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"sonofabitch" poems
The silver fog slithers around my ankles, slowly winding up my legs with a serpent's silk move. Squeezing her fingers, my mother and I approach the barn-red house. It breathes heavily and its exhale reveals a backyard cemetery. As the mist settles, a limestone hand reaches out to ****** her away. Down the street the dollhouse neighbor cannot see me screaming, weeping, I call for help. Brown-green water drips from the bathroom ceiling-- the plumber continues plumbing. Sweat beads form on the tip of the fat priest's nose, as he climbs the broken stairs, he continues preaching. The porcelain girl wears her mother's brown-stained ivory prom dress. Chanting, Sonofabitch. Sonofabitch. They cannot see me-- I flail my limbs. They cannot hear me-- Their own cursing drown out my voice.
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Jun 26, 2010
Jun 26, 2010 at 6:06 PM UTC
The Dollhouse Neighbor
Mother bear in a waterfall With bigger thoughts than blonde harlots Eating porridge, Fallen starlets with outer space in their hair. Just you wait; I'll be the happiest little sonofabitch You've ever seen. Some small consolation, if any. That weekend we spent with our Necks perpendicular to our spines, Of course I still remember the films we watched. I condition my hair with split infinitives And live off the poisoned dew that settles Every morning in my closet. Turn your little black dress inside-out, I've got this magic idea for a recipe But we're going to need some ants And that crazy Harryhausen dream you've got up in your attic. Ten or twelve little blond kids up On the cliff, each ten or twelve years old And dancing with a flame-Buddha called "Home". Let's spend this week underwater, I'd much rather give up my weight and my due If it ensured me any small hour With you. Oh, god how I love you anymore. I may have told you this a while ago, But did you know the first Pledge of Allegiance Put us some good height above God? Sometimes I find the sugar in my gas tank Makes for a rough start in the morning, Not that I particularly want to go anywhere, But it's what I've thought that counts. He's a bit upset that I skipped movie last night: But I can't play horizontal baseball With my violent, violent imaginary friend. The Rubik's cube beats deep in my chest Without a hand to cheat and rearrange the stickers. Claude enunciates something queer into my ear And turns off the lamp with a snap.
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Mar 5, 2011
Mar 5, 2011 at 8:19 AM UTC
Ottoman Blue
Mother bear in a waterfall With bigger thoughts than blonde harlots Eating porridge, Fallen starlets with outer space in their hair. Just you wait; I'll be the happiest little sonofabitch You've ever seen. Some small consolation, if any. That weekend we spent with our Necks perpendicular to our spines, Of course I still remember the films we watched. I condition my hair with split infinitives And live off the poisoned dew that settles Every morning in my closet. Turn your little black dress inside-out, I've got this magic idea for a recipe But we're going to need some ants And that crazy Harryhausen dream you've got up in your attic. Ten or twelve little blond kids up On the cliff, each ten or twelve years old And dancing with a flame-Buddha called "Home". Let's spend this week underwater, I'd much rather give up my weight and my due If it ensured me any small hour With you. Oh, god how I love you anymore. I may have told you this a while ago, But did you know the first Pledge of Allegiance Put us some good height above God? Sometimes I find the sugar in my gas tank Makes for a rough start in the morning, Not that I particularly want to go anywhere, But it's what I've thought that counts. He's a bit upset that I skipped movie last night: But I can't play horizontal baseball With my violent, violent imaginary friend. The Rubik's cube beats deep in my chest Without a hand to cheat and rearrange the stickers. Claude enunciates something queer into my ear And turns off the lamp with a snap.
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You think you are someone of great strength in mind, as you belittle all the people around you, for the sake of not appearing kind, because it was the only thing you knew. Taught to be tough and a big boy, you can go and use a gun as a toy, become accustomed to the ability to destroy. As you see nothing wrong from stealing the light in one's eyes, being the artist of their demise, as you ruin their families lies. BANG, BANG, BANG, goes the gun in your hand, over a dead body you stand, just as you planned. Put that hit on that sonofabitch, it went off without a hitch, now you a man who put someone in a ditch. The only sacrifice is morality, but you are so young, you don't see the brutality, only the gangster mentality, so you can live in the violent normality, not realizing that you have lost touch with reality. But that is a life that no longer belongs, replaced by coke, *** and bongs, you will never know that what you do is wrong, until you hear the bell's gong, and it is you who is gone.
