Hey, hear my heart
It’s beating loud
That crazy pound
Please hear it out.

Now, it’s all I have
It is all I am
Do you hear my cry?
Do I have to try hard?

I know there is something beyond
Looking at your eyes
I can feel it in your touch
And now I see the spark.

I don’t wanna play your silly game
I don’t want to lose it all
I don’t wanna be the one to blame
When I make the final call

I don’t wanna ruin what we have
I just cannot take the pain
I don’t wanna play your silly game
Please don’t let me fall.

Hey, don’t try to hide
What’s on your side
It’s all I see
When you’re with me

Can you just be
What you’ve always been
‘Cause it burns my soul
And it freezes my skin

We know we’ll never have enough
If you’re not ever gonna stop
But if you’re madly insisting
Please do give me the real thing

I don’t wanna play your silly game
I don’t want to lose it all
I don’t wanna be the one to blame
When I make the final call

I don’t wanna ruin what we have
I just cannot take the pain
I don’t wanna play your silly game
Please don’t let me fall.

If you never plan to catch me
Please just let me go
For when hearts are hurt so badly
They tend to curse a stupid show.

If you just don’t feel it
Please walk away
But if you badly miss me
Then I’ll have to stay.

I don’t wanna play your silly game
I don’t want to lose it all
I don’t wanna be the one to blame
When I make the final call

I don’t wanna ruin what we have
I just cannot take the pain
I don’t wanna play your silly game
Catch me, I’m about to fall.

Beauty lies behind what we can’t see
Hope hides above those heavy mass of clouds,
Sometimes we forget that love is still free
And fear is just all that enshrouds.

We cannot stay in such a bitter state
Happiness is anywhere to be found,
Truly we cannot predict one’s fate
But we cannot bar what is bound.

Let the light search purposely for your soul
Let the stars enkindle your eyes,
Let the gentle dove carry you whole
Let love pull you as it flies.

We deserve the best and nothing less
If we let it in our hearts,
Listen to what it faithfully confesses
This is where new life starts.

Broken hearts and stained trust
Seem to cover what is there beyond,
Yet we have to believe that life’s still just
Learn to accept a brand new bond.

If it is to stay, it will without doubt
But if not, it is not to be despaired of,
Just cherish the moment and try to make out
It’s something we all need enough.

As much as I want to rejoice
And savor that old feeling again
I’ve got no other choice
But to keep it all hidden.

No one shall know that for so long
I’ve patiently waited so much
And that kept me collected all along
But still, it never broke the latch.

It’s nothing that would bring me
Into the same wonderful memories
‘Cause now it seems a vanity
To ignore presented realities.

I liked the way it all happened
It’s as if it was the first time
But I shall soon be awakened
‘Cause somehow, it is a crime.

I cannot simply fix the messy crack
Things that have been deranged
‘Cause I cannot bring it all back
Indeed, I know things have changed.

We could all be caught up in our own insanity
And betray our hearts with our pasts
Even when the body does what it is expected to do
The mind tries to find a way to bypass.

He was once the person I almost badly wanted
He was once the person who made me spend my nights in tears,
He was once the person I’d love to walk the earth with
He was once the flower that bloomed in the middle of desert feels.

But who are we to foolishly demand from the vast Great Skies?
Who am I to heartlessly betray the present love that serves me right?
Who is he to ruin the trust of the man who would hold me tight?
Who are we to judge how things end up like funny tales we just write?

I am writing this poem not to defend my infidelity to make things seem right.

I am writing this poem, so I know when to say goodbye and just give in to what I can’t fight.

I am writing this poem not to express my [still] burning desire to be with my old flame.

I am writing this poem for the love that took care of me when I know I don’t really care.

Soulful
Not a whine
Sad, though
Simple rhyme.
Standing
Held the mic
Burning
Space and time.
Strike up
Keep light
Open up
Bright eyes.
Loose notes
Dark hall
Still air
Tears fall.
Left alone
End song
Young man
Carry on.

I was never that girl.
Was I?

I know just right.

