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453 · Jan 2014
Be
Ceryn Jan 2014
Be
Be the reason why people smile
Be the apple of their weary eyes
Be the sunshine through their rain
Be the hand to help them up again
Be the hope when they're upset
Be the dream they wish to get
Be the friend whom they can call
Be the one to have when they lose it all.
451 · Jan 2014
It's Okay To Cry
Ceryn Jan 2014
It's okay to sometimes cry,
'Cause it's when we know we're alive.
When the wind blows at night,
and we silently watch the stars shine,
we think we're lonely when everyone's alright,
but we don't even seem to realize,
that even the brightest sparks in the sky,
were once the saddest wishes of those eyes,
who wished they were never made to cry.
450 · May 2013
Daydreamer's Dream
Ceryn May 2013
I’ve been writing boring poems, and fancy doodles,
The ones I thought would make sense in the end.
But I never realized, I was only using them
Just to create a sense in my head.
What I once realized in this lonely earth
Love cannot grow on a barren ground
When you care for the one who forgot your worth
But you’re still waiting to be found.
I know it’s for real but can’t ever come true
Though I know I still need your love
But I know deep inside, wherever you may go
There'll always be me and you in my heart.
446 · Feb 2013
Wonders Of Love
Ceryn Feb 2013
Beauty lies behind what we can’t see
Hope hides above those heavy mass of clouds,
Sometimes we forget that love is still free
And fear is just all that enshrouds.

We cannot stay in such a bitter state
Happiness is anywhere to be found,
Truly we cannot predict one’s fate
But we cannot bar what is bound.

Let the light search purposely for your soul
Let the stars enkindle your eyes,
Let the gentle dove carry you whole
Let love pull you as it flies.

We deserve the best and nothing less
If we let it in our hearts,
Listen to what it faithfully confesses
This is where new life starts.

Broken hearts and stained trust
Seem to cover what is there beyond,
Yet we have to believe that life’s still just
Learn to accept a brand new bond.

If it is to stay, it will without doubt
But if not, it is not to be despaired of,
Just cherish the moment and try to make out
It’s something we all need enough.
446 · Feb 2013
Maybe
Ceryn Feb 2013
Maybe it was wrong to love you
Maybe it was wrong to have cared,
Maybe it has never been so true
Maybe I shouldn’t have dared.

Maybe it was never worth it
Maybe it was never really there,
Maybe we never really fit
Maybe it’s just despair.

Maybe it wasn’t good enough
Maybe it wasn’t meant to last,
Maybe the road’s just too tough
Maybe the plains were just too vast.

Maybe I wasn’t able to control
Maybe I just couldn’t do it right,
Maybe I just can’t have it all
Maybe I can’t own such delight.

Maybe I wasn’t able to hold on
Maybe I’ve been so weak and light,
Maybe it was my illusion
Maybe it was never really right.

Maybe I only dreamed
Maybe I was just imagining,
Maybe it’s different as it seemed
Maybe it’s not worth fighting.

Maybe I find it hard to trust
Maybe I never tried to believe,
Maybe I just let things rust
Maybe I’m not worthy to receive.

Maybe I doubted what love is
Maybe I never took chances,
Maybe it was my worst disease
Maybe I deserve to fall into pieces.

Maybe it happened for a good reason
Maybe I should be learning it today,
Maybe I’ll have my perfect season
Maybe I’ll have it soon, someday.
442 · Feb 2013
'Cause Things Have Changed
Ceryn Feb 2013
As much as I want to rejoice
And savor that old feeling again
I’ve got no other choice
But to keep it all hidden.

No one shall know that for so long
I’ve patiently waited so much
And that kept me collected all along
But still, it never broke the latch.

It’s nothing that would bring me
Into the same wonderful memories
‘Cause now it seems a vanity
To ignore presented realities.

I liked the way it all happened
It’s as if it was the first time
But I shall soon be awakened
‘Cause somehow, it is a crime.

I cannot simply fix the messy crack
Things that have been deranged
‘Cause I cannot bring it all back
Indeed, I know things have changed.
441 · May 2013
Something Left To Dream Of
Ceryn May 2013
There is nothing left to dream of
All I had now finally went off
Down the drain of this lonely earth
Amidst the teardrops my eyes had to lose.

