He caused me to fall
He changed my views
He taught me a lesson or two
He showed me what's right isn't always true
And the sky isn't always blue
And then he left me here to rue
He left me here to rue the days
That I spent with him falling in love in different ways
And as I changed I hoped it was just a phase
But now he's gone and I remain the same
And all this destruction around me is for me to blame
It was all foreseen so I have no shame
That I lost at playing his lovely game

I don't love you anymore.
Maybe I do.
I don't want anything to do with you anymore.
But that's a lie too.
A heart broken and fixed, broken and fixed.
What kind of twisted fate of love was this?
I was fortune's fool.
I let something come over my heart and mind to rule.
I feel sick when my mind drifts upon your name.
I'm lovesick and I don't want to be, and you're to blame.
For all of my pain.
Yet none of it matters.
How I feel will never again matter.
Life goes on for you.
I don't want to hold you back.
I wish you the best...
A wave goodbye with these heavy pangs in my chest.
Fake smile painted across my face.
Feeling off and out of place.
As you walk off into the distance without a trace.
Feeling a void, what a tragic tale.
Filling the void with no avail.
Hoping our paths may cross again..
Or maybe this twisted love has finally come to an end.

Your energy is like a siren's tune
You bring me into your realm with your soul
And embrace me with your ruin
I'm so swept away I don't even realize what you're doin'..
Your clenching around my neck and through the ins and outs I feel whole..
Your darkness and melancholy could fill a room, but whatever happened to that glow?
Signs of the uncalled for and unnatural... I've been seeing them in the moon
You always seem to cross my mind in the afternoon
I've come to know and love you, hope you'll see that soon
We've taken a pause for quite some time but will it ever resume?

I live in a world of aimless dreamers
They tell me to become one of them
Their pointless dreams are the key to their "happiness"
An oasis for their aching souls

I dream aimlessly to evade my fears
I dream aimlessly to escape the tears
I dream aimlessly to hold onto peace
I dream aimlessly but I reach no reach

I dream aimlessly, I suppose to live
I dream aimlessly when I close my eyes
I dream aimlessly for a positive
I dream aimlessly, although I die

I dream aimlessly
Although I know
That aimless dreamers in the end..
Have nothing to show

And this lesson is to be learned
An aimless dreamer neither gains anything, nor earns.

Dissatisfaction sits begrudgingly in the pit of my stomach
and continues to remind me of
all the things
all the things I have strive for and missed every ball I dropped
every **** boy I kissed

Dissatisfaction makes a hideaway in my being
burrows in deep and starts to clinging
and I try to cover it up for people
because it's not worth seeing
but you can believe it

I'm a human being in this life
but where is the meaning
I've got all this pinned up strife
& the insides of my mind could use a deep cleaning
The whereabouts of my breakthrough is unknown
if it even exists
maybe if I just speak it enough into existence it'll be fixed
I suppose only God knows
but I'm not so sure if he hears my woes

Dissatisfaction is taking over
it's laying claim to my brain
it's settling into my pores
and I just want to stay sane

She won’t hide even though the storm is coming
The clouds try to distort and drown her face
But she’s brightly glowing, remaining sound
She’s my constant and she is peace
She lights our way to say the least
And you’ll look up to her in your sleep
As her waves calm you in the night
She will wane and wander til it’s light
Until all is right within everyone’s heart
Just another day goes by, we won’t always be apart
When the sun seems to stop shining, she’ll find me again
Beaming down with all her love
As if she’s more than a friend


<3

I think I could talk about love forever
Could write about it forever
Continue to think of new combinations of descriptives to define it
And still be lacking the true essence of the feeling I get in my chest when you do something for me that makes me feel special and set apart
Or find a word to rhyme with the pangs in my heart,
Once love goes away
Because we all know that love never stays
In some kind of way it dies
Just like all of our destinies
But it's just so worth it in the moment when you bring out the best in me
And I just like to ignore the ones who dare to question me
Me and my love.
Cause how would they know?
They're just blind,
But in a different way than mine
Cause no one knows my episode of sublime-
Like you.
My heart literally smiles at the little quirks you do
Cause that's the only way I know you're being real and true
So caught up I'm not even worried about that 20/20 hindsight view.