I had you in my hand
and was given the cheat sheet
I’ve read the script
and the costume fits
Memorised how it played out
and
Saw the ending when they turned the page

Yet unbeknownst to me,
carefully hidden was a back-up scene
Leaving me aghast
and the play crumbled

You slipped off my hand, just like that
Like how a tornado
destroys in an instant
What was once
such a beautiful house

Yet for you,
I called up the Writer
night and day
Gave Him 3 dimes
to re-write a new ending

He refused but I kept bargaining
back and forth for 12 days
He finally agreed
and told me to sign the agreement,
insisting for 11 dimes as the final price

12 dimes were all I had
But
I still decided to settle with this agreement
I was prepared to throw away everything
And risk myself for another broken-heart

So I said deal,
as long as I can have you
Even if it’s just for another while
.
Before I lose you again
when the wind comes
To take you away from me
forever

"Do you want to be my girlfriend?"
He asked.

She had been waiting forever for him to finally asked her that
But her usual bright expression suddenly turned somber at his question

A feeling of anger crept up
Replacing her soft smile with a frown

The sparks in her eyes that always lit up whenever she saw him
Now gone and dead

This feeling, she knew
This feeling she was so familiar with
everytime she thought of him
And it still felt like a huge stone
Pulling her down to her knees

There was a question that had been in her mind
For weeks
For months

"How could I, when you don't even like me as much as you like her?"

And her words hit home.

He had not expected that
Not with the way she always seemed happy around him
Not with the way she always smiled warmly at him
Not with the way she was always there caring for him no matter how difficult he was

"I do love you,"
she stared right into his eyes,
every word fell from her lips
with such sincerity
it felt like the first ray of warm sunlight
on a winter morning
The only warm source to his heart that has gone cold now

such intensity in her eyes

"but I can't be number two."

And they pierced his heart right through.

She got up and left.

He called her name over and over
Wishing she'd turn back and give him another chance
But his voice only seemed to be engulfed by the intense air around him

He ran after her
But she was gone

He punched the black wooden door beside him frustratingly
And he wished he had loved her more.

Dancing
Music
Writing
.
Drugs
Alcohol
Cigarettes
.
Self-harm
Scre­aming
Violence
.
You see
The thing is
We are all looking for something
That can take away the pain
.
*We are all addicted
To something that takes the pain away

You could tie my tongue
My lips, my teeth
Split them into surrender
Into a foreign language

And I would still manage
To cough up your name

And he was the only one,

The only one who ever loved me

Oh so innocently

He was the only one

Who tried to stop me
From always lowering myself

He was the only one

Who helped me
To be confident with myself

He was the only one

Who changed his way
So that I won't get hurt

He was the only one

Who still cared
Even after there's no more 'us'

He was the only one

Who showed me
What love was really like to him

I spent months wondering
How could a human be so unselfish

And I realized

He wasn't trying to make me love him

He was trying to make me love me

Surrounded by scattered glasses,
Located in an isolated area,
Ignored by everyone,
Passed by as if unseen,
Nobody noticed it's subtle beauty,
Little do they know,
She's a wild flower,
Waiting to be noticed

I forgive you.
For all the times your empty words betrayed my trust;
I forgive you.
For all of the blames I've had to take--
I forgive you.
For the silences you left in place of apologies--
I forgive you.

Little girls may be made
of sugar, spice, and
everything nice

but a true lady is made
of diamonds, sparkles, and
things that will make you *shiver

He told her
she was
like pottery;

*fragile
but beautiful.

There's something about her
that makes him caught up in his words
and sets his soul to rest.

Eyes that outshine even the morning star
and puts the sun to shame.
Infinite depth of her stare,
reflects beauty and lets you see
a mind that only makes her
althemore perfect.

With soft gaze that rivals
the moon's reflection on the ocean,
she holds innocence in the most simplistic form-
*flawlessly beautiful

But would you still stay
If I have run out of words
To make you laugh?

Would you still stay
If all that's left
Is silence?