If there is nothing left to dream of
How could repose be that comforting?
Can the sun and stars still dare believe?
That anyone can do it by just believing.

Still, there’s something left to dream of
Though this tiny universe cannot provide
For the love of human heart is strong
Conquering the lonely people in a throng.
Ceryn Dec 2016
We could all be caught up in our own insanity
And betray our hearts with our pasts
Even when the body does what it is expected to do
The mind tries to find a way to bypass.

He was once the person I almost badly wanted
He was once the person who made me spend my nights in tears,
He was once the person I’d love to walk the earth with
He was once the flower that bloomed in the middle of desert feels.

But who are we to foolishly demand from the vast Great Skies?
Who am I to heartlessly betray the present love that serves me right?
Who is he to ruin the trust of the man who would hold me tight?
Who are we to judge how things end up like funny tales we just write?

I am writing this poem not to defend my infidelity to make things seem right.

I am writing this poem, so I know when to say goodbye and just give in to what I can’t fight.

I am writing this poem not to express my [still] burning desire to be with my old flame.

I am writing this poem for the love that took care of me when I know I don’t really care.
433 · Jul 2013
The Songster
Ceryn Jul 2013
Soulful
Not a whine
Sad, though
Simple rhyme.
Standing
Held the mic
Burning
Space and time.
Strike up
Keep light
Open up
Bright eyes.
Loose notes
Dark hall
Still air
Tears fall.
Left alone
End song
Young man
Carry on.
430 · Jul 2013
Explicit
Ceryn Jul 2013
I was never that girl.
Was I?

I know just right.

Take a deep breath.
Gladly turn your back.
Never drop a tear.
Just wish me luck.


I was never that girl.


We know just right.


"She's the one..."



End.

*Not I.
Why did I even create this? I admit, this is one of my dullest poems. Failing, I guess?
426 · May 2013
Walls And Questions Thereof
Ceryn May 2013
What did I tell myself?
What did I make myself believe?
I guess it's nothing but a lie
I guess it's just the reason that I die.

Where did this lead me to?
Why do reasons just come and go?
I never opened a door for fright
I might just hurt the one who tries.

Was it a nice beginning I tend to cut?
Well, now a bitter ending never meant to last
Indeed, a lesson I refuse to learn
I built my walls out of a raging storm.
425 · Jan 2014
Like An Amber Light Dilemma
Ceryn Jan 2014
You left me tongue-tied, young man,
Feeling like a soldier with no gun.

Reached for the last piece on the ground,
Still, tripping all over, unarmed.

My lost soul, you found it crumbling,
At the very break of dawn, not surprising.

You gladly took me in your arms,
And all at once, I felt the warmth.

But the next hours were just so tough,
You stole my heart, but just put the flame out.

Spoke your words out of the blue,
From a couple o' songs with a lonely tune.

Please give me a reason not to ever quit,
Love burns, but for you, I'm willing to take a risk.
419 · May 2013
Your Words
Ceryn May 2013
Your words just spelled
How it's like in my head
Your words redefined
My ever lonely kind
Your words liberated
A mind so overrated
Your words are passionate
These tears, you create
Your words felt so true
And I know it's always you
But your words killed my heart
With a gentle touch of art.
411 · Jun 2013
Hope's Note
Ceryn Jun 2013
We can get through the bad times,
even through the worst ones.
We may see our sun down,
but we can get up more than twice.
We can find the light,
in the darkest corners of our soul.
The same way we dream of heaven,
though the world seems to fall.
We can read a lot about others,
And write about our own much better.
We can lead our lives to nowhere,
And see ourselves grow stronger.
We can break our own hearts today,
But we cannot stay broken forever.
We may not realize this clearly now,
But it won't take long before you find the answer.
409 · Feb 2013
Blue
Ceryn Feb 2013
You looked in my eyes
In deep silence, you knew me
Nothing's there to hide.
Emotional haiku.
Ceryn Feb 2013
I can't promise that I
will be the one to love you 'til the end, but
always remember that even though
love fades in no time,
you will never be effaced from my head, but then...
Regrets are all that linger
amidst the incessant rain in my life
lost that hope to push through
paving way for another strife.
here in this corner, I am alone and blue
Just as what I always expect of me
and all I do is try to forget you
stained by memories of you, I want to be free
over these insanities, I know I can do it
no one can ever make me go astray.
Crushed and dumped, I felt the pain
a sham fantasy, my internal bane,
rust of the past, I shall paint with oblivion
remnants of what used to be ain't worth retrospection.
escaping reality is what I need to do
through a different perspective of what's old and new
everything's gone and is never worth recall
remember you are not and were never my all, and
one more thing, I love you no more, I swear...

