The thunderous rumbling of a busted exhaust pipe disturbs another Gamecube binge on a rainy autumn night.
Is she ever gonna get that fixed? Makes that Altima sound like a 1930’s car.
I  know too well by now the tapping of the steps coming up the stairs. Rushed and soft, just like her knocking on my door.
11:00 pm. “Just got off work” –says she. Like any other night in which she  came to only 'chat', we end up naked on the carpet, I’m on top of her, my hands laying siege on hers, holding tightly, thrusting wildly.
We wear each other out like teenagers in heat; I want another round.
Stamina depletion: complete.  
I ask her to stay the night. I wanna sleep by her side, her body next to mine. I wanna hear the little sounds of her breathing, feel that she is mine.  Like any other night in which she  came to only 'chat', she replies: "Someone is waiting for me”.

We were ever oh so close
There was nothing but just us
The whole world came to a stop
When you kissed me.

And I loved you so much
Like I hadn’t done before
Never wanted something more
Than this feeling.

At the peak of our love
Like a mirage when is gone
Like the mist amidst the fog
You diminished.

My heart was all alone
Left out freezing in the cold
It was none but tears and hurt
Since I lost you.

It was not for lack of love
Nor us willing to go on
We were from two different worlds
What a pity.

When I met you I thought
You’re the one I’ll always love
Till my heart comes to a stop
Now it’s broken.

What a tragedy of love
That we couldn’t stay aloft
We belonged to different worlds
Love is gritty.

We’re back together.
You left your other guy
The one you left me for
He didn’t measure up (you say)

You tried new things
Left you unfulfilled
Brings you back to me
Can it ever be? (the same)

I’m the rebound of
your rebound after me
Am I the least worse?
You can’t be on your own (you feign)

Am I even that special?
Do you want me after all,
or just any
that will take you?

Will you be the same, or worse?
Do you think I am the one?
Or  just going for a ride?
Yet another time.

I remember so clear:
You and I holding hands; walking downtown.
Perfect day outside!
Let’s have a picnic and I’ll bring cherries to your mouth.

Then we kissed.
So mushy. Let’s go to that concert tonight!
I had fun today.
Can’t wait to see you tomorrow and have another date.

We hopped on that plane.
Nine hours to Munich.
I found everything I was looking for.
You are my lover, my friend, my partner-in-crime.

The beach was so much fun.
We walked the dogs at sunset.
And my family loves you so much!
I love you so much.

I can’t wait for another summer with you!
Except none of this happened.
Only in my dreams.
You have another man, you rather be with.

When I gazed into your eyes I wondered: Are you the love of my life?
Can I hold you like this forever? Can this moment last forever?
Can I kiss you till the day I die? Can I spend the night with you, forever?
Can we travel the world while holding hands? Can I hold your body in the night?
Can I see your smile day and night, forever?
I want to be with you forever.

Pounding on the rib cage
Of this long lifeless love
No defibrillator
Can bring its spark back home

Dying by the minute
Point of no return
Long ago we killed it
By jealousy and scorn

Poisoned by corruption
Tortured by mistrust
Consented to death sentence
Inside our comfort zone

Trapped into this bedroom
The sheets turned icy cold
The levels of desire
Reminisce the North Pole

We lingered within four walls
Just not to be alone
Reminding us each hour
Where did it all go wrong?

The hostile winds are howling
This ship cannot be steered
Let’s sink it to the bottom
For once let’s be sincere

If we cut wide and open
The corpse of this dead love
We may not find a thing
That was worth fighting for

You’d like to do postmortem
Why don’t just let it go?
You might not like the causes
That killed this long dead love.

Will you say the words
I waited to hear for years:
I’m finally free

Everything is free.
Life, love, air, grace, a kiss, a smile, butterflies, autumn leaves,
Friends, hugs, summer breeze, full moon, a dog chasing its tail, soft rain,
The sound of her voice when she says: “I love you”.
Everything you ever wanted...everything is free.

My heart pounding in tantrum
Bursting off my chest
The moment that you kissed me
Jacked up my heart rate.

That fitbit’s good for nothing
That gag around my wrist
It has been rendered useless
The day after we kissed.

My senses went haywire
Emotions off the chart
The beauty of a loving
Cannot fit on a graph.

It couldn’t feel vibrations
Nor my churning inside
The chemistry between us
Is tough to quantify.

Don’t ever kiss me impromptu
I’ll get a heart attack
Because you drive me crazy
You stir me inside out.

I need to take giant's steps in healing.
You've become a snake's bite on my arm, killing me as the venom burns me inside.
I'm going to cut the wound wide open, and **** the venom out.
It hurts to the bones, as I cut you out of my life.
But one day this wound will heal, and I'll be alright.

