He sees the world without color
Without value, merit or honor
His heart was left behind as a child
Only through lies is he able to smile
For his future, he never had a plan
He never planned to live long enough for a future
His life, he felt
Was so empty
That he wasn't truly living
He sees the world without color
Without hope, nor a purpose
Still, he marches forward
Though he is merely an empty husk

You've been through it all before
The promises
The good intentions
The disappointment

You've got it down to a science
And can predict each step
You've forgiven your entire life

When will you have no forgiveness left?

You didn't deserve
What she did to you

All your love was given to her
All she gave you was nothing
And still, you loved her so much

She ruined you
When you were sick,
She neglected you;
Poisoned you

I'm so sorry for the things you went through
The things you'll never know
Dementia enhabited your precious mind
And she took advantage of you
Grandpa, I'm sorry we couldn't help you more

She took everything
She turned you to ash
Against your wishes
And set you aside
Like garbage
We were left, in pain
Living with the carnage

Now, you are returned to us
After two long years
Where you were always meant to be
Now, I pray, your soul can rest

Never let me go

Sometimes
the pain

Just isn't worth
the struggle....

The pressure is bearing down on your body
As you crumble beneath the weight
There is only so much you can take
But it doesn't have to be this way

Even when I thought I knew you
You were being fake
Just like everyone else in this world
You were putting on a face

The charade is over
And the mask comes off
Revealing a face so putrid
And covered in rot

The way I was raised:
You can't think for yourself
You must dress the way I want you to
You must act the way I want you to
You musn't say this
You can never do that


The list goes on...


So here I am

I'm free now



And I still don't know who I am
When I look in the mirror

The taunting flow of crimson
Clouds my judgment
It calls me
And I answer

Will we play this game my whole life?
Will the temptation sink it's teeth into my heart?
I want to be free of this
But the red crimson flow reminds me of who I am

Sick

Twisted

Lonely

And afraid

Of myself?
...
I contemplate the possibility
But I cannot answer

Because I don't know

Hello,

I am Void
My existence is unknown

These words you are hearing are unspoken whispers
You will not answer
You will not notice

For, I do not exist
Not in your corner of reality

I am far off
Like a star hung in the night
You will not see me when I die

I am Void
I am the dark nothingness which you created
I am the emptiness you gave me
And you will not see me when I die

For, you have never seen me at all