———"that familiar boiling yolk of a sunrise—comas richer than russian dark chocolate— & saturn smoking a cigar while playing chess with gravity... i have been here before."
ocean dove, pardon my excuses for not writing as of late; been busy fulfilling a prophecy that can't even look me in the eye and ask me to change. in the june wreckage of two thousand and sixteen; i retired my tongue with the dormant volcanoes before the world could end in my mouth. and yet my poetry informs me that there are some wounds too sophisticated to even flower into scars—kind of like how my words will never feel like honey again, (but vinegar nonetheless.)
how cruel of me it was; to condemn you to a death without one final cigarette slow dancing with your lungs. i miss the shadows of you most: the belt of venus caged like a wild animal in your eyes, your rusty guitar silky voice dripping off the haunted house we called home, countless a.m. drives kicking up filthy moonlight in the rearview mirror, but most of all—the way you said 'i love you' like it was nothing dressed up in something fashionable.
it is now the june of two thousand and nineteen. this wreckage sat on a throne and filled into the moon's shoes. a crown crawled it's way home to my head and kissed me with knowledge drenched in your name. this queen started from lesson no. 1: broken instruments, will preach broken sounds— and how lovely it has been, planting a world war in my soul only to raise eden in it's stead. i will miss your company, but your ghost is no longer a requirement for me to be complete.
i have learned to stop loving falsehoods. i have learned to start loving the leftovers of who i am becoming. we would have been star crossed lovers had you not tried to swallow that bottle of pills that famous night where we fought like madonnas— but it looks like you got to death's fortune cookie before i did.
"and one day, you will have lived long enough to taste your grief turn bittersweet too"———
Terror preys not on innocent victims As solitude peers not on favors Assumptions beckons on behalf of pleasures And life grows in its own flavors Bolting high for hope Time sees you and me Fortuning what desires wish for thee I’m happy here In this slowness of life, with you For birds show me appreciation Of what life can be
I don't love you anymore. Maybe I do. I don't want anything to do with you anymore. But that's a lie too. A heart broken and fixed, broken and fixed. What kind of twisted fate of love was this? I was fortune's fool. I let something come over my heart and mind to rule. I feel sick when my mind drifts upon your name. I'm lovesick and I don't want to be, and you're to blame. For all of my pain. Yet none of it matters. How I feel will never again matter. Life goes on for you. I don't want to hold you back. I wish you the best... A wave goodbye with these heavy pangs in my chest. Fake smile painted across my face. Feeling off and out of place. As you walk off into the distance without a trace. Feeling a void, what a tragic tale. Filling the void with no avail. Hoping our paths may cross again.. Or maybe this twisted love has finally come to an end.
You will get lost in the big city you WILL, too hard, you WON'T, too much the secret to a long life is keep breathing and a pulse pounding you will seek riches and find pity you will find a garden of riches yet turn it too mulch you will marry an attentive spouse if you don't mind the hounding
the secrets of the moment are lost in the blink of both eyes, the secret of receiving is an open palm if you touch the swollen belly of a bull, and you find ardor you can find beauty everywhere do not despise the disguise a secret a flock of birds leaves behind is calm ( bird **** is a secretion not a secret) the secret to great wealth is found offshore
you will go places reading without, leaving your seat
here is to laughter hope you smiled well at least tell me you didn't cry
We've been around We've been around to every reach and place so common and yet never talked about We've been around We've been around the streets paved with the teeth of hopeless lying underground
Watching at ley lines Walking with flow of the crowd
Heaven is merciless with decision You might want to scream low and on the inside if only to provide your stealth from the jury Born any time it's hard to believe with the droves in dead zones written in bylines, that real estate is prime but the line for our kind is off kilter at best
Don't pity us, wager up Just double down, and on the other side Don't pity us, Just double down, Wager up and on the flip side of winning we all have these lines to lay
You've been seen between trees broadcasting that look It says every word that you mean to speak, expressly open book To who live the drabbest day with the brightest faith and take your comfort away while enduring hell on earth
We've been around We've been around right to the edge of blasphemy's reach and have the greatest fortunes found