Fear
What is it,
Fear of dogs,
Fear of getting bit,
Fear of spiders,
Fear of liars,
Fear of people breaking your heart,
Fear of remembering the past,
Fear of dying,
Fear of flying,
Fear of buying,
Fear of ghosts,
Fear of monsters,
A wise man told me,
The monster is not under your bed,
It's inside your head,
So is this fear,
And so is everything else,
Now don't fall and drop a tear,
Stand tall and face yourself,
Face the fear,
Hidden within your mind,
Stand near,
Your fear,
And push him off,
From your mind,
You may be weak,
But u have a strong mind,
Just remember,
The monster is not under your bed,
It is in your head!

Some would say this is heaven,
Some would say this is a dream,
Some would say it's a castle of cream,
Living in it a monster with riches that gleam,
But that is all talk,
Cause it's the story of  jack and the beanstalk,
Some say that it is where one falls asleep,
It rest on clouds,
White as a dead man's shroud,
This is bigger than any nation ,
Because Peoples imagination,
Is something one  cannot doubt.
Cause they imagined a kingdom on clouds.

Today was a cold day,
Sky filled with clouds,
The colour of grey,
Very little sun rays,
Everybody is indoors,
The streets are empty,
The sea is grumpy,
Upon the town,
Hangs a sense of melancholy,
The cold ****** the skin,
The grey empty roads feel eerie,
The scent of rain,
Is in the air,
Within my heart is a pain,
At peace is my brain,
Silence is what I gain,
Everything has a touch of,
Dark grey, blue paint,
Into the silence I roar,
And with pride I stand,
The clouds part and flies down light,
The golden of ichor,
The scent of petrichor fades,
And sunlight shines like the golden of a lion's mane.

Today is 19th of the month October,
Today was a little cold,
Winter is around the corner,
The sky is dark bold,
I relate to an Eskimo,
I fight the cold,
And onto my life I hold,
But when I stand next to her,
Warmth flows through me,
Her presence is like a flame,
And warm love,
Flows through my veins,
The Eskimo absorbs the heat,
To get rid of cold feet,
He uses fire,
All day cold I will be,
My soul is frozen,
And melts when she looks at me,
Her eyes are warm embers,
Her soul is a flame,
She is my ultimate desire,
She is what I admire,
She is..... My fire.

There was a man,
Over the age of 40,
His dress was bland,
A shirt, a coat,
And pleated pant,
He stood on a bridge,
Overlooking the sea,
And was admiring it's beauty,
He stood there gazing across,
And wondering what mystery,
Lay beneath,
After a while its been,
Came along a boy,
No older than 17,
Teary eyed the boy stood,
With anger,
Consuming his mood,
The man made eye contact with the boy,
And saw a look in the boy's eyes,
A look with which he was familiar,
A look meaning the end was near,
A look..... Lost in the early years,
The boy looked away,
Into the sea,
This world he wanted to leave,
His body was trembling,
His fingers twitching,
The man read fear,
And hatred in the boy,
The man walked towards the boy,
And hugged him,
On his face was teary joy,
Somebody saved him,
Somebody cared,
The man held on,
Until the boy left him,
The boy left the man,
And walked away,
His spirits awaked,
The man continued looking at the sea,
This time wondering about with a sigh,
The biggest mystery,
Mystery of life!

I have these dreams,
They are weird as they seem,
These dreams depict my deepest fears,
But they are not nightmares,
These dreams makes me weak,
And they come few days a week,
I don't know why,
I don't know what,
These dreams have my fears caught,
And every time I close my eyes,
They release this fear,
And makes me shiver like on ice,
Until one day in the future so near,
My eyes would not open,
I cannot smell the morning token,
I cannot move,
I cannot prove,
and I am engulfed in this dream,
I hear the ferry man's bell,
These dreams were a one way stream,
To a place called hell.

I just woke up,
From deep sleep,
Had a dream,
It was a crazy dream as usual,
But I saw someone in it,
And my stomach felt unusual,
Someone I haven't thought about in in a bit,
Long time,
Someone I tried to forget,
A friend I met,
A friend I tried,
To help,
Or that's what I thought,
From a distance she said hi!,
The way she always would,
Towards her I look,
And felt scared,
Scared when old deep memories come back,
Sad,
Joy,
Or was swimming in a void,
Of emotions,
Those 2 seconds,
Opened old wounds,
Triggered old memories,
And old feelings.

