft,
She lured the hearty sailor,
Into the sea so dark,
Hoping he would see a world
Where he never had to stop,
Hoping he would call it home,
His home upon the rocks.
He wore his mighty hat aboard,
Underneath he was at flight,
Fought the world of challenges,
With his awe-some sight,
To all he was a Sailor,
A person in disguise,
Wid arms like boulders
And chest fierce
But light..
You would ask
What's their story,
Well here goes,
It might be right,
But Sailor met the Mermaid,
Mermaid fell in love,
Love is what sailed along,
Under the waves of lust,
In a world so arid
It turned hearts dry,
He searched for a place to swim
Where he could also fly,
He swam with the mermaid
Into the glassy ****,
Glossy waters
And coral reefs,
After years of gliding by
He decided to stop,
Not to make him stop,
the Mermaid cried a lot..
The sailor found a new place,
A place called a 'Road',
She thought their adventure was over,
And the Sailor was lost,
She tried to tell him,
Asked him to stop,
For she was no longer she,
Plural now she was,
She cudnt tell him
For he was in a hurry,
And about everything
He forgot..
But alas!
Was she happy
She saw the Sailor pray,
The prayer wasnt an ordinary one
He wanted for her to stay,
He'd seen Her world
For years together,
He now wanted her to see,
His own world of wonders
Above the choppy sea..
He prayed that She could
Join him
With no other blocks,
The only thing he wanted..*
"If only she could walk",
She cried and cried
In the sea of course
She knew that wasn't possible,
She knew He was lost..
One morning she woke up
Washed up on the shore,
The sea no longer wanted her
She was thrown.
She'd seen the seas too much,

Now it was time for her to go,

To Walk with the Sailor
With new legs, aboard.
Happiness got the best of her,Tears would'nt stop,
He caught her arms,
Pulled her up,
And showed her how to walk.
*She told him he had to love her,
And two other people too,
The Sailor was astonished
He dint know what to do!
A few days later
He did understand,
They were now four,
A bundle of all,
Joy had at last rejoiced!
He gave her a pearl,
From the very sea she came from,
To remind her of That world,
She accepted and
Now they were one mind,
A family,
One of a kind..

**.**.**!
Here he comes,
With reindeer,
And gifts,
And his nose,so big,
His fluffy tummy,
Beneath his dress,
So red!
his face reminding,
me of fun and laughter,
Of jolly good days,
And jolly good laughter,
Of pretty little girls,
in little red dresses,
of white and silver snow,
That rest on the lasses,
Of cute little boys with,
socks and braces,
Of warm and cozy nights,
With a loved one's sight,
Of jingle bells,
and misletoes,
That simple,yet,
Wonderous,
Hang with happiness,
Showing nothing but sparkle,
Around it,still,
And last,
The little green tree,
decorated with wonder,
With stips of snow fall,
and loads of decorations,
Decor,decor and nothing but
Decoration,
but all that which stands for,
Nothing but,
Christmas Cheer!

What if we saw what reality was?
Would it still be real?
What if we said for our hearts wanted
Would there still be fear?
What if I saw
What you saw
Would you still be near?

my
thoughts
fathom
into
a
thousand
stars
like
salt
scattered
across
the
universe..
beyond
the
sun
my
soul
lies
across
the
ocean
my
h­eart..

Leave the pepsi,
Hold my hand,
feeling a bit tipsy,
Walk me through the sands.
Walk with me,
all night if you can,
Let's share a lifetime,
Moving fast.
But slow down,
We've got to handle with
Care atlast,
See the candles,
burning bright those Roman ones,
By the night sky up high.
Stars glittering,
Moons shining,
Don't know if I'm speaking right,
Haha but whatever it is,
Your love or the ***,
I'm feeling alright.
Yes you make me high,
Higher than any alcohol can,
No *** no wine
or a whiskey can,
Haha I really don't know
Where I'm at,
Where ever I am,
I know that,
I'm with you
Through the night,
Even a lifetime
If only I can,
I'd like to be drunk,
for the rest of my life,
And
I think I'll be alright
If I've got you by my side!

Sometimes lies sound like truths,
We often wear a mask that doesn't suit,
Always listening to others about my work,
Leading my future from bright to dark,
I had to leave all my dreams behind,
Searching for a peice of treasure I can't find,
To seek something from morality and justice,
In search of my dreams through love and peace..

(English)
many days have passed since I saw your face,
Maybe its better this way,
since every time I see you I get a strong feeling,
Of carefully,
slapping or hitting and even killing!

(French)
nombreux jours se sont écoulés depuis que j'ai vu votre visage,
Peut-être son meilleur de cette façon,
car chaque fois que je vous vois je obtenez un sentiment fort,
De soin,
*gifles et même tuer!

