Jolan Lade

Jolan Lade Oct 2018

Could be

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I have tought myself to morse
So I can speak in codes when you won't listen
Because I you did not endorse
So clearly us it isn't

It could be us // 11000000000010100000110010110001100000000111001000000011001110

#morse #us #could #be #me #you #endorse #clear #code #speak

Jolan Lade Sep 2018

Brother, I´m sorry

I'm sorry I had to leave you, brother.
Brother, I'm sorry I was not by your side, that November evening when mother took her last breath.
Brother, I'm sorry I was not with you by the side of fathers bed, that April night, when cancer carried him away.
Brother, I'm sorry I was not present to enjoy the beautiful moment you made me an uncle, that sunny day in June.
Brother, I'm sorry I could not be there to give you a hug
when she left you that cold December noon.
Brother, I'm sorry I was somewhere else, and let you mourne alone, that dark January morning
when the fever took your little baby boy.
Brother, I'm sorry I was not there to stop you
that foggy February morning you decided to take to an end.

But brother, ever since you were 6, and I 10
I've been waiting for you here
Here to welcome mother, the day she slept in
Here to greet father, when cancer delivered him
Here to take care of your little boy
Here to give you that hug you need, and to tell you I know, because I've been in your heart, all the way

You are not lost, brother, you are clearing a path

#brother #sorry #november #mother #death #father #cancer #beautiful #moment #enjoy

Jolan Lade Aug 2018

Bubble

I have a convenient little helmet
When the world becomes overwhelming
It offers protection, an atmosphere that takes me to the stratosphere where I can be myself
In my helmet, my bubble I am me, in my bubble I don't need to see the horrors of others
In my bubble, I can be free, see the world in my own colours
When I exit my bubble I put on knee-high boots, a protective safety suit and a good pair of really thick gloves. At my waist, I carry a big revolver that will act as a solver. Because with humans you cannot argue and be nice, cannot talk and make peace.

In my bubble

#bubble #helmet #world #overwhelming #atmosphere #free #me #colours #safety #humans

Jolan Lade Aug 2018

Done

I'm done, going
I will be far away, not caring what you are doing
I will be closing my ears
So ******* with your empty words and fake tears

Just done

#done #finished #care #love #feelings #fake #tears #words

Jolan Lade Aug 2018

Heart in the chest

Flag on the hilltop
Waving in the breeze majestically equal to the mountain it is built on
Soldier in the war
Standing heavy and direful, facing evil with brothers and valour
Heart in the chest
Lead the way, fight the war
Be open and keep the sword at the readiest

It takes a backbone and a strong heart singing a firm tone

#heart #flag #soldier #war #fight #love #nation #leadership #evil #brother

Jolan Lade Aug 2018

Care?

I need a mechanic.
Because you forgot me and turned my heart metallic.
You stopped caring and my gears turned rusty.
You never called and my display went fuzzy.
You don't write, you don't text...
Have you moved on to the next?

I'm standing still, sinking into the soil.
The rust is taking over, I'm leaking oil.
You sold me, and I want to cry but I can not.
You need to hold me, but you tightened the knot.
I need to cry but I can not, I am cold and on my knees.
Machines don't cry, so you told me.

I need you to be there, I need you to care.

#machines #mechanic #oil #love #lost #broken #sold #cry #emotions #metal

Jolan Lade Jul 2018

Earth, beacuse love comes in green and blue too.

You will be the sun, and I the moon.
I will reflect the light, the shine that shines from you.
I so close but you so far, almost just a distant star.
When you apper I will leave, but I still see your light, still reflecting your shine.
In between us the earth, that we both see, for this we both care.
The earth, the love and without us it would not be there.

In a sky of stars, I cannot take my eyes of you. I cannot exist, cannot fight without your light.

Inspired by TSPoetry

#sun #moon #love #light #shine #heart #star #earth #care