Sunset on the earths saliva
Stick to the roads a snail trail
Wriggling inside like worms
Cant turn off the terror nerves
Nervous as never known nursing
An infant hidden in the closet
Fall asleep waiting for dreams
A ghost in the wire , fiending
Blanket wrapped around you
Naked on the porch , long night
Long sunrise , reflecting off the pool

Eye spine a different nine, stolen time
Tombstones compliment our skyline
A coffin slipping itself into its grave
Shallow dirt under the cement
Did she find what she was looking for?
A shadow slips behind the stage
Vacant household in a silent silhouette
Masterpiece purchased for its frame
A Head mounted on a wooden plaque
Taxidermist trophy husband - prideful
Mistaken muse entropic groping
"I want you inside me "
Vored perception of a lustful vivisection - a pause
My keys- the door

Thought she was laughing across the parlor
When her breathes turned to shrieks
And my ears began to reel- realizing
mascara was running down her face
She begged for breathe but the pain was too eminence
No one could say anything

Its stained in my memory
Every noise now a relief-
I heard a breaking heart
Mistaken for a flutter of joy

And still repeating in my head
the chanting of her children
"Shes crying shes crying"

Every day you can go there
Even if its ten in the morning
Someone will ask with a drugged slur

Can you help me find my name?
We sell English ?
We sell coffins ?
But We dont sell nails ?

Make your skin crawl any time
licking all them ******* toads.
Equated to a near death experience

Love is patient
Love is kind
Confronting yourself
Blind in a mirror
Record no wrongs
Speak no evils
Beseech the cold
Emptyness at home
It is not love
If it gives you pride

The way people walk at different speeds
Some walk at the same , sigh the same time
Upon closer inspection  the technicolor
People
Eating Parisian geese feather sized laughter
Choking on it, chortling the summer
Breeze
Its almost as if the sun leaves saliva trails
Kisses on the necks of diverse colors,
Accents
Roofs of red cobble slate matching the heat
Waves of hot wind, charging the air
Stagnant
Breeze of changing, waiting, aching
Waving
Tourists ice cubes and favorite gelato
Melting
Forgetting stress , foot steps straining
Sights

I am barely alive without us.
No point in breathing , speaking
Its not a choice, its blood pumping
Or the lack thereof , black blood

Check up on each other
Never ignore the others attention
Feel like your second home
Say the worst best things
Give you a place to stay
Get you drunk when youre broke
Order pizza and make you tip
Load a **** bowl instead
Smoke a joint because its midnight
Drive you home
Pick you up
Never let you down

Hesitation in all the things i need to
say
Letting go like three yellow butterfly
wings

wind doesnt move me like it used to flickering candle bought for hope, who
Is remedy of sugargoods and drinking? --being alone when you get home.
I miss the feeling of comfort fooling me
As if this dream would last all daylong
Regurgitating validation like song
As if i actually believed in us.
While you are too busy
Romanticizing worth.  

Life- i am in love with you
But i hear you are insane
So I sleep in

Tonight while trying to sleep
It finally occurred to me
You need change
To create memories.
Some people like those things
Usually when they are good
Make you smile force you to laugh
It seems most people like bad ones
Just look at all that pain
All that panic in the streets
Not in the whole wild world
Ive been places where there is only






And the rain always brings change
Especially in those places ive been
Where there are no streets- and
I cant easily move my mattress
Out into my own front room
Near my balcony , prop my door open
And listen to it drizzling into memory
Of me lying there pretending like
Im trying to sleep somewhere there is





.......

Her body is endless , stars sinking seas
Two blurring lines, too many drinks
When the risk comes in milligrams
The night , at some point seems
endless
My head spinning,
Behind the face I
would never show my friends
Could this really work ,
Will it change anything