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Oct 27, 2014
Oct 27, 2014 at 5:25 AM UTC
******
Dewey Dell Bundren Had her baby And ran off to college Worked single-mother hours To keep her ****** apartment And never missed a class She married the first theology professor she could find The kind With the horn rimmed glasses Drinking imported scotch Discussing literature around the fire at night She got a degree At Northeastern High honors in history She never knew all those books were about her And the people she came from The places Had their stories told In the pages Shaped everything she had ever known She was grateful For her history And once a year made the trip Back to Jefferson Mississippi Put flowers on her mother's grave Still tasting the bananas Hearing herself saying "Hadn't you ruther" Still hearing Jewel Cursing softly ******* you, ******* you" "You sweet sonofabitch" Still seeing the mules Swollen Floating Bellies up Past Cash and the coffin Leg broken In that biblical spring flood
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Mar 5, 2013
Mar 5, 2013 at 1:00 PM UTC
Historical Fiction
You stupid sonofabitch. I hope you burn less than you did when you were here, and that maybe you finally caught up with the monster you were chasing. We still drink to you on days like this, Glasses raised to the day you showed up, Broken bottle on the back porch to forget the day you left. Oh, and pay your mother a visit sometime, she misses you so. She's been saving lives in your name for years now, but the kids are still dropping like flies. Tell her it's okay, that she's done her part. I guess I just miss you. That heart of gold is still the talk of the town, but I remember the black fingers wrapped around it much better, And I want you to know that I'm sorry. I'm sorry I didn't save you. So tonight I'll drink Not to the ashes on the mantel or the flowers on the grave. But to you. Happy birthday, Matt. Wherever you are.
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Nov 4, 2015
Nov 4, 2015 at 6:37 AM UTC
Happy Birthday
I remember climbing out my window, skulking off into a violent blizzard. Lost in teenage anguish, my feet carried me forward through the storm. Two a.m. and a mile I out I realize, I'm walking towards her house Panic slammed my body like a tidal wave, my nerves vibrated, shaking the bitter cold. I carried on determined. No plan of action, just full of **** and vigor and something... Something I hadn't yet known. The walk up her street is done with tremendous effort, like swimming in jello. Standing outside her house, I'm suddenly aware of another obstacle. I don't have a cell-phone. Which window is her room? Assuming it's upstairs, this is fifty - fifty you sonofabitch. Take the risk. I throw a small stone but hear it explode like a firecracker on the window. Silence. I reach for another when a soft voice calls my name. We stand in the street and talk for a while, holding one another. I'm sorry, I can't stay, they probably know I'm gone. I just... I just wanted to say goodbye I walked backwards the whole way down the street. Streetlights and snowfall created an amber aura around her. That, was the first time I knew what love was. Sometimes I think it was the last time, too.
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Apr 24, 2015
Apr 24, 2015 at 10:59 PM UTC
First Love. (A Tale From My Life)
Mt. Rose rises 10 thousand feet Of treachery, deceit and defeat. Every storm Every wind Every drop of flooding rain Every blowing snow Converges on this terrain Until no visibility remains The glistening diamond asphalt promises riches But that doesn't remain. That son of a ***** has tried to **** us many times. Its serene moments And panoramic views are a lie For its treachery Resides in the one false Move when you can't hide And you are sliding Side to side. Twerling Wherling Spinning The landscape flying by The blowing snow Blinds your eyes It comes at you Horizontal Lateral It comes from below. Doing 360's The back becomes the front The front becomes the back The blizzard sweeps you up And all your doing Is going along For the ride Wondering If You are going to Survive. A magic finger Stopped Us there The cliffs and the air And we hang suspended With the panoramas and vistas Right there A foot or two A foot or two away. All in all That son of a ***** has tried to **** us many times. It's become a symbol and a sign Of knowing we're okay Because unless I'm sliding sideways Down Mt. Rose Everything is nothing But my mind imagining Treachery, deceit and defeat...