'TIL THEY TAKE MY LAST BREATH AWAY...
M.C. Style # 01
401 · May 2013
Fifteenth
Ceryn May 2013
I saw him. I saw him there.
I saw him again, standing there.
I knew then, the feeling didn't really go away.
It's still there... was always there.
I guess it will always be there....
here... here inside my heart...
where I keep all the memories we had,
the laughter we shared,
those conversations when I knew that he cared,
the tears I shed for the pain I felt,
those nights I spent for remembering him,
the days I knew I've spent loving him
while hurt
feeling the pain
knowing that I won't ever feel him
beside me again.
He was there, I know, he was there.
I saw him standing there.
He's still here in my heart.
But in my life, I know,
he'll no longer be a part...
There will always come a time when you come to see a person again, or just hear his name from a stranger or friend, or simply remember him because you're in "that" place again, and you just don't understand why you still feel the same way. Nothing has changed. You're still hurt, but nothing has changed...
399 · Jan 2014
Again
Ceryn Jan 2014
And again, he played with his words
And again, I wished they were mine
And again, I said with a curse
Again, it was never mine to mind.

And again, he proceeded with charm
And again, I would see him around
And again, there's nothing I could do
*Again, how do I not want you?
398 · Oct 2013
Your Girl
Ceryn Oct 2013
I've seen her a lot of times
just when I decided to forget you.
I've seen her downtown
just when I thought I got over you.
I've seen her pretty smiles
and I guess that's something for you.
I've seen her glimmering eyes
and I guess those eyes pulled you.
I've seen her looking at me
and I was trying to know what's in her mind.
I've seen her watching me
but I was trying to ignore her every time.
I've seen her, yes, but how I wish I didn't
as she thought I was feeling okay.
I just wish I never had the chance to see
*The reason why I'm still feeling this way.
394 · May 2013
Fear
Ceryn May 2013
Fear.

I thought it was right
to feel such for too much
that I deny every opportunity
to have a thousand guts and try.

Fear.

It's all that has caused me
to lose a chance to be better
to face it all and save myself
from my own stupid downfall.

Fear.

Sometimes, I wish I don't have to
but I know it's all I had to do
and in trying I know I'll learn
but I let the moment burn.

Fear.

I could've been who I wanted
but it seemed I'm just so weak
to toss a coin and step on a thorn
growing up with a lame defeat.

Fear.

I should've dared to ask
if it's a thing I'd be glad to know
if it's something so wonderful
but my if's were merely oh.

Fear.

I'd like to let it show
out in the open, all, behold!
but just like the other fools
I stayed behind the door.

Fear.

I believe life is so much greater
when we just have to believe
but doubts cloud up my messy mind
to let go or let my heart beat.

Fear.

I knew I have loved him
I knew I felt him there
but since I am this fearful
apparently, I lost him instead.
389 · Feb 2013
Two Tales
Ceryn Feb 2013
Less than inspired…
I am
That’s how things work for me
Just like before
Encumbered with nothingness
I knew I’d forever fight a losing battle
And things do happen just like that.
Well, no one cares, no one bothers
Unconsciously…
But you did
I never thought about you having to make me feel this way
I knew then that nothing lasts a lifetime
But I guess, it’s not really meant to be like the way it is in my head
I’d like to believe it wasn’t true.
You are not in my life, never were.
My every single day has to be ordinary.
But then,
I just could not feel anyone beside me
But you, your presence.
I never needed anyone
Just when I feel so alone
Fate has decided
I knew it from the start
I knew I have to realize
Yes.
We’re distant, of two different worlds.
You’re a star, I am nothing.
But these things are superficial!
Where there could not be any living hope
Wonders can still exist
Just when I thought I’d be forever alone
Someone like you has to come along
I always wanted to believe that
Now, I finally do.
But…
I never believed that I might be left hanging again, no!
…that anyone should have to leave sooner or later, no!
…that our differences can build walls around us, no!
I never believed it,
And so
I was so happy!
The kind that could blind reality
You left me with this kind of feeling
Just when you came
You spelled happiness to me.
We can figure it out.
374 · May 2013
To The Ones...
Ceryn May 2013
Here's to the girls
who loved so real, but failed to say
just what they mean, 'cause they were scared
of how they feel, but let it take
a part of them, still.