Heard a song,
In the end it doesn't even matter,
Gotta stay strong,
The end is one step closer,
He is in somewhere he belongs,
No more sorrow,
It's the new divide,
Until its gone,
We are guilty all the same,
The final masquerade,
Shadows of the day,
So what if one more light goes out,
In a sky of millions,
Well I care!
R.I.P Chester Bennington

Today I attended a farewell,
Something people stated one cannot miss,
So I write down what I witness,
I witness the memories of strangers,
Yet we share the same institution,
There is celebration,
Last lovers are embraced,
Some teary faced,
I witness a memory in the making,
The last of schooling,
The closest friends parting,
I have not been around,
Long enough to know these people,
Nor might I in the future,
Since people are happy,
And celebrations in the air,
I end my writings with,
Fare thee well strangers,
Fare thee well,

There was a new girl in class,
I fell in love with her,
And forgot everything about my past,
Wish I could mirror my feelings for her,
Just like chrome cast,
I want to hold her hand,
Sitting on the beach,
Writing messages in the sand,
Look into her green eyes,
In the air blows the wind,
Little chilly as ice
The sun is setting,
The ground is breaking,
Falling,
And I wake up,
Sweating,
I am feeling,
Sad and bad,
It was just a dream,
Only..... A dream

She was the one,
Who didnt love me,
She,
Was the one who left me,
She didn't care,
Her heart was bare,
It was easy for her,
She was the finisher,
She thought She was leaving me,
She didn't know,
She has broken me,
But in reality,
She was choking me.

Yay!! It is summer holiday,
But we don't know how to spend our day,
Maybe go for a swim,
Or try to become slim,
How bout reading a book?,
Or try and become a cook,
Or else go out for ice cream,
Or ride a roller coaster and a scream,
I think going to active will be fun,
Or maybe going to Antarctica will be cool,
Or just sit in front of the tv and get board,
Or go out to the park and ride a skateboard,
Maybe spending time with friends and playing board games,
Or reading the newspapers about hue Olympic games,
There are lots of things to so is holiday,
And we won't even know that,
We have enjoyed,
The whole summer holiday!

I wanted to talk to her,
But I could not talk,
I wanted to speak to her,
But I couldn't speak,
I wanted to be with her,
But I couldn't be,
I wanted to hold her,
But I couldn't,
To my curse I mock,
I had a voice,
But I couldn't talk,
My heart was locked,

There was once a guy,
And a girl,
She loved him,
And she loved him until they die,
The guy,
On the other hand,
Wanted something he could not buy,
It was love,
He accepted the girl,
And they lived like a pair of merry dove,
But the innocent girl,
Did not know that,
The guy was in a whirl,
For he loved another,
He kept it to himself,
And he slyly stayed with both,
Put the plot unwrapped itself,
And the girl was furious,
She explained,
How she loved him,
And how he broke her heart,
She asked him,
That did he love her from the start,
And the guy said,
He did not know what love was,
And now he does,
And his heart,
Belongs to a mystery heart,
The girl's life fell apart,
She did not want to start,
Again this,
Coz she did not want anyone to break her,
Remaining heart,
And she believes that one day,
She will fall in love again,
And hoping that her prince,
Will not betray her,
Again.

Saw her sleeping in school,
The A/C kept me cool,
I was tempted,
To put her stray hair back,
She looked beautiful sleeping,
I didn't let anyone as much as clap,
I thought I was dreaming,
Her velvet red lips,
Were parted little,
My heart skipped,
For I have not seen such beauty,
She was there peacefully,
Making me blush,
Silently.

I wish,
I wish upon a shooting star,
That leaves a streak of light,
In the night sky afar,
I wish I could heal a scar,
Which is deep in my heart,
And I wish that people stop hurting me,
With words like poisonous darts,
I wish,
I wish upon a shooting star,
That leaves a streak of light,
In the night sky afar!

I wake up everyday,
Cuz I have to,
From April to may,
Everyday,
I go to school,
And try not to be a fool,
And then I'm home..... Again,
After a heart pain,
I eat some grain,
And then fill my brain,
With things I dont care,
Then I sleep,
I don't feel,
Don't love,
No fun,
Just work,
Everyday like a clockwork,
I'm dead inside,
This is my life,
A dead person,
Walking alone and pretending to be alive!

Today,
A friend... A close friend,
Fell in love in such a way,
Her sorrows flew away ,
She unites with her lover,
and she blooms like a flower,
But.........,
I fear that,
One day She will forget me,
Like many before her have,
Love is a blessing,
But for others,
Their lives it may be messing,
She is gone,
I do not know,
Why i feel so jealous,
Why do i fell so sad,
She was a friend..... A close friend,
For maybe,
I had something for this friend,
Deep within the abyss of my heart,
Or maybe our friendship comes to an end!

today is the first day I didn't take drugs,
no ****, no hash,
for once I didn't spend cash,
but I cannot sleep,
I cannot sleep if I'm not high,
I cannot until I'm ****** deep,
I cannot....,
until I feel like I can fly,
because when I am not high,
and the day flies by,
I cannot sleep at night,
I realize emptiness,
I don't have anything to distract me,
I just feel this lonliness,
I'm afraid when I have to end everyday alone,
I can't sleep,
in this darkness,
I want to feel like a falling trip,
I want to create anything in my head,
a girl, a story, a song or just a close friend,
I wish my purpose could just end,
that's all I need,
I can't sleep.