It started out such a great day
And Oh how it ends
Wait God
Wait

Wake
Wake up

Wait God
Wait

I went everywhere in my dream.
I went to the past and saw the future
Took pictures of my old house,
Realized how haunted the neighborhood that I grew up in was.
I took your best friend to my old back yard. Just to dance with her again
I confessed my undying love like it wasn't a problem. And when I turned
She was wind, and I had to cut the air with a blade just for Satans protection.
I ran back inside and packed my old books and kept deciding on which ones to leave behind.
The way the new owners rushed me out
Like time was a decision not worth noting
We drove to a new state, with new faces
And I used my phone to communicate
With my first unrequited love.
How i still want her , but no longer care for her. The way i used to want to hold her sensually ,when i was a ******
Now a primal urge to answer her proposition with the most careless of
"Sure"s
I asked her if it was a dream and the way she said it "could be" made it feel more real.
And after one of the mamma cats died
Leaving all the babies for one tabby to feed
I realized that life is ...
And all i can do is love the runts
Untill they are burried , and then the love changes to a past tense

One magpie on my balcony
makes me finally begin to feel
I am in the need of company from
Either the only thing that is real
Benign life being alone aloof or
To morn a dark separate from night in my sleep it took away from my eyes
All of my best years with a symphony
Of skeletal men set on high
Stabbing and singing me
These death lullabies
Howling my bones away
Hollow as child's play
One magpie Singing me to sleep

And the songbird gives me hope
When sleep offers no home
Waking up hours before the end of the day

Bodies abolished
Floating souls
Space wind
Spirit bones
Waiting hidden
Beyond blackness
Wherein darkhails
Find Yourself

To physiciologicaly love some one
Do you have to talk yourself in to it?
Can you one time open your eyes
From a blink
And realize i dont love this person
I need this person to feel how i want to feel
How i think i should feel
To live directly from the heart
No thought more powerful
Than the systematic thought
Comprised as a future setting
The mind in the motion of
Calamitous decent
Into the distant abyss
A following into sympathy
A brightened bliss
Of a systematic reprograming
Of why do i always think of you
When a star burns out
And a fire does settle
A distinct remeberence of
Hey
This burning in my body
When i let my mind
Drift away from. You
Is not anything but the universe
Humming the wind through my ears
The way things should be
Hearing how under the love you give me
Without even knowing it
I am complete
Even when im. Alone
Snd youre alive
Happy
Even alone
With the figment of imagination
Of other people
Being able to handle you
Why wont any other mind perceive
The distinction between
Me chemically loving you
The way you insist your ways
And dont see my own
Because youre so worried about your body
And i frown but inside smile
Because i am the same way
And. You are far too scared to admit it
I am what you wished for
Because youre body was
Either wishing your mind wasnt
And you always decided

But wait. A minute
I wander into the desert
And all i can think about it my band
Hidden some how from the stars
Not there viability
But their influence
Since their pull has way more vibe
Than we would ever think
and so would other people to you
The way i lose pull of the world
And you notice
But only like it for a second
Untill you grasp back
At the blanket you call time
And the way i make it skip for you
Would you even hear all of this
Read into it in your own respect
Because. I love you and i wish you were but only because spirtually i wanted to fill the pop boop bebop
Biochemical rap once
Response
With the fact that you are the best thing that could happen to me
I have no idea why
But you are all i want baby
This is from the heart
But logically i can not depart
With the fear
That you will never love me
The same way

Sister.
The wind dies down untill i mention
That it is all we have in common

But the embers
Oh the embers
1122

Bridge of nails
Wrists of fate
Sending time
Back to surrogates
Leave for nothing
Meant to bes
-take to beds
Healing time
And I am waiting
Hidden in vagrancy
Hiding patience in me
Alone in a snow storm

The past is better off dead
Ive done all i can do - to the end

Dont need to be anyone's beast of burden
Settling  Is the day im fine in my own skin

Some days i cant breathe
Not because of the air
Just because i dont have the time

Were all so caught up , we cant look up
All day long. Rather sleep it away
We could always lay and watch the sky

So much bigger than little old us
The vagrant beings ignoring their master
Be awkward when the sky is another friend

I need a vacation
One i dont return from

Leaving at the opportune moment
Fading into the wallpaper , find me

I can send you anything spontaneously
And i will, because i know it makes you smile
Whether im drinking or not, when i do i have an excuse
I can send the most bizarre uplifting moments of our existence
The fact that youre there in the world when im
Also there, just not close enough
Making fun moments wishing you were here
Or maybe i dont i have more better things to do
Just kidding cant even think of me not wanting to see you , not even kissing me, just you there being
Close to me.