Here's to the guys
who tried to say just what they feel
but failed to do, 'cause doubt subdued
thinking they might only be rejected
dropping off, they chose to forget.

Here's to the ones
who could have been one
but backing down, they both went on alone
giving up on hope and passion and love,
things went wrong, no one tried harder
Love is strong, but pride got stronger.
372 · Feb 2013
Midnight Notes
Ceryn Feb 2013
Vibrant melodies
Reaching the depths of my heart
Oh, sweet moonlight kiss.
369 · Nov 2017
Sad Notes # 1: Never Heals
Ceryn Nov 2017
It's been a while, and yes, I still wonder why.

I wonder why He made all these things happen.
I wonder why He even let us meet at one point in our lives.
I wonder why He made us feel what we felt before we decided to feel nothing at all.
I wonder why He led us towards each other when we weren't even looking at our way,
then all of a sudden, He pulled him back in and made me alone again.
I did not understand a thing.
I did not see any sign.
I did not like the sound of my tears.
I did not like the way we said good bye.

I kept on asking why.

I kept on singing our old songs.

I kept on browsing through our old photos.

I kept on wondering why He made me cry for you so.

I kept on breaking my heart.

I kept on standing on a dry, cracked ground.

I kept on saying that I wouldn't mind,

but after all this time, all I realized...

If it matters more than anything else, it could've made sense now.

And that hit me deep inside.

Because even when I say that we all heal in time,

I knew I still can't love anyone, when my heart has long died.
369 · Feb 2013
Resurrection
Ceryn Feb 2013
I cannot deny
The tears that I’ve shed
On that very night
I stayed up instead.

Seems like a rewind
Thoughts came to linger
How can I hide?
From memories so bitter.

Stained by blood
I reached out my hand
Dropped my weary heart
Against the lonely land.

I let the wind take over
My soul has to be freed
When clouds seem to cover
I cannot help but bleed.

Mighty is the night
But I have to find myself
Way back when I’ve gotten
Locked up in the darkest shelf.

I am a wise believer
But not the wisest yet
But when I say I’ll do it
I rarely spell regret.

This I say unto those souls
Resenting to leave such state
You are never strong enough
Unless you face your fate.
367 · Feb 2013
Let Us
Ceryn Feb 2013
I tried to hide from all the lies
From the emptiness I feel inside,
Smiles and laughter filled my days
But nothing can ever make it right.

You taught me how it is to be tough
When things don’t seem to find its light,
But not the kind when one has to fight
With joy and faith, and love and might.

I fought a hopeless battle all alone
Faced the tears until they’re gone,
You never knew how it hurt me so much
To tread this road alone, so rough and vast.

You’ve gone to find what you think you needed
You’ve left me along the journey we’ve started,
But now that I knew quite well how to live it
Please don’t let me make the same mistake again.

I knew how hard it is to hold back something
This love can never be just so wrong on us,
But if destiny would allow us to feel it again
Can we still bring it back and just forget the pain?

The road is rough when it comes to love
But it’s even tougher when you’re not around,
It’s you whom I need to be with here tonight
To feel a love that’s so true, so right…
363 · Oct 2013
Written Tragedy
Ceryn Oct 2013
I got the reasons in my hand
Had them figured out now and then
But when I try to let them lose
I can't seem to escape from my own blues
And this I'd like you all to know
Without the usual pretty flow
That some things, I know, will set me free
But not thy love in our written tragedy.
343 · May 2013
Rundown
Ceryn May 2013
Sometimes,
when I think of all the happy times in my life
I never fail to go back to the days when I was with you
When I felt really sure of how the days would go by
As I have you here
As I see you near
As we come close to what's good and real
At least, just the way it seemed.
But now I know it's over
You're never coming back anymore
As you always would back then
When I'd slip away
Tell you "I'm okay"
And try not to look back
As you try to whisper "I'm here to stay."
But things, I know, have changed
And I know how it all became strange
I let you go
Feeling all that we both know
It has turned both our lives
To something we never realized
Because I did walk away
From what could really make me okay
Now I can't get back on track
'Cause I know, I know
You're never coming back.
343 · Feb 2014
Save Me
Ceryn Feb 2014
‘Cause I’ve seen too many faces, places
But I’ve never been to my own heart
A phase gets replaced and
A lot clogs up that weary part.