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Dec 5, 2013
Dec 5, 2013 at 10:05 AM UTC
That sonofabitch has tried to **** us many times (2)
In a land where only rich folk have chins; lived a man. Ugly and Dim. He was as bright as a flashlight in the afternoon hours. A terrible thing, having thoughts devoured. A drought crossed the land where Ideas once grew now lies a place for neither me nor you. We heard of boy. Quiet wealthy, quiet rich, but deep down a real sonofabitch, who rode ‘gainst the grain and then disappeared. Never to be heard of again. What a shame to lose the lose the mind of young Ugly and Dim. I heard a tall tale, or call it a fable; for the lessons quite clear. It’s a lesson about Ugly and Dim, two brothers in fact who had such an act at the travelling magical show. Dim had the knowledge and Ugly had the looks. They’d learned their tricks from the book called Don’t Pay Your Dues, and they wound up all burnt .Except their shoes. Which stood centre stage, where would-be magicians light up in flames, a blaze of ashes. Such gasps from the crowd as Ugly and Dim began to singe, and turn crisp and begin to burn, that’s how they fried. Some soul cried “I can’t tell if they’re dead or alive!” As the skin slipped over the skeletal bones Ugly and Dim were exposed. Liars and tricksters of illusion will meet an ill-fated conclusion. Ugly and Dim will see you again, in your moments of moral confusion. Ugly and Dim; the architects of such modern wonders of “How things are today!” and “How they oughta be!” Over 1 million copies of “It’s a you or me mentality!” sold! Ugly and Dim are ever so bold for the romance novel: “How Love Gets Old” Ugly and Dim are you and him, or her and I, and us and them. Sometimes I cry. I’m ugly. Sometimes I don’t know answers, I’m dim Sometimes I wake up and I make it through another day.
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Dec 2, 2012
Dec 2, 2012 at 5:05 PM UTC
Ugly and Dim
In a land where only rich folk have chins; lived a man. Ugly and Dim. He was as bright as a flashlight in the afternoon hours. A terrible thing, having thoughts devoured. A drought crossed the land where Ideas once grew now lies a place for neither me nor you. We heard of boy. Quiet wealthy, quiet rich, but deep down a real sonofabitch, who rode ‘gainst the grain and then disappeared. Never to be heard of again. What a shame to lose the lose the mind of young Ugly and Dim. I heard a tall tale, or call it a fable; for the lessons quite clear. It’s a lesson about Ugly and Dim, two brothers in fact who had such an act at the travelling magical show. Dim had the knowledge and Ugly had the looks. They’d learned their tricks from the book called Don’t Pay Your Dues, and they wound up all burnt .Except their shoes. Which stood centre stage, where would-be magicians light up in flames, a blaze of ashes. Such gasps from the crowd as Ugly and Dim began to singe, and turn crisp and begin to burn, that’s how they fried. Some soul cried “I can’t tell if they’re dead or alive!” As the skin slipped over the skeletal bones Ugly and Dim were exposed. Liars and tricksters of illusion will meet an ill-fated conclusion. Ugly and Dim will see you again, in your moments of moral confusion. Ugly and Dim; the architects of such modern wonders of “How things are today!” and “How they oughta be!” Over 1 million copies of “It’s a you or me mentality!” sold! Ugly and Dim are ever so bold for the romance novel: “How Love Gets Old” Ugly and Dim are you and him, or her and I, and us and them. Sometimes I cry. I’m ugly. Sometimes I don’t know answers, I’m dim Sometimes I wake up and I make it through another day.
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Omigod, Donald T. **** You unconscionable creep, You are disgusting enough To cost us all sleep. If lies were US dollars You sonofabitch You would truly be Obscenely rich. It’s not enough for you To have gold water faucets, Crystal mirrors everywhere And marble floors in closets Now you want to play at Being a savvy politician Stands for Christian principles From the missionary position. Omigod, Donald T. **** You unconscionable creep, You are disgusting enough To cost us all sleep. With a changing cast of women You call your lawful wives. And you’re the one who wants To control our very lives? You utter your vituperation At poor and the non-Christian. Is having the world hate you Part of your final mission? If lies were US dollars You sonofabitch You would truly be Obscenely rich. You also want control of Our country’s financial hopes. If we fall for that stupid tale Then we are a nation of dopes Because you have bankrupted More than the Monopoly game Would allow a toddler to have And that is quite a shame. Omigod, Donald T. **** You unconscionable creep, You are disgusting enough To cost us all sleep. If lies were US dollars You sonofabitch You would truly be Obscenely rich. No, Mr. T **** please do What is proper and fitting; Call up the press and say That you are finally quitting. Tell them you were just testing To see what the others would do. So, kiss our collective ***** goodbye And take with you that dumb hairdo.