The foamy waterfall,
reminds me of her floral dress,
The stones floating,
Of her helpfulness
And those precious ones,down under
Of her beautiful dead eyes
On her death bed..
I know I should be sad,
But I need not cry,
it's her everlasting beauty
Not her body to die..
but I felt with that immense a treasure,
One could not help keeping it same forever,
But she was too pretty,
the one too fragile to be broken,
this cruel world would make her old,
old, and with no charm like before,
Yes! She won't be able to handle it,
she's too weak a goddess,
I kept that in mind,
and wanted her safety,
Something she could handle,
Her death in front of eyes,
So now her beauty would forever remain,
The same forever and ever..

What a day!
Oh what a tiresome day!
A guesome hurdle
A dire way,
As afternoon embraced,
The lights all fade,
So does the sparkle in her
little eyes..
oh how pretty *she were
How her tiny feet ran all over the place,
Made me smile
A little gay,
Her nose so tiny,
it fit in as my thumb,
Her tongue so pink
Even strawberries
Looked shy..
But oh! Her jibber jabbering,
Her questions,
Her answers!
Her shouting,
Her cry!
What a sly thing she was,
You know?
she hid behind sofas,
Scared me to death,
So I thought of giving her
a taste of lifelessness..
but, she,
she,
Was my princess,
My beauty in petals,
Her funny giggling,
Made everyone laugh!
Oh such a cherry
Skin like honey,
Her hair amber,
Like wings of burterflies
Flying across the sun..
Oh! But she ****** the life
out of me,
Everyone praised her,
But me,
they said what a lovely
Little thing she is!
The irritation!
The moral dissatisfaction!
She made me look old!
and ragged,and torn,
Frustration!
but how could I cut her
Feeble hands?
Hold her so tight,
That she couldn't breath,
how could I?
How?
after all I was her mommy,
The most beautiful
She considered..
How could I not think about her once?
I gave her life and in
3years I took it back!?
Forgive me lord
For I have sinned,
no how can you forgive someone
So heartless,
so mean,
Such a hippocrit!
such a ***** person?
But who cares?
when I  have my life back,
To start anew,
Never look back,
Yes I hit her,
Hard and numb,
Made her blood,
Come till my feet,
but she was the one who wanted forgiveness,
yes she,
So I gave her
What she wanted,
freedom was my forgiveness,
Stains of her,
still stick to my life story,
but I don't care..
you,fair little fragile thing,
You made me do that to you,
Had you not come,
I never would have been,
An inhuman,
A mother,
A disastrous
Murderer..

the loneliest place is where you stand alone,
with your own heart in your hands,
in the middle of a chirping crowd,
with no one to hold
the loneliest place is where you stand alone,
with nothing to think about,
With a mind so empty
that emptiness, you think, can eat you whole,
when you live in silence
and when you walk the world,
with nothing but a bottomless soul,
the loneliest place is where you stand alone..

a journey of love,
a journey of ***,
a journey so pure,
you never regret..
a journey of wildness,
a journey of happiness,
a journey of sadness
you never forget..
special times we spent together,
times of fights and war,
times of pleasure combined with pain,
times which never can be lost..
its time for you,
to say goodbyes,
time to cry
and to smile,
time to be apart..
time to bear the pain,
time to promise to stay,
time to love always,
for now,
It's time for you to sail..

Raindrops on roses,
And wiskers on kittens,
Don't know if I really wore mittons,
But I can be sure,
Nothing came in brown paper packages,
Which were ******* with strings,
So I asure you,
These are not some of my favourite things!

Cream colored ponies,
No! Crisp apple poodles,
Sorry if I made a mistake,
I'll go with noodles,
White owls that fly with some
Food in their beaks,
I assure you,
These are some of my unfavourite things!

Girls in white dresses,
With blue satin sashes,
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes,
Silver white winters that melt into spring,
Well,
These are a few of my favourite things!*

When the dog barks,
When the bees sting,
When I feel like shouting!
I simply remember my unfavourite things!
and then all I feel is,
too bad!

Dark atmosphere all around,
Fingers tremble as I touch the ground,
Head bent forward,
Knees sunken deep,
Under the bed of sound sleep,
Can't sleep,
Or won't sleep,
'Cause I know there's something bleak,
Across the pillows,
I see shadows more,
To my surprise there were even more,
Up went my fears
and down, my strength,
To help there was only a chair,
With cushions,
And someone sitting there,
someone,something,
'Cause I couldn't see,
My eyes were red
And my heart went weak,
Up above sat the soul of the devil,
And I couldn't contol the rebel,
Fables heard,
stories listened,
but this what you're reading
Might be scary,
'Cause my spirit went dead,
As I lay on my bed,
Yes it's true,
I was Possesed..