A person singing with a tune is a song,
There are those which are long,
For some what matters is the beat,
For some it is their favourite is all they need,
There are songs with only tunes and beats,
These are what DJ's need,
They mix and match songs,
But you don't keep them for long,
There are done that are soft,
But the popular ones are lost,
Songs are created from energy by people,
At the same time songs are forgotten,
People are mysterious!

I may not be the best at it,
And I don't watch it,
But football is my favorite game,
I love to play it,
Many a chance I got to play,
But God is determined to,
Not let me play,
He broke my leg,
Put in my parents head,
No matter how much I beg,
They won't let me play,
They did,
And the chances were rare,
But when will I play,
When I'm old,
When is that day,
The day I can't play a full match,
There is some things,
My parents will never understand.

what is life?,
is it grow up, get a job,
get a wife,
and survive until,
you die?,
who said it supposed to be that,
why do we follow this path?,
something I learnt,
in math,
that for every problem,
is more than one solution,
one answer for the question of life,
is evolution,
that is natural,
but who laid down the laws,
and made us cultural?,
who said we need to use money ?,
no money,
no stealing,
who said we need money,
this is something funny,
we take from nature,
we got that part right,
and build for our future,
but there could have been,
many ways to live life,
life without money,
life without a complex system,
made by people who,
think is right,
there are many answers to life,
and we are experiencing one,
isn't it high time,
to search for a new one?,
or is it too late,
to change change,
our own fate?

A tear,
rolls down my cheek,
flows past my ear,
and drops on my paper,
each tear,
is a part of my soul,
every tear I shed,
drops on my ink,
Now I am empty and dead,
and my soul is,
in these very words you have read,
So save my soul,
keep it in a bowl,
protect it from the ghouls,
save your soul from this fear,
lock it in a bowl,
because it starts with a tear,
rolling down,
down past your ear.

I'm shy,
Scared,
To step within the boundaries,
Of my old school,
Meet old friends,
Meet a friend,
Friend I had dreamed about,
Friend I tried to forget,
A friend I gave up,
A friend who loved rain,
A friend I never wanna see again!

I have been hurt,
I have been cut,
I have been scratched,
I have been bruised,
I have stitches.
I have braces,
All these things pain,
But does not bother my brain,
But there is one pain,
That does not bleed,
Does not leave a scar,
It is the burning pain,
Deep within my heart!

When i think about love,
Or watch it in a movie,
Or feel it in a song that's lovely,
I remember.........,
Remember the time,
When i was never lonely,
I could face life boldly,
I was fearless,
I was complete,
I remember,
Waking up to a text,
Saying good morning,
And that gives me the reason,
To wake up every morning,
I remember,
Every night,
I get a text,
After a bustling day,
On bed i lay,
And read,
"i love you" with a red heart,
It stings like a dart,
And i melt,
And all my problems have been dealt,
But then i remember...,
U are not here for me,
When i need u the most,
I sit here under a tree,
All weak and lonely,
I don't want to eat,
I am not complete,
Anger consumes me,
Emotions blind me,
Tears sting my eyes,
And i say to myself,
"i was stupid to believe",
And then i see her again,
With teeth as white as doves,
And i scream away,
This is what happens,
When i think of love!

my life is like,
I'm hanging,
from the edge of,
a building,
a really high building,
I reach out with one hand,
hoping someone,
will grab it and pull me up,
but there is no one,
from the glass,
people are looking,
at me,
some ignoring,
some thinking,
I am smiling at them,
so they think I'm alright,
but at one point,
I let go of the building,
and I feel relaxed and scared,
the sound of wind rushing,
Past my ears,
and my clothes flapping,
my stomach is in knots,
and I hit the ground,
with a crack,
a brief pain,
and I'm numb,
my vision is white light,
and my life flashes,
it was a fright,
and slowly my vision goes dark,
and everything is black,
on that date,
I realised people don't care,
until it's too late,
I was done trying to survive,
I let go of a building,
called life!

I... Just need a friend,
I just want the loneliness to end,
I just want my life.....
To end.

I don't know what I want,
I have made mistakes,
And I regret it,
There is no good way out.

My hands are bleeding,
My knuckles are bruising,
My skin is tearing,
My eyes are tearing,
Another hole in the wall,
And angry outburst,
It's not a first,
I have scars to prove it,
So much anger and pain,
All the time it is rain,
My mind is stuck,
I just want to break something,
Probably my own neck.

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