But i am drunk or i would drive to you
And watch you sleep

Why do i think of you sometimes
At the most precious of moments
The way you **** my smile
And make me wonder how you are

We spent such an interesting week together
I fell in love , and felt at home
Now i know what neither feels like
Because of how easily I am fooled

I know you probably didnt trick me
But reading how you feel and view
The world is not the same place to you
How could i have not seen it ?

I threw away the only picture i have of you
Yesterday, sure i did hesitate.
But your smile let me realize
Were better off without each other.

My favorite tunes
Reminding me of you

Eager to breathe
Hesitant to come up for air

Kissing you is hard not to do
The perfect trail up your neck
The glistening of your chapped lips
The way our bodies synch
Into needing to be closer
With my lips and our tongues
Wriggling in pleasure under me
Passing time by so fast
All I want is to pause time
You dont have to stay still
Your legs move in equal rhythm
Grasping at comfort and warmth
Coziness in our nature
Perfect puzzle pieces
Confusing clamor
Of finally kissing you again
Simply because its hard not to.
While slowly taking infinity slowly.

Heavy as a rainstorm
Heaving bolts of thought

Never been so high
Never felt so ******

About that time
The pawn goes back in the box

All in all is it just a matter of time ?
Speaking to me in the easy breathes of sighs
I fear no sirens in my house of light
Even shadows of light cast pictures of



Negative space, speaking for itself
         Oh to  
B.  b. b.       Be where you can
See inside windows , of pentacles
             Simple opportunity
To reverse the hanged man, in the shadows
             Of the corners of the ceiling


But how this sets in as normal
And my fingers flow immortal
I can venture inside the vines
And uncover the sleeping Buddha
As long as the blue hovers over
My Nirvana , above and beyond hope
Home,
             Speaking now,
                                        with a smile.

Here in the  ***** of good heart
I did space my sleep out between the sun
And its hiding place,  the other side
The way our hands fit, or sleeves slide down
Revealing flesh to the cones and rods of my eyes
Relieving under the flesh, your ******* torment
Was a lonely winter for both of us , but we can breathe now and clear our aching heads
The blue mountains reflecting our own dimension
And our friend the sun rising yet again
To mark the end of easy sleep
And the beginning of a new spring.

Stomach ready to turn
Thinking about gold

You all are here for the same thing
Money printed in the same green font
Tattooed "in god we trust" on our chest
Irony is that god is a million dollars
Turning itself into two, while you sleep
Some steal for greed, we just **** slowly
Orders for powders that steal your soul
Out of your nose , ripped up the right nostril
Some of us prefer the mud , hovering close to death
Describe a sunset to a blind man, high off ****
Asking for the sunrise to get himself breakfast
Society works at certain times, buttons for pushers
Fiends saving money for their own demise
I would rather die high as hell and float down
Then be as low as I am when im sober.

this week the feeding tube, bleeds you out
hospital subbasement , who do you trust
medical degree in years spent in insanity
cut out the organs that do not do anything
bleeed
yourself, for your blood ******* family
leave your skin open, and dripping
red walls leave blood stains on cement
wake up here, surrounded by confusion
apathy , on the faces of the nurses around you
helping the doctor. operate
steal this heart, while it beats

you will not find me, in any obituary
my body is lost in the woods
you will not find me, on an epitaph
my last words written with my nails
scratched in , to wood, in vain
scrapes and wounds , bleed in vain
white walls, block the scenery
red cement, stained by the blood you bring me
fresh meat

fresh meat
bring me fresh meat
the doctor is calling
for fresh meat,
bring your own blood!

breath pressed between your teeth
whistling, you can still get what you want
just a little more patience, waiting
ill refrain from spreading the truth
patient enough to lose your breath
pressing between your eye lids
completely submerged under water
getting all that you wanted

Trouble seeing past yourself
Hidden clearing enveloped in fog

You used to be there on the other side
And on this one, not trying to hide from light
Were both trying to move away from the past
But I can still call you anytime
If i want to hear your answering machine
And the sound of you ceasing to care
Anymore vacant than the air filled with spirits
Your head is scared by dizzying heights.  
As i dangle my feet from the belltower
Craning my head around side to side
To see who is speaking bellow
You leave me to my fascinations
And bid me a silent farewell  

