I don't know how to
touch your heart
or create an art
bring you the sun
or spill some fun
stop the rain
or heal your pain
but I know
someday
we'll know.

I don't know how to
kiss you so sweet
or sweep you off your feet
crawl up to bed
or make me stay in your head
touch you with passion
or ****** with an action
but I bet
together
we're off and set.

I don't know how to
to bring the perfect words
into a perfect poetry
or heal your deepest wounds
with my sweetest melody
an excitement for a night
with subtle sensitivity
but what is only known
to someone like me
I will always be waiting
til the sun meets the sea.

I used to believe that winning is the best thing in life,
that true success comes from the best efforts,
that this life is just one huge competition,
that it’s all about you and your ego,
that losing is one of the worst
things that may happen
to one who aims
success.
But now,
I just realized
that in order to achieve
whatever it is that we want,
we must know how it feels like to
break or bend, to be rated or be spent
and still manage to smile and lift our heads,
and learn that just when we thought we had died,
we’ll realize that we were only trying to know we’re alive.

I didn't expect that
You didn't care
I was a fool
You left me bare
My love was strong
I've been holding on
Now I realized
It was so wrong.


Days came quick
Nights too long
We were holding back
Now your feeling's gone
As I remembered
Moments that passed
All that I can see
Love's fading fast.


As I waste my time
On this lonely space
My heart's breaking so
I can't make you stay
All I realized
As my tears roll down
Hearts that beat as one
Now a memory gone.


How do I do this now?
How do we stop the rain?
I am blurring my eyes
For still feeling such pain
I don't want to recall
But all those memories replay
But we both know it now
Love's not meant to stay.

Oh my little star of hope in the sky
How I love to see your wonderful glimmer,
Watching across the firmament as clouds roll by
A spark of joy on a silent dreamer.

Haply I get to stare at you in awe
But chances make my wishes raw,
If I’d be settling myself on the bottomland
Would you glide down and take my hand?

Oh my little star of hope amidst the dark
If there’s a chance, I’d probably fly,
By the lovely wings of a golden lark
We’d toast for love with a cup of rye.

Tonight’s the better time to for me to sit still
And feel the cold wind, a sudden sweet chill,
It’s as if the clouds had reached down on me
Taking me the breeze that embraces me gently.

Oh my little star of hope from a distance
You seem to me an elusive dream, oh hear my cries!
I hope you notice me as I preserve my stance
Try to decipher what is cryptic in my eyes.

It started to drizzle, I wonder why
Would this hopeful dream dramatically die?
Every droplet signifies a melancholic rain
I hope I am not foolishly waiting in vain.

Oh my little star of hope above
Now covered by the rage of the infuriated nimbus,
How will I be able to find true love?
The clouds loathe reigned, intimidatingly tremendous.

The patter of the rain reminded me so bad
Of things, like you, that I bitterly never had,
In a jiffy, you’re gone and I’m about to cry
It just makes no sense. Anybody, tell me why!

Oh my little star of hope, where art thou?
Why won’t you show up and cast another glow?
If ‘tis bound to end, where then shall I go?
If you’d still come back, how will I come to know?

The moment of silence trounced the downpour
Of the storm that wrapped the gloomy night whole,
Those mystical drops seem to touch my soul’s contour
But it has to be dealt with by a lovelorn fool.

Oh my little star of hope, can’t you see?
The torment that was caused by your pure obscurity,
If this is to end in such a way that I’d die
Please just let me know, then take me to your sky.

Get the best of me, get the rest of me
Slowly, we'll bring back the sun in your sky
I knew you'd do the best for me, let the rest see
Slowly, make them feel we're just off and high.
Let me be the best that I could be, rest on me
Slowly, take those threads off and lie.
Feel the rest inside of me, the best you'll see
Slowly, gently, let me hear your loudest cry.
Forget my mystery, just take your time with me
And let the angels die, for that heavenly sigh.

Why should we hide behind our fears?
If it will only bring us regretful tears
Why do we have to end this vain romance?
Can’t we just hold on to our own stance?

Maybe we just need a little prompting
If we are afraid to go through losing,
It is not the world that could break us apart
But our senseless fears that will end the start.

