In the peaceful hours of the morning
The sun helps provide clarity to myself
Almost as if I'm missing the warnings
Little signs that reflect my health

I think my mind lacks the inspiration to write
More often than not I try too hard
To turn on that create light
It still fails to shine staying on guard

Though the writing is the easy part
conveying what's really important is not
I thought the trick was to speak from the heart
Yet doing so makes my bran rot

Doing so turns into a million different ways
Different ways of saying I love you
I write as if you never went away
Perhaps one day my heart will have a clue

She gives me a look likes it’s all okay
As to her it is just another day
She says we can still keep on being friends
As if these feelings would just end

Is it selfish to think I could not
My heart feels as if it’s been tired into a knot
Yet she smiles like she still cares
But to me it just doesn't feel fair

For I love her, but she must love another
And so, she looks at me as just a brother
Now I have no choice but to accept
Accept learning to live with reject

When she does find the one she wants
I hope that I can be a little more nonchalant
In my head it’s hard to compile
That at one point I was the one that made her smile

Look yourself in the mirror
Tell me what it is you see
Is your mind any clearer
Has the guilt made you free

Take a step into the light
Is it harder to walk each step
Whys your face beginning to turn so white
Are you finally ready to accept?

The pain and anger held in your heart
Doesn't it burn you up inside
To know you played a part
So go on and hide

Yourself away from your feelings
Go ahead burn all the bridges
But the gamblers still dealing'
And you’re stuck on the ridge

It’s time to face the truth
Be a better man
Go dump that bottle of Vermouth
Lookout into the dam

Face your fears and make that climb
Watch yourself as the fire burns
Time to face the demons in your mind
So, buddy when are you ever going to learn

How hard is it to wait
I say this in my head
While avoiding feelings that I dread
For I am an anchor that has begun to sink

If I only knew I was falling
Or that I would be blinded
Perhaps we were misguided
Yet here I am, on the phone still calling

If only you fell for me as I, did you
Then the next verse would be an easier write
And the world would still be bright
What more is there to really do?

Though not spoken, my eyes confess my love
There's not a prettier sight to me
There's no other place I long to be
But with you in the morning watching the doves

He wakes in the morning
Sore from all the years before
But he's still strong at his core
As life always proceeds without warning


This morning's no different
He gets his coffee and sits at the table
Looking out the window, admiring the horses in the stable
Though he's at the age where he feels indifferent


Later on in the day he gets moving
For a dead man is a lazy man
He knows long ago he would have ran
But these days he’s bound to keep improving

A man that should be full of sorrow
He finds a way to enjoy the moment
Grief to him is a worthy opponent
As he looks forward to each tomorrow


The trick is locked away in his mind
He figured it out long ago
Back when he let go of his ego
The trick is to start with what you want to find

If I can't love as I should
I'll choose to love you as a friend
That's what I tell myself, as if I could
But that's as foolish as the wind


To stand so close to the flames
The match was struck long ago
I knew I would never be the same
Maybe that's something you didn't know


Or perhaps you expected a change
A moment may arise that sparks new wonder
One that needs no guidance and has no range
Could it just be a fool’s blunder?

The day will come when you are ready
I hope that you'll still remember me
And that it’s me that causes your heat to beat unsteady
So, we can discover what true love should be

Do you think of what could be
And in those dreams, do you miss me
I thought I was ok with how it was
Getting high off your buzz


But now I have come to find
You cannot leave my mind
In the darkest rooms
My desire for you still looms

But I must act as a stranger
To protect myself from the danger
I hope that you may understand
Perhaps someday I can still be your man

Until the day of then
I'll sit and remember when
When two hearts burned for each other
With a love like no other

Do you think of what could be
And in those dreams, do you miss me
I thought I was ok with how it was
Getting high off your buzz


But now I have come to find
You cannot leave my mind
In the darkest rooms
My desire for you still looms

But I must act as a stranger
To protect myself from the danger
I hope that you may understand
Perhaps someday I can still be your man

Until the day of then
I'll sit and remember when
When two hearts burned for each other
With a love like no other

I can't love you like you should be
I heard these words leave my mouth
As we lay against the pear tree
How could things ever get this for south

Have I turned myself into her
Making excuses for why I can't love
Now my visions a blur
And there will be no white doves

If I could I would, I think
But I know that’s not True
For if she came within a blink
I would join her and leave you

That's the real reason that I hide
That I hope for her tomorrow
While keeping it all inside
Trying to stay ahead of sorrow

How pretty, how pretty
You are to me
Bright as the lights in the city
With you I long to be

I would, I would
Buy you flowers to hold
Say the word and I could
Let my love me a mold

For I, For I
May never feel this again
Assure me it’s not a lie
Take us to where love begins

Goodbye, Goodbye
Maybe it was just a dream
Perhaps the flames have died
What else could it mean