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Dec 14, 2015
Dec 14, 2015 at 9:56 PM UTC
DONALD T. ****
There may be a heaven And maybe a hell But there is one thing I know **** well; There are devils around And they do their worst To put the working man Into a poor man’s hearse. They hate poor people And kiss the royal *** Of those who they think Represents real class. And real class to devils Is money beyond belief So they side with the creeps That hate welfare and relief. They know what they are doing And they do it every time. They gleefully participate In global-scale crime. They pump up bank accounts Of the obscenely rich And call the working a man A loser sonofabitch. They buy the politicians, Who are devils themselves, And push helpful programs Onto a dusty back shelf. If it doesn’t make money For the greedy one percent Then any such bill proposed On the floor is never even sent. So, I do believe in Devils Not so much of the rest of the book. If you don’t believe in Devils Turn around and take a good look.
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Nov 1, 2015
Nov 1, 2015 at 2:15 PM UTC
DEVILS
making a playlist titled you you you taking a pill at the **** zoo ******* fools wasted on the pavement chasing waists on the pavement i'm tired of these ******* games you're playing tic tac toes on the cusp of my aortic valve **** hippocratic oath falsifying fingerprints i am to you, just an oddball goodfornothing sonofabitch semi-sweet curvature of the lungs tar-coated nail-biting feminist ***** some uppity analyzing self-righteous bore well **** you, too, then **** you, too i'll do alright in the world, got some chew that i'll spit out a rhyme with, all that hullabaloo i am those whos, on a dead *** dandelion making wishes on elephants (such buffoons) and finding that donkeys are nothing but mumbling tools
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Feb 19, 2014
Feb 19, 2014 at 6:36 AM UTC
BOO
This was the year we All got our Lost Boys names. (No, not the vampires...we're Lost. On Neverland. In Neverland?)           Pillows McGee first, I think. "That's mine--you can stick it wherever." "Awww...I want a Happy Trail." Or maybe it was Lucky. For he truly was a lucky sonofabitch that night. "It's nice when a guy gives your ****** back when he's done." What's the most important ingredient to a friendship, Lucky? "Another person." True dat, Lucky. True dat.                          *  all nod  *                              Smokestacked! She smokes! And she's stacked! Inspirational. Charming. "I'm always on a quest for a ****** VERY ADAMANT: "I don't like **** Snakes are okay!"       Forking Ariel had quite a bit to drink. She wanted to know why she wasn't a lesbian. She wanted to **** on the end...but none of us can remember the end of what, anymore. We just wrote it down because it sounds filthy.      We like filth. Forking Ariel lost her box at some point. Probably around the time      she told us she doesn't **** the end and she doesn't just grab it. ...otter pops? FLASHER!          "I'll get it with my teeth." Yeah, you will. Flasher gave the last Lost Boy their name: "I'm gonna have to go for Bushless Red." Lucky: "That sounds like a cigarette. There's nothing I like more between my lips than Bushless Red."              Bushless Red hasn't had a Happy Ending, apparently, but she likes her cigarette commercial. She's Painful, Feminine, and Appetizing. "I say we all do it on the bed, because--" ...giggles uncontrollably.                     Dear Diary,                                Today, I discovered that heaven is in Cillian Murphy's pants. Or Forking Ariel's.                                                                       Also, an important ingredient in a friendship is another person. ~Bushless Red.
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Mar 10, 2013
Mar 10, 2013 at 2:13 PM UTC
The Second Annual Lost Boys Thanksgiving
This was the year we All got our Lost Boys names. (No, not the vampires...we're Lost. On Neverland. In Neverland?)           Pillows McGee first, I think. "That's mine--you can stick it wherever." "Awww...I want a Happy Trail." Or maybe it was Lucky. For he truly was a lucky sonofabitch that night. "It's nice when a guy gives your ****** back when he's done." What's the most important ingredient to a friendship, Lucky? "Another person." True dat, Lucky. True dat.                          *  all nod  *                              Smokestacked! She smokes! And she's stacked! Inspirational. Charming. "I'm always on a quest for a ****** VERY ADAMANT: "I don't like **** Snakes are okay!"       Forking Ariel had quite a bit to drink. She wanted to know why she wasn't a lesbian. She wanted to **** on the end...but none of us can remember the end of what, anymore. We just wrote it down because it sounds filthy.      We like filth. Forking Ariel lost her box at some point. Probably around the time      she told us she doesn't **** the end and she doesn't just grab it. ...otter pops? FLASHER!          "I'll get it with my teeth." Yeah, you will. Flasher gave the last Lost Boy their name: "I'm gonna have to go for Bushless Red." Lucky: "That sounds like a cigarette. There's nothing I like more between my lips than Bushless Red."              Bushless Red hasn't had a Happy Ending, apparently, but she likes her cigarette commercial. She's Painful, Feminine, and Appetizing. "I say we all do it on the bed, because--" ...giggles uncontrollably.                     Dear Diary,                                Today, I discovered that heaven is in Cillian Murphy's pants. Or Forking Ariel's.                                                                       Also, an important ingredient in a friendship is another person. ~Bushless Red.