Are you not strong enough to keep it real?
‘Cause I just don’t have anything to feel,
You were getting close to what has to be found
But now I think you’re going the other way around.

How long shall I wait for you to come along?
Do I still have to ask you what is wrong?
If you don’t have anything much to say
Tell me if you’ll stay or else, go on your own way.

This is not rudeness that I am trying to show
But it is for our own hearts and souls to grow,
And realize in the end if it’s still worth it
Try to regain everything and see if we perfectly fit.

decisions
struggle
efforts
challenge
failure
battle
wounds
pain
s­cars
lessons
triumph
plateau
blank
ploy
guile
games
revelations
d­isappointments
oppression
corruption
injustice
outrage
tears
crie­s
depression
darkness
revenge
revenge
revenge
revenge
death
reven­ge


eternal.

She'd flip her hair on your sun-burnt face
and giggle when you get ******
or maybe laugh at your flimsy jokes
but still, she'll kiss your pursed lips.

She might hang your wet socks by the pane
and let the world see its holes
or turn your tumblers into colorful vases
but surely she'll put an "I love you" note.

She could paint your wheels with pink and purple
and put sand in your costly sneaks
or surely annoy you with her singing voice
but she'll sing like you are the lyrics.

She would bring you overly toasted buns
the ones she did for about three hours
and open the windows to let the rays in
as she jumps on your bed to touch your skin.

She'll be putting pebbles on your doorstep
but surely you will just know
'cause her scent leaves on her trail
like a flower in summer glow.

She might just grow tired doing stuff
trying to put a big smile on your face
but just like a child, you'll see her there
an angel calmly sleeping in your place.

I don't want to dance into the music before he grooves in harmony
I'm trying to keep my notes low before he realizes the perfect melody,
I try my hardest not to speak of rhymes before he makes up his poetry
I don't want to be the first to fall before he gives in to gravity.

I'm hiding the smiles he gave me, the sparks that fill my eyes
I'm keeping away the tingles, from your stares that totally entice,
I would not want to be the first to have my poor heart racing
I don't want to be the first to realize and slowly get the feeling.

I may have had a bad day, but you just turn it upside down
I may have frowned all day long, but you happen to be my clown
I may have hurt myself in the past, but you simply showed me how
To leave the painful mem'ries behind and finally cherish the 'now'.

For many times, I've been in scenes where the characters hurt me so
I have felt an endless rolling of tears from my eyes so long ago
And taking a chance and risking it again might sound a scary show
But though I don't want to be the first to fall, please don't let me go.

You helped me up, you brought life back, you kept me standing tall
Yes, I don't want to be the first to fall, but I'm not scared at all.

It’s Friday evening and I can’t sleep
Waiting for the night to finally grow deep,
All I’ve been up to is just some crazy stuff
I’ve never been this down and all in enough.

Creepy thoughts had been ranting in my head
Though cracked and wild, it kept its cool instead,
I can’t take another step on a pathetic, bitter course
An outcast state in a world where everyone abhors.

This I confidently said to myself once more
There’s no looking back, so I tried to close that door,
But as I gripped to push the golden door ****
In silence, my ears can’t help but hear my throb.

The pain, the angst, and all those tears I cried
For the first time, I realized that I had long died,
Wounds, still fresh though memories, all rotten
Treasured gleeful moments seemed to be forgotten.

I let it out, I screamed inside my gloomy soul
Precious shimmering gems were destined to roll,
Sure enough that no one would be able to hear
The world shall never know, tried to hide my very fear.

The terrible sensation was slowly killing me inside
Seems like those thoughts had come to deride,
Sadly, my fate was to be excruciatingly pained
Not a bit of love’s mirth was ever treasured nor gained.

I tried to ran from those unending miserable scenes
Uncomfortable to hear that this ruthless life wins,
Finally vowed to walk away from sorrow and shame
I strongly held a promise that I’ll never be the same.

I don’t need love’s wings to take me up so high
And show me a sham world across the treacherous sky,
The beauty of the rose is not what we should only detect
How its thorns can hurt you is what we must also reflect.

Else, if love won’t allow me to wear a genuine smile
I guess I won’t be deceived again to take an extra mile,
Sad to say, in whatever ways, I’ve had it memorized
So I won’t be left stunned again and strangely mesmerized.