He sat lounged back in the chair
The sun shing into his face
Almost as if he had been hit by mace
Yet he didn’t care

There was a point in life where he did
But time took care of that
So, he just sits there with his hat
With nothing left to bid

Even the smallest piece of paradise he still stresses
He works too much to know how to live
And he lives too little to give
It’s his normal for life to be a mess

One day his body will die
For his spirit has been long gone
He himself has become a pawn
A crippled bird who can no longer fly

The lazy dog jumped over the bridge
So, the old man grabbed a beer from the fridge

The dog swam through the river
The man had packages to deliver

Soon the sun went away
Then the dog reached the bay

The man passed out
Beyond drunk no doubt

He floated down the stream
Until the light shined from a moonbeam

The dog saved the man
So, they made a plan

So, they sailed the seas
The dop captain and me

Stuck in this prison, behind the white walls
My eyes see them walk
My ears hear them talk
How could I be the fool that falls

In a room full of lights
I lean towards nothing but the dark
Even in my own thoughts I cannot find a spark
For I wish I could fly and take flight

I call, I call, an answer to be
Why, why am I here
And why is no one near
Who am I to flee

For now, I have left the room behind
And far shall I go
To a place that nobody knows
But yet I’m stuck in another room in my mind

Stuck in this prison, behind the white walls
My eyes see them walk
My ears hear them talk
How could I be the fool that falls

The moon, the stars, all seem so far
The lakes, the sea, all call to me
How could it be, how could it be so bizarre
Where is it, where is it I long to be

For I could sail the seven seas
And all would end in misery
I could walk a thousand miles
And never get to see your smile

The birds, the trees, all seem so calming
The air, the wind, all fly around me
How can I, how can I keep from falling
In the abyss that I see

For I could roam the earth
Without a doubt in mind
Knowing that I know what your worth
And so, I could live being blind

The moon, the stars, all seem so far
The lakes, the sea, all call to me
How could it be, how could it be so bizarre
For where, where is it I long to be

Why, why am I so obsessed?
Obsessed with the sea and sky
Is it because I feel blessed
Or do I wish I could fly

Fly away from all my troubles
The little that there is
Could I ever be that humble
I guess it’s better living in ignorance bliss

Is it delusional to dream as such
Wishing for something to happen
Even I can see myself blush
If only I were a ship’s captain

Sailing the seas; living free
Certainly, I should grow tired
Yet I would sail until her eyes were in front of me
And she’ll know that love does not expire

It sounds so easy in my head
Maybe it’s time I played the cards I was dealt
The sun going away, doesn’t meant there’s anything to dread
The sunset is pleasant, but there’s nothing more resplendent than herself

I open my eyes but am blind to the sea
My ears are filled with myths
For no creature could lurk in the abyss
Perhaps I should have paid the fee

The air is denser than it was yesterday
The sun is refusing to shine
And the lonely sea continues to whine
Six more nights till I see May

I try to sleep at day
To be prepared during nightfall
That’s when I hear him call
Five more nights till I see may

I’m getting closer I think
Based on my supply of food
It’s not lot looking to good
One more night, I say on the brink

He waited for me to reach the bay
Where he rose larger than the sun
There I knew I was done
Here I almost made it to May

I strum a chord on an old guitar
I look out and see one old man at the bar
It’s quite common for no one to be here
That’s become one of my fears

After the show, the man looked into my eyes
As if he was feeding from all my lies
He asked if I could do no better
Then he left me with a letter

The letter contained every detail of my life
It even described me dying to a knife
But it can’t be real, it just doesn’t sit well
Could this really be hell?

When I look in the mirror, my bodies on fire
My eyes burn in tune with desire
Yet when I step away, the flames extinguish
And I’m left only in pain and anguish

Then I awake from the same fever dream
In hopes of learning what it means
So, I pick up a guitar and play a track
But I feel a sharp pain, as I fall, with a knife lodged in my back

Perhaps I have gotten lucky twice
It’s hard to imagine so
But I’m sure of it, it’s something I know
The same kind of luck like the roll of a dice

The first was knowing you
Of all the places I could have been
Of all the towns I could have wound up in
That was the first of many clues

The second was to love you
Who would have thought that of us
To think if I’d never got on that bus
All my days may have been blue

So perhaps I have gotten lucky twice
It’s hard to imagine so
But I’m sure of it, it’s something I know
The same kind of luck, like the roll of a dice

I never wanted any of this
I didn’t see for it
What would I have missed
What more could you fit

Now it’s almost as if I’m blinded
How could anything but you have a prettier glow
Maybe I should resort to being empty minded
Or is it better to know?