Now we both haunt each other
We make beautiful music turn stale
I spend my life weighing my heart
Against my **** and my brain
On divinity, morality, and Anubis's scale
Laughing he says you are my toll to pass
Onto the land of whatever i truly want
Since i will never know what i need
And you will never know what you want
And we give and take quite equally
You take the life out of me, i leave you guilty
We are such a perfect couple, of suckers
Blood dripping from two puncture wounds

Emblazon body a flame
Peaking on acid again

She makes me vivid
Happy because it is
Beautiful simply because

She gives me kisses
Not hers, they are mine
How uniform this is

We make each other
Happy because we are
Beautiful soulely  because

How could you out live Drusilla?
She was so much more alive than you
Hold yourself on the island you were saved on
Jovanize yourself for the name of the aqueducts
Tyrant, they will never forget you
Cut off the head of the desert continent
Starvation continues to this day
Savages! Treasure, **** lust
Black and white, the worlds mouth
Mediterranean power corruption

All the empty promises that we are
Every breathe you chose not to take
Stepping on the serpents tail repeatedly
Letting out all that is coiled inwards

This is a removal of myself from me
Everything kept disappointing virtue
Hollow ground and cello overtures
Spitting blood, veins pouring red wine

The other side of your endless silence
Vanity an approachable dinner topic
Did not find myself sanctuary in me
Until  we let go of being born to die

Taking the early way out steadfast
Red robin hovering over patch of clovers
I know a place where its all disappeared
And you do not have to exist to anyone.

Failing topics and endless sunburst
Green stained bronze, for this ball room chatter
Dreams of you on the mezzanine
Coming down the stairs happy to see me
Yet now they have reversed. It is you
Who can not come upstairs, house of proper
My wife giving akward glances from over her shoulder ,

Old friends , and ***** dens
Memories hidden inthe dust and murk
Wallow in squalor , under the decks of a high hoisted ,
Eleven white painted canvas for a tall ship
Cutting lukewarm Mediterranean seas
Falling tropics, and sand breeze
Dry humidity, salty clothes, silence over the wind

Hailing a cab
The splashing of more important things around me, a chill ness that kisses my entire face up and down, runs her sleek January nothing through my hair.
Saving fair a block early to get a bite to eat
Fair weather traveller heading home to his hole
Digging to come out the turnstile
Old habits / catching the subway.

Merry weather fan, snacking on peanuts
Glancing out the window, over your nervousness
How high do planes fly? 35000 feet and you've never looked better, smiles shaking hands with each other.  Strangers , every time
Experiencing life in second sight.

Seasons change
Only leaving rain

She said
I'll go with you
If you cant find a friend, it is
The way you are my world
Dont really mean a thing to you
We could dance around this plot line
Fend for our own ****** selves
Singing with the devil
Dancing for the wolves

I laughed
I'll go with you
Youre all I dont deserve
Wrapped up in an angels body
Just one with the aging world
Hating the love for me, charming
My Listening turns to apathy
Forceful smiles of hidden greed
Rich girl, poor world , force fed pearls.  

She said nothing
and walked away
And So do I
Into the world.  
A ghost of the past
A stranger to the girl.

Fate strewn across
An empty room

I keep leaving her
For the stupidest reasons
Were both afraid
Im afraid of being used
Shes afraid of the same thing
Yet she lies to me, to keep me
And I tell her the truth,
Even when  its hurts.
Even if it feels amazing
Even if its even
And she keeps coming back
I keep leaving her
For the most selfless reasons
She doesn't deserve this
And I love the truth.
But I dont love her
Like that

Fourteen , his whole life ahead of him
Broken hearted, he already knew of that
Guitar , his only true friend at night
Manic depression, keeping him up and down
Sobriety, the only thing keeping him drowning
Leaving, our hearts open wounds on heart day

Accepting -not settling
Broadening horizons

Be as you are
I dont know why
We ever forget
Be azure
Bleed assurance
what you want
said in confidence
No hesitations
Said in burial
Eternity a myth
Fate a must
Penny in a fountain