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He, the rumpled bumbler, Stumbled, mumbling, bungling Through his self-made jungle No mote of humility, his abilities Were not inclusive of subtlety. He settled for a public identity Of propriety and normality, Obvious hospitality but falsity Like the nose on his face, exposed. What a verbose, but artificial Government official he was. His cause was never for us It was for that he was notorious; How laboriously he dissembled. But he resembled his opposition Then took a position of submission Until his mission was complete Then he beat his feet in retreat To those he knew could beat The highest price and that was nice. Twice as nice for rental cars And pretty movie stars Who weren’t too humble To stumble the red carpet With the rumpled bumbler, Mumbling, no longer bungling Through his self-made jungle. Still no humility, a perfect facility To take from the poor, give to the rich And not care who calls him sonofabitch.
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Jul 22, 2015
Jul 22, 2015 at 8:06 AM UTC
CANDIDATE
Is it strange, do you think, that today has been so terrible and I still have a smile on my face? Believe me, even I think it strange considering that the blueboy was content to submit falsehoods in his effort to fill this city’s coffers with my children’s Christmas presents before they’ve even been thought of Even I think it odd that despite a myriad of disasters, including a coffee-fart that moistened the seat of my trousers and sent me scurrying for the john, and subsequently the exit, I’m still able to grin. Despite my chagrins, in light of a day filled with folly bordering on misery, the silvery sliver of hope shows through. I’m standing at that crossroad waiting for The Devil to appear, and I can tell that Ol’ Scratch is close, close enough that I can feel his gaze inside this, a Wednesday, a “one of those days”. When the oldest kid has puked his bed, and I’ve got one more mess to clean up besides the one in my drawers, but my shine won’t dull, no matter the ache in my skull. ‘Cause when Pitch is asking me: “Boy, what’chu gonna do? I’ve been havin’ a fine time messin’ wit’chu!” I’ll say to Ol’ Pitch, that sonofabitch… “My fine, forked-tongued, fiend, you can’t have no more of me, for I’m hollerin’ down old dogs, you see? Them dogs’ll run and hide, I’ve got a fine crew by my side into Thursday we will ride and leave this ****** day behind!” This is why I still smile, because in just a little while I get to have my rest My lover’s head upon my chest, my children in their nests. Of tomorrow I’ll dream deep while in the dark, I sleep pondering possibilities, probabilities, and simply other reasons to… smile. -JBClaywell ©P&ZPublications
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Nov 11, 2015
Nov 11, 2015 at 7:54 PM UTC
The Very Bad Day Indeed
Is it strange, do you think, that today has been so terrible and I still have a smile on my face? Believe me, even I think it strange considering that the blueboy was content to submit falsehoods in his effort to fill this city’s coffers with my children’s Christmas presents before they’ve even been thought of Even I think it odd that despite a myriad of disasters, including a coffee-fart that moistened the seat of my trousers and sent me scurrying for the john, and subsequently the exit, I’m still able to grin. Despite my chagrins, in light of a day filled with folly bordering on misery, the silvery sliver of hope shows through. I’m standing at that crossroad waiting for The Devil to appear, and I can tell that Ol’ Scratch is close, close enough that I can feel his gaze inside this, a Wednesday, a “one of those days”. When the oldest kid has puked his bed, and I’ve got one more mess to clean up besides the one in my drawers, but my shine won’t dull, no matter the ache in my skull. ‘Cause when Pitch is asking me: “Boy, what’chu gonna do? I’ve been havin’ a fine time messin’ wit’chu!” I’ll say to Ol’ Pitch, that sonofabitch… “My fine, forked-tongued, fiend, you can’t have no more of me, for I’m hollerin’ down old dogs, you see? Them dogs’ll run and hide, I’ve got a fine crew by my side into Thursday we will ride and leave this ****** day behind!” This is why I still smile, because in just a little while I get to have my rest My lover’s head upon my chest, my children in their nests. Of tomorrow I’ll dream deep while in the dark, I sleep pondering possibilities, probabilities, and simply other reasons to… smile. -JBClaywell ©P&ZPublications
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AARP keeps sending me **** Letting me know I'm getting old Buy this insurance "Die Happy With Us" **** "Don't leave your loved ones in debt when you die" **** "No one gives enough a **** to pay for your funeral" Sonofabitch "A place for Mom" What the **** Come get me! Thou great Valkyries Demons of hell Angels of Heaven! But you **** well better know, AARP Has got my *** covered!