Now let me tell you what happened next,
The bold the feeble,
Went with the dead,
Down went the rich,
The poor and
The worthless,
The useless and
The innocent,
I was doing it,
No it can't be me,
I took lives,
With tears of glee,
Happiness is what filled my face,
My mouth kept moving,
And my mind insensate,
Insensible acts,
Proved my desires,
Divine were those and
those didn't tire,
shattered blessings,
Built up curses,
Collected bad dreams,
With songs and verses,
They wrote my stories,
Earned the fame,
Forget themselves
Became my tamed,
With fiery eyes
Heart of a master,
I stabbed her hard
With a daring laughter,
smirks and anger
My guiding angels,
my misguiding devils,
Made it stranger,
Misjudging me,
is your mistake,
Cause I was awake
On my bed,
When you were in your dreams,
Far away,
I was the bad man
You met in your way,
your dreams feed me,
Your smile kills,
But what suits you best
Are the smoking chills,
Give me life
Rather death,
I am,I was
A living hell,
I will take you to my nest,
Let's just say,
Yesterday,
I was possesed..

Vérité ..
Un peu de charme,
A pas de mal.
C'est l'amour
ça fait mal comme une bombe ..

Truth ..
A little charm,
Is no harm.
It's the love
that hurts like a bomb ..

hear the trumpets,
Hear the bells,
Hear the drums,
Calling hell,
Feel the tears,
Feel the pain,
Feel the efforts,
Going vain,
Hear the shouts,
Here the kingdom,
Turn to dust,
Hear the rhythm,
With the old rust..
blooded land,
****** hands,
Blood river,
Running down the plains,
Skins bruised
Skins torn,
Bones broken,
Crushed marks..
No old,
No poor,
No young,
No riches,
Hear all tremble,
Go down again,
Violent rhythms,
Ring on again..
Don't anyone see the black?
Don't anyone see the unseen?
Don't anyone call
To stop this war?
Stop the stinging,
Stop the  blind,
Stop the virulence,
Don't you hear them cry?
Go go hide yourself,
'Coz you have no shame,
hear the dead hearts still beating,
Stop the rhythm from playing,
Hear the cut hands still clapping at your  foolishness,
You may have won the war,
But we have ended it,
It's your scream that gave me my victory..

You are the pencil to my paper,
the only hope of a wager,
You were hard work to my labour
And the only thing that dint need taper,
The music to my lyrics,
The sun to my day,
The heart in my ribs
And blood in my veins,
yes you are the sweetness to my honey,
the flavour in the salt,
the water to my thirst,
the food to a starved,
the sparkle in my eyes,
The writer of my laws,
the colour to my painting,
and the blade to my saw,
The sourness of lemons,
the birterness of caffeine,
The air to my breath
And the soul to my body,
You are the poem to a poet
And life to me..

My love,
Your love,
My love for you,
No love for me,
My ***** love,
Just for me,

You made me this,
You made me mad,
You made me wish,
This never had,
Is happening,
Actually,

Because you loved me more,
Because you left me *****,
You cheated,
You meathead,

You told me your sorry,
But you moved on in a heartbeat,
the pains you gave me,
They cut deep,
They hurt me,
They **** me,

But you said you didn't mean,
But who cares,
You did it,
after all you did cheat,
she was a *****,
i should have known,
i still say this to myself,

She was the one who tore my heart,
Now she gave it to some one else,
After all its your time,
I gave you all my love,
But you didn't care,
Now all i have is your filthy love,
Your madness,
my sadness...
Yes you girl,
your filthy love..

Hahaha,
Round and round
I spin in
And I spin out,
Up and down
Upon the ground,
Your love makes
Me love the cold ground,
Faulterring speech
With an infernal smell
hugging me everywhere
Atrocious hell,
No it's not them pills
That work
Nor the smoke
or the dirt,
Not even ecstacy
Just a little twirk,
of smiles
And hugs,
that makes me drunk,
I'm not a wobbly child,
But an adult in love,
Toddling around
In the spell of your love!
Glittering stars I see at
daytime,
while the sun shines brightly
For me at night,
the rainy season now
makes me feel good,
No need of umberellas or even hoods,
Hahaha!
indeed I'm mad,
Not psychopathically
But in real minds,
"Truely,Madly,Deeply"
In love,
Yours,that binds
Me to the sky,
Gravity can no longer
keep me in sight,
Up and above the hills
I swim,
Yes I'm addicted to this
Little thing,
It's complicated
but mystical,
Yes it's love
That makes me blurred
And a little absurd!

eyelashes laden with snowflakes,
heavy already with tear drops,
frozen stains of red around,
heavy breath, still and sound,
whistling breeze,
no summer trees,
where waters freeze,
and cold are keys,
no bumble bees
over humble pies,
everything dry,
everything white,
frozen and still
her dainty eyes,
don't look at her,
for she might smile,
at your hopelessness,
your untidiness,
at your fate
of dire unrest,
and when you look into her eyes,
you'll feel the pain she went through,
and your hand might tremble before you
break her into pieces,
with that axe in your hands,
why are you scared now that you've already killed her?
yes I know,the regret,
and her soulful stare
that might end up taking away your entire life..