When I’m around you I can’t pretend
My walls are down and I’m there stuck
I question if my heart could ever mend
Yet I gamble on fool’s luck

Dreaming of the days to come
Quietly understanding that there may be non
Hoping they won’t leave me numb
Patiently waiting until the day is done

For love is a flick and a flame
Each step leads to a darker night
There is no true one to blame
And so, we become each other’s light

I find it funny how fast time goes by
The world used to seem so small
Yet now it’s even smaller, why?
How far do we have to fall

There’s a strange connection for everything
Some call it a string theory, I suppose
Still even the hard choices have a stay
Who am I to question what goes

I keep having the same thought appear in my head
It shows up when you come around
And it leaves me full of dread
Along with worry, not sure where we’re bound

How many days have I wasted
Without you beside me
How many memories were left uncreated
Without your pretty smile to see

As fast as time goes, I want to slow it down
I don’t want to spend another day without you
It’s in your love I want to be bound
So, tell me what it is I have to do

Two roses of red
And one of blue
Neither are prettier than you

A strong shoulder to rest your head
For you I could never deny
There is no question for why

Two roses of blue
And one of red
Just to remind you; love’s not dead

It all seemed to go by so quick
Like the second hand on a clock
It felt so surreal like a tick
All I hear is a click, like tock

The morning of seemed so bright
We said goodbye as normal
And then came the night
When everything felt so formal

There was a knock on the door
Followed by the drop of a glass
But it wasn’t the drop of wine that hit the floor
It was tears for feelings that would never surpass

In a few months she would have been a bride
How is it fair for one to be deprived
What more could I have tried
Now the clock is stuck at 4:45

Time itself knew to stand still
So, each day I take a walk
To a little spot up the hill
And each day I sit and stare at the clock

How foolish is it to leave fate
To leave fate in the hands of luck
How could I help being so moonstruck
It does carry a great weight

I bet it all on a coin toss
Heads I tell you; tails I do not
Either way it was worth a shot
Sooner or later, I would get my point across

Although the answer was never important
It was the look you gave after
Like you were falling from the rafters
But we both knew this would be inadvertent

So, I told you, hoping it wouldn’t be to no avail
It’s funny how a coin toss can decide your fate
And almost make you miss something great
As I put the coin away, knowing it landed on tails

I took a walk with my mom today
It was an old park where I used to play
We sat on the swings for what felt like hours
On our way out we stopped and picked flowers

Before heading home, I went into a shop
It was an antique looking place I used to stop
Everything looked the same, in its unique spot
Who could have guessed I would have missed this a lot

I saw an old friend walking on the street
He looked a little busy for the two of us to meet
When leaving I spotted a penny on the ground
I reached down and flipped it around

Later on, my dad and I went on a drive in my truck
All the gears were shifting fine, so we were in good luck
We stopped at a place we’d visit when I was young
All those times I would sit there and bite my tongue

Yet there was still some sunshine left at the end of the day
So, I went to the lake to pray
When I was done, a bluebird came to visit
But he was gone in mere minutes

Goodbyes have never been easy
But life’s not always lemon squeezy
Yet there’s peace in this serenity
Knowing that I still have all of eternity

It’s cold, it’s cold, I hear someone say
I turn to glance at an empty sky
Why, not even the birds want to fly
I think to myself, how much further to the bay

There’s footprints where I am now
Memories of those left behind
Or maybe ones of those hoping to find
A reason to disavow

The snow falls and I hear laughter
I turn to look, but it is just me
My mind takes me back to the sea
But that was a disaster; its time for a new chapter

Again, I hear, its cold, its cold
I glance to find a mirror
Staring at me with my reflection so clear
Is this how it will all unfold

I hear a door crack and my eyes open
There's a man with a key, looking at me
He asks how I am going to be
I try to run, but this a cell, of where to I’m frozen

Do you remember when
We would walk in winter
Holding our breath in the chilling wind
Waiting to see who was the winner

Or maybe the summer skies
The fields where we hid
Isn’t it funny how time flies
Especially now that we aren’t kids

What about the ol house
The one that was condemned
Remember when you go scared of that mouse
Aren’t you glad we settled in the west end

I can still see the look you gave
That time I brought home that raggedy old car
Back when money was hard to save
Or course we never worried about setting any bars

It’s been a long time now
And each day with you feels like a thousand more
I shake my head sometimes and say wow
For how could you fall for me and not walk out the door

It’s going to be a good Christmas day
I wake up and say

As I rise from my bed
My eyes become to dread

The ugly sight I see
For what could cause this misery

A candle still on fire
It burns in tune with desire

A tree knocked down
With ornaments on the ground

The house is so empty
For what spirits could lift me

Leaks all through the ceiling
Who else could lose this much feeling

The sun that burns low
What used to be home has lost its glow

A table set for one
For visitors there will be none

And when I sleep tonight
I wish to dream of something bright

How did she do it
I ask myself nearly everyday
For how could I ever fit
In any word she could say

How could she a stranger
Enter my life with no warning
Even so, could I not see the danger
Of seeing her face every morning