When you smile, hold for a while
While I try to clean up this crazy mess
I see you, and then I just knew
You are all I ever need, my happiness.

Maybe, there’s a secret way around
To find out what’s yet unrevealed
Inside of us, will you mind the fuss?
Can you break the latch and let it be real?

It’s you, just you that I’ve been looking for
For you, only for you, I will stay alive
When you look into my eyes, I see it right
Time has come for me to realize, you’re in my life.

When all else fails, I just don’t know anymore
You’re all I ever need to find that door
And open up that part that just keeps closing, hiding
‘Cause for you, I’d risk myself into believing


*That you’d save me just before I miss this chance…
342 · Mar 2014
Falling Over Again
Ceryn Mar 2014
And when I dreamed of you, I know I’m losing you
I have no power over what I know isn’t true
You were like a million catch of flowers on a cold and barren ground
And just that beautiful when you took my heart

Free, you let those feelings fly around
You never hold it back
‘Twas easy for you to say those words
You never knew, it felt so good

So high, you brought me into highest lands
And pulled my thorns unarmed
Proving to me you’re worth it all
But now, I know I had to break my heart.

If you only see my invisible tears
You would know how much you made me feel
Had to bear with this pain again
‘Cause every day, I wait in vain.

I know I’m not the one you need
But would you mind if you try to erase my fears
I just want to get over you now
Just glad I had it with you, felt it somehow.
341 · Feb 2013
Four Seasons
Ceryn Feb 2013
Spring

Many days ago
I’ve longed for another touch
You came to my life.

Fall

Wrestled with the pain
Of losing another chance
I blew it away.

Winter

Sometimes I believe
That what has left will come back
Same feelings will grow.

Summer**

Visions came to me
We’ll both take over this world
Shine at last in love.
322 · Mar 2014
Say Something
Ceryn Mar 2014
Like there’s nothing there
to keep us alone, or restrained, or apart.
That there’s no way
to feel no hope, or no sunshine
or pain in our hearts.
About matters that matter not
when it comes to life, or faith, or love.
Just a simple reason
to remain alive, or sound
or standing on this desperate ground.
297 · Feb 2013
The One
Ceryn Feb 2013
I wish I could be the one
Who could take your sadness away,
The one who could light up your way
Just like every star in the sky.

I wish I could be the one
To wrap you with my deep love’s warmth,
To comfort you like every home’s hearth
And burn all your sorrow away.

I wish I could be the one
The one who could color your life again,
Who could make you happy every now and then
Like a rainbow every after the rain.


I wish I could be the one
The one to give you all the love you need,
So that the wounds in your heart won’t ever bleed
‘Cause I’m always ready to give it all to you.

I wish I could be the one
Whom you’ll see when everything in you goes wrong,
Hoping you’ll realize that I’ve always been here
Loving you for so long.
162 · Oct 2021
Sad Part
Ceryn Oct 2021
It is difficult.
This is difficult.
When you're not used to
being around people,
yet you're stuck in a place
where people expect you
to interact, communicate.
No matter how you hate it,
it's just how things should be.
No place for anxiety.
132 · Jul 2013
Three Notes To All Hearts
Ceryn Jul 2013
Don't make sound memories with whom you don't intend to show your deepest affections
in a way that they'd find it hard to cut your connections or burn their wide, infinite illusions.

It's sick when you have to compromise, but it would be wiser to get rid of pungent lies
as we are all humans vulnerable of the pain that not even the thickest firewall can restrain.

Listen to your heart and more to the inner voice that may tell what could cause much disdain
but remember that a single unintentional snick is a lot worse than a miserable life of the bleak.

— The End —