I'm in love.
In love with the pursuit of an impossible dream.
The thrill is in the chase.
I'm **in love.

Your hair is like rays of sun
Dazzling into my eyes.
Looking in your eyes is as though
Staring inside diamonds.

Your long thin fingers
Were sculpted after goddesses.
Beautiful you are,
Oh so Beautiful you are.

A kiss from your lips
Are the keys to the kingdom.
Your smile....
One way ticket to paradise.

I daydream of your voice
Whispering in my ear
Before we fall asleep
After making love...again

I hate that I love you
I hate that I miss you
I hate that I want you
I hate that I kissed you

I want to:

Fall in love with you

Hold your hand

Kiss you

Put my arms around you

Run my fingers through your hair

Lean your head against my shoulder

Snuggle you on cold nights

Hold you close, hold you tight

Smell the scent of your body

Wake up next to you

And whisper in your ear: *I love you

While you were lying by my side
I only wanted to  hold you tight
So tight to keep you warm
On cold and breezy nights.

While you were crying by my side
I only wanted to wipe away the tears
Fill your heart with never-ending  kisses
From the bottom of my heart (to yours).

Poured all my love out to you
Yours and only yours
I figure that you want it
I figure that you don't.

While you locked eyes onto me
Our hearts stirring in
Butterflies in frenzy
'I love you' we declared.

My tilted eyes denounce me
There's nothing to be done
Nothing but surrender
to this impromptu love.

I wish you were the one.
If not, I would rather die single

She is an open book...
In Quantum Physics
Written in Chinese

Save me from cold lonely nights
Save me from my insecurities
Save me from my feelings of inadequacy
Same me from my low self-esteem

Save me from my thoughts at night
From the demons inside
Save me from myself:
Love me…save me.

What will happen when is over?
Are you ready to crash hard?
We have soared each day much higher
So much harder we will fall.

The sky’s so much blue in heaven
Grass is greener than before
I can see but endless rainbows
From the outpours of your love

Sky’s bound to fall up on us
Sending us to pits of hell
Love’s not meant to last for longer
And this romance will be quelled.

We would all sell ourselves short...
for the right price.

Being with you
Is being alone
It's loneliness
to the second power.

When I’m with you
I'm at my loneliest
You turn my Fridays
Into rough Mondays

You are too quiet
Don’t know where I stand
For weeks you’d be smiling
Then suddenly break.

Thoughts in high motion
Your eyes tell me so
You read every movement
You pierce through my soul.

I wish I could read you
I wish you would tell me
You stay so well guarded
You love me or hate me?

For ages I’m blissful
I feel the best ever
Then you speak your feelings
And drown me forever.

SHE
Can’t hang out again
You get me in much troubles
My boyfriend is mad

HE
We've been her before
'Till you drunk text me again
I’ll see you next time

This love won’t last forever
This love will fade away
I choose to love you dearly
I only have today.

Your kiss takes me to Heaven
I’ll plummet back to Earth
Today your lips are for me
And that is all I care.

Our roads are branching separate
We walk further afar
You won’t be here tomorrow
Our lives will drift apart.

Who knows what holds tomorrow
Or will this love survive
Today I’m only  grateful
To have you in my life.

You could try start wars and battles
You could try to break the world
You could lie, scheme, conspire
It would all be worthless naught.

The Universe has a willing
It devised so long ago
Here you go trying to change it
What has been decreed in stone.

Stop swimming 'gainst the current
This love is not meant for you
Better move on, don't be folly
There's somebody else for you.

The Universe has a willing
stubborn plan all of its own
If you only trust the journey
You will find your yearning love.

Sun is out bright and shiny
But it’s dark and cold inside.
People out, they seem so happy
But it’s lonely inside this heart.

Summer feels like barren winter
Merry Christmas in July.
Take my heart to hiding places
From this storm in clear skies.

I went out to run from demons
They kept whispering out loud.
I have never felt so lonely
Like I was inside the crowd.

Never ending summer(winter)
Once again another round.
Never gets so cold and lonely
Like it does in summertime.

The way to a woman's heart...
a differential equation, a winding road,
slay the dragon, tear down walls.

The way to a woman's heart...
A never-ending pursuit,
thrill, excitement,
butterflies in the gut.

She dropped the handkerchief
as I chased after her
her call for many attentions
I must swiftly attend

She says yes,
she says no
she says stop,
she says go.

My friend Albert Einstein
and I sit at night
trying to ascertain
how to win this woman's heart.

And though it is uncertain
I won't be turning back
Pursuing you in earnest
addiction of my heart