Life will really take you to a battle you never expected
But it’s in your hands if you will let your heart be dissected,
No blame shall ever be put on me ‘cause I remain steadfast
It’s just a bitter principle, made strong enough to last.

I know it’s not that easy
But would you believe me tonight?
You’re all I ever think of
Each lonely day of my life.

Lingering thoughts of you
Keep my enchanted soul ablaze,
Driving me to the zenith of my emotions
Taking me too far away.

My eyes are filled with odd glimmer
My tongue speaks otherwise,
But if you’ll listen to my heart forever
It beats for you ‘til I die.

I don’t know what you’re thinking
I wish I can read it right,
‘Cause stolen glances are never enough
To becalm a heart that’s on fire.

Whenever you set your eyes on me
You’ll know there’s something different,
So please look beyond what you see
‘Cause it’s something and I really mean it.

Maybe we’re too young to act so real
And too old to play this game,
But I know time will come for us
To give this game a real name.

Can you see how really strange things are
For only you and me,
Imagine how we’ve come this far
Two paths on the same journey.

What has been hidden stays the same
Untold words still unrevealed,
Waiting for the moment in our life
For kindred hearts to finally meet.

Since the day I said it’s over
Some things went wrong in me,
Thoughts broke down from nothingness
I guess I will never be free.

Shall I do something about it?
When I don’t have the right to,
Indeed, our fate’s not in my hands
How will I be able to carry through?

My heart still can’t find itself
From the time I lost all control,
It’d been a rebel, ‘twas out of hand
Been cut and scarred and all.

I don’t know who I am now
I think I lost the real me,
When I was left all broken
I was drowned in toxicity.

My brain, it seems so drained
My vision’s blurred with emptiness,
Now I’m stuck in my own vanity
Failed to taste life’s happiness.

I see, it can never seem so real
Just as how it was carefully planned,
Life and fate succeeded in their deal
And now I don’t know where to stand.

Look in my eyes and see what’s flowing
Drops of fresh blood produced by pain,
It cannot stop, it just can’t bear
Taste of regret, a love in vain.

This is how my system works now
This world is my prison, my hands enchained,
No one would worry about such woebegone
I haven’t seen my tears; I wasn’t even pained.

Tell me, oh love, are you happy now?
Have you had enough of disdain?
Share it with me, I envy you so
‘Cause you only drive me insane.

My body freezes in bitter sweat
My heart finally grew icebound,
But my soul embarks an odd journey
Seems like it fails to touch my ground.

What has done to me I do not weep
Maybe I only deserve such,
But what I don’t understand very clearly
Guess I only loved too much.

Yes, I was stabbed in greatest delight
It was the best of the stories I can share,
And living in this cold, **** body
I guess I can no longer bear…

You were the love song
That was sang through the breeze
When there was no one to blame
For what I thought was certainty

Maybe the reason
After all that has gone
Was to bring back love for me
And fill my heart with lullabies

But my melody
Failed to reach out to you
When the clouds seem to cover
My lonely heart from loving you

I watched the sunset
Sealed with so much regret
I could’ve been happy now
Knowing that there is something more

My words can’t perfect
My flaws command regret
My heart that was once broken
Further breaks into tiny bits

There’s nothing to do
Life has taught me two things
Do what might be right for you
Or taste the pain of might-have-beens.

Touch every tip of my fingers
And let your own fill me inside
Begging to electrify my senses
Feel a place where you want to hide.

Censor not the view til the sun shines
Hide not the melody for no disguise
Take me to your highest wonders
Lift up your head like a roaring sky.

Pound, oh heart, I love it fast
Reach the depths of my words' lust
Read my eyes as we reach the top
And let us fall for each other at last.

There was a time
when I thought that
to avoid you
would be
the cure.

Now, I long
to go back to
the time when I was
**** sick


at least,
I was alive.

Heal me with your words that lather
Untangle the strings I attached to your heart
Dun me until you see me no longer
Upon your feet, as I tear apart
But hear my words as they sound louder:



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even from the start.

Why?
When every time we play with words
And add music to verses we don't sing
And give meanings by hiding reality
Behind the mask of our wondrous craft,
The time comes for us to be at last, at least,
Entirely understood
By people who are just as we are
Entirely misunderstood.