Take a deep breath.
Gladly turn your back.
Never drop a tear.
Just wish me luck.


I was never that girl.


We know just right.


"She's the one..."



End.

*Not I.

What did I tell myself?
What did I make myself believe?
I guess it's nothing but a lie
I guess it's just the reason that I die.

Where did this lead me to?
Why do reasons just come and go?
I never opened a door for fright
I might just hurt the one who tries.

Was it a nice beginning I tend to cut?
Well, now a bitter ending never meant to last
Indeed, a lesson I refuse to learn
I built my walls out of a raging storm.

And again, he played with his words
And again, I wished they were mine
And again, I said with a curse
Again, it was never mine to mind.

And again, he proceeded with charm
And again, I would see him around
And again, there's nothing I could do
*Again, how do I not want you?

Vibrant melodies
Reaching the depths of my heart
Oh, sweet moonlight kiss.

I cannot deny
The tears that I’ve shed
On that very night
I stayed up instead.

Seems like a rewind
Thoughts came to linger
How can I hide?
From memories so bitter.

Stained by blood
I reached out my hand
Dropped my weary heart
Against the lonely land.

I let the wind take over
My soul has to be freed
When clouds seem to cover
I cannot help but bleed.

Mighty is the night
But I have to find myself
Way back when I’ve gotten
Locked up in the darkest shelf.

I am a wise believer
But not the wisest yet
But when I say I’ll do it
I rarely spell regret.

This I say unto those souls
Resenting to leave such state
You are never strong enough
Unless you face your fate.

I tried to hide from all the lies
From the emptiness I feel inside,
Smiles and laughter filled my days
But nothing can ever make it right.

You taught me how it is to be tough
When things don’t seem to find its light,
But not the kind when one has to fight
With joy and faith, and love and might.

I fought a hopeless battle all alone
Faced the tears until they’re gone,
You never knew how it hurt me so much
To tread this road alone, so rough and vast.

You’ve gone to find what you think you needed
You’ve left me along the journey we’ve started,
But now that I knew quite well how to live it
Please don’t let me make the same mistake again.

I knew how hard it is to hold back something
This love can never be just so wrong on us,
But if destiny would allow us to feel it again
Can we still bring it back and just forget the pain?

The road is rough when it comes to love
But it’s even tougher when you’re not around,
It’s you whom I need to be with here tonight
To feel a love that’s so true, so right…

I am.

‘Cause I’ve seen too many faces, places
But I’ve never been to my own heart
A phase gets replaced and
A lot clogs up that weary part.

When you smile, hold for a while
While I try to clean up this crazy mess
I see you, and then I just knew
You are all I ever need, my happiness.

Maybe, there’s a secret way around
To find out what’s yet unrevealed
Inside of us, will you mind the fuss?
Can you break the latch and let it be real?

It’s you, just you that I’ve been looking for
For you, only for you, I will stay alive
When you look into my eyes, I see it right
Time has come for me to realize, you’re in my life.

When all else fails, I just don’t know anymore
You’re all I ever need to find that door
And open up that part that just keeps closing, hiding
‘Cause for you, I’d risk myself into believing


*That you’d save me just before I miss this chance…

Like there’s nothing there
to keep us alone, or restrained, or apart.
That there’s no way
to feel no hope, or no sunshine
or pain in our hearts.
About matters that matter not
when it comes to life, or faith, or love.
Just a simple reason
to remain alive, or sound
or standing on this desperate ground.

I wish I could be the one
Who could take your sadness away,
The one who could light up your way
Just like every star in the sky.

I wish I could be the one
To wrap you with my deep love’s warmth,
To comfort you like every home’s hearth
And burn all your sorrow away.

I wish I could be the one
The one who could color your life again,
Who could make you happy every now and then
Like a rainbow every after the rain.


I wish I could be the one
The one to give you all the love you need,
So that the wounds in your heart won’t ever bleed
‘Cause I’m always ready to give it all to you.

I wish I could be the one
Whom you’ll see when everything in you goes wrong,
Hoping you’ll realize that I’ve always been here
Loving you for so long.