I get this pit in the bottom of my stomach
I have trouble concentrating
Is it just dumb luck
Or is there something hidden, that’s captivating

For someone like me, not worthy
Or someone like her, who deserves better
Is this proof of mercy
But I can’t stay, so I’ll leave her this letter

A charred smell of hickory nuts fills the air
I take a step out to clear my head
As I begin to walk, I can’t help but dare
Dare myself to make it through this winter dread

My steps become less and less
For the snow has reached my knees
Yet I continue on, but I must confess
I did stop for a break by the trees

I whistle a tune, as I watch the moon stop hiding
The air is colder and white specks fall on my clothes
But I find it all ever so delighting
For there’s no better place to find a winter’s rose

As I make my way back, I see a light
It shines through the window
I enter with a rose of white
To see her smile, as pretty as a rainbow

I’ve been here a thousand times
All of which I seen you cry
I’ll ask you what is wrong
But you’ll just sit there on the floor

I would have committed a thousand crimes
Just to see you get up and try
You’ll try to tell me that I’m wrong
But here you are asking me for more

So, I’ll waste a thousand dimes
And never question you why
And I’ll hope you’re not gone long
As I watch you walk out the door

I’ve been here a thousand times
All of which I seen you cry
I ask what is wrong
But you’ll just sit there on the floor

There in the grass fields she lays
Soaking in the orange ambience from the sky
How beautiful it is for a summer day
How clam it is to see the birds fly

No care in mind, no sight to seek
Just the gentle wind
A small kiss to her cheek
Just a reminder of when we were friends

As we move down to the shore
I see the color shift
It’s so dark, but she shines at her core
I become distracted, I become adrift

How could I be ever so lucky
To catch the sun and bring it with
For with her who needs luck
Tell me, tell me is it a myth?

It’s all the same
It all the same
I tell myself over and over
A different night, a different light
Yet I look in the mirror sober
But who’s to blame
Who’s to blame

Your wish for me
I wish to be

Your undeniable wit
I hope to fit

Your blinding glow
I yearn to know

Your reasons in my mind
I tried to find

Your heart never did mend
I failed you in the end

I’ve seen this road before
Was it in a dream?
The familiarity of the leaves crunching at their core
For what could it mean?

My feet sink in each step
A robin can be heard in the distance
For even he knows I’m a wreck
As I contemplate life’s existence

Yet the road leads to another
So, I take a break from it all
And as night falls, she’s found a new lover
But here I cling to my phone, waiting on a call

As day rises, I continue on
Walking slowly, feeling tired and sore
When a thought comes to mind, with the suns dawn
I’ve seen this road before

A few years ago, he was just a kid
Now a man, he comes back to fight
The demons and ghouls he came to rid
To help the town see light

He died the second he crossed
The town went under and away
The remains grew covered in moss
His wife received word and had nothing to say

His family continued to live
Although he was in their thoughts everyday
They lived modest, thankful for what he had left to give
Often visits were made to the site of decay

His kid learned the lessons he didn’t
A leader by birth, he brought the town together
He raised twice the army his father sought
They learned to adapt and change such as the weather

A few years ago, he was just a kid
Now a man, he came back to fight
The demons and ghouls he came to rid
To ensure the town sees the light

I wish to be
Your wish to me

I hope to Fit
Your undeniable wit

I learn to know
Your blinding glow

I tried to find
Your reasons in my mind

I failed you in the end
Your heart never did mend

His last words; I tried
He last heard; I know

The next day, he saw angels fly
The next week he felt them glow

The years stacked on like fire
The same years he met people he didn’t know

Until the time came like chain on a wire
Until he met the person again, that made his heart grow

Today I lived
Not just once. But twice
Without knowledge to give

I felt many ways of pain
And seen twice the rainy days
So, what was there to gain

I climbed the mountain ranges
Sunk down to the ocean floor
But what was left to change

I grew up quick
For where I came from, you have to
So, I started my wall, brick by brick

Today I learned
Not everything works out
And so, my drive, continues to burn

Golden sunsets and skies of blue
All confess my love to you

A small house on a corner stone
Creates a place for you to call home

Steady hands and shaky feet
Is what I get each time we meet

Yet, when I’m with you, I’m as light as a feather
Here’s to a love, that will last forever

There was a time, I felt these feelings before
Words can’t describe it
A train with no tack, the earth with no core
Like an old man’s wisdom and wit

I freeze you know
Stuck in movement, praying my eye’s will see
For one look and they’re blinded by her glow
Although the risk is worth it to me

She’s not the first and she may not be last
She’s a warm summer day, out on the bay
A sailboat with sails that need no cast
Or a clear conscious with no past

I’ve felt these feelings before
Some with and without her
The kind of feeling that makes eagles soar
The kind of love that comes in goes in a blur

I dedicate this: to her