You came to me unexpectedly
During the times of my ennui,
Hope was so impossible to see
Until you showed up and stayed by me.

Problems come and go so bad
Seems like they’re going to stay in fad,
I tried to hide all my golden tears
But you were there to cast away my fears.

Whenever I’m happy we always share
Moments of fun and we never care,
You always give me what is due
To me you showed the real you.

It was long ago when our eyes met
In-depth talks were never set,
But when I got to look deeper into you
It was then that I see what is true.

We were both happy whenever together
Never thinking of any better,
Friendly bond has been made
Genuine smiles never do fade.

I just don’t know what is behind
I guess it’s not for me to find,
If searching the truth will make me cry
Then I won’t take even a single try.

And then I realized that it’s this whole thing
All I’ve been wishing for and everything,
From that single star with the special glimmer
Gazed upon by a faithful dreamer.

For so long I’ve waited and hoped no less
To reach for that star and feel its caress,
But I guess destiny plays no part
In a self-made love story of a broken heart.

And so when you came I closed my eyes
And thought of the dream that never dies,
And told myself I wish it was you
Who had made my pathetic love story true.

Is it still freedom?
When my lips can still
Speak words but can't feel
How these words make sense
'Cause my soul is trapped
Under the grasp of
An insomniac.

Is it still freedom?
When I let go of
the hand cuffs that bind
All my sanity
But curses dig deep
Till my final sleep
Unless I defy.

Is it still freedom?
To love the unloved
And appreciate more
Of the worst to come
They all do agree
But go try the flame
No one will remain.

Is it still freedom?
To smile all anew
After the worst strain
For there is nothing
To cry about in
A world full of shame
And false compromise.

Is it freedom?
To live while you're dead
To hear when you're deaf
To speak when all mute
And walk with fine shoes
Gems and ropes and all
Go hide, velvet soul!

Out of all the souls around
That's willing to take the sword from your hand
You'll never really know who's who or not.

Stay up late,

can he do something about it--
when your tears roll like a stream on your weary surface?
If there is some sense in holding on to such feeling,
would it be much fairer to watch yourself still living?

Love can be lovely; love can be fine
But love is not love when it lets you just die.
Hearts deserve better than longing for a love
that never lasts a day without making you cry hard.

You think you're all alone; they're cautious of your smile.
You get a piece of hell that burns worse than any fire
but what else could cut deeper
than such pathetic desire?
Have you done something wrong?
Have you done things so right?
You can't think straight now; hope's just out of sight.

Was there some 'he' to make you feel alright?
Was there that touch that made each spark bright?
Was there anything else there that'd make you feel
that falling in love now could finally be right?

Pain was quick; hitting us through and through.
Recovery, so elusive; we end up without a clue.
How do we stop the cycle of breaking innocent hearts?

Can we, for once, be wrong for what feels so right?
Can I be wrong with you even when things won't ever be right?

There is a right place for dreamers
To scatter a pinch of their silver dusts
Over their words of real intensity
Away from a way too cluttered universe
Of the ones who crave for glory.

This is the right sphere
To fight against our beguiling demons
And knock them out of our lives
And silently bawl when they hit us
Dodge the attack of a million knives.

This is the haven of the wildest cries
Of a thousand lies from cursed lips
Burning souls from awful twists
Winging life out of the least
Becalming rhymesters’ shaking fists.

Beauty lies behind what we can’t see
Hope hides above those heavy mass of clouds,
Sometimes we forget that love is still free
And fear is just all that enshrouds.

We cannot stay in such a bitter state
Happiness is anywhere to be found,
Truly we cannot predict one’s fate
But we cannot bar what is bound.

Let the light search purposely for your soul
Let the stars enkindle your eyes,
Let the gentle dove carry you whole
Let love pull you as it flies.

We deserve the best and nothing less
If we let it in our hearts,
Listen to what it faithfully confesses
This is where new life starts.

Broken hearts and stained trust
Seem to cover what is there beyond,
Yet we have to believe that life’s still just
Learn to accept a brand new bond.

If it is to stay, it will without doubt
But if not, it is not to be despaired of,
Just cherish the moment and try to make out
It’s something we all need enough.