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Mar 13, 2017
Mar 13, 2017 at 8:40 PM UTC
AARP
everybody watch the **** out there's a nineteen year old trying to get profound over here it all started when I was kid thinking why am I not one of those poor bloated African kids on the TV? why am I an English school boy sitting to close to a TV? meaning meaning meaning meaning that there has to be some reason for all of this but I got older dumber jaded and bitter and I think I've figured it all out no really just hear me out the meaning of all of this from womb to tomb is that there isn't one deep, right? but life is like a cartoon fight a cloud of dust projecting fist boot asterisks wavy lines and we're all in that melee and we're all going to get our teeth kicked in life's one tough sonofabitch and it's been doing since before there was a before my point being you can't beat life and you can't avoid it forever all you can do is hope that when that ball of cartoon extravagance has settled you'll be clutching onto the things you need the things you want the things you love and you'll still be able to stand back up
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Oct 30, 2013
Oct 30, 2013 at 10:23 AM UTC
my meaning of life
A, pretentious guitar wielding battle warrior quoting Nietzsche, listening to old songs they don’t play on the radio anymore and burning at night, burning alive with smokey lungs and charred fingers and curls soaked terribly from desert rains in May, lankey arms exposed for hours at a time in hottest weather, basking in sunlight, still keeping pale but maybe his eyes darken a little. marron, they say in french, those pretty eyes with lashes like down, so long you could sweep the floor with them. what a baby-faced angel sonofabitch smelling sweetly of **** in the afternoons, a walking catastrophe Dean Moriarty flailing arms around, a terrible dancer. a terrible lover. a terrible terrible boy. involved in a menage a trois, no doubt, by God he has all the little girls under his thumb, under his bleeding fingers as he serenades them songs they only know of because of him. all the ***** characters from smokey back rooms in the 20’s, 50’s he knows them all and hammers out their songs bang bang bang on his guitar like a visionary of jazz, *** pills and powders all secrets hidden behind his eyes. The ******* child of the stars I am forced to hate him But my love for him gnaws away at my sanity all his friends are cracked, deadbeat downtrodden unlistened to voices of our time. he says he is a pacifist, but he’s killing us all.
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Oct 19, 2014
Oct 19, 2014 at 2:50 PM UTC
A
Why are you shouting out loud? Are you saying I am too proud? Do you think I am undeserving? If so, it is completely unnerving That you don’t want me to own What you see as yours alone; A sense of dignity and hope. You must see me as a dope Who can’t see you getting rich. You are one shallow sonofabitch If you think just calling me villain Will somehow make me willing To give up my own free voice So that only you have a choice About how much I will make And which decisions I take About my own home and body. Can you really be that shoddy? Well, yes, I have learned you are. You think you are a superstar And are immune to decency That your star is in ascendency. Well, I really hope that it is not And that your tail gets caught In the door before it slams And we see the last of your scams And your nepotistic buddy deals And get back to what is real And proper for our poor nation Instead of graft and intimidation That makes wealth for a few. Nothing for me, all for you.
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Oct 3, 2015
Oct 3, 2015 at 5:42 PM UTC
MANDAMUS
I'm torn (apart) between loving the big blue and green eyes that go on for miles when I look into them and the way you look at me with them in all their different flavors like curiosity and soft fondness and fire-like intensity and the way you smile with your one dimple and the way that smile tastes when you pull me in with your strong arms that I know won't let me go because under your breath you say 'mine' as you squeeze me tighter and the feeling of that breath on my skin as we sink deeper into a state of cloudy hysteria and everything in the world feels perfectly in tune as my head is on your chest and your heartbeat is the pentameter of it all. im torn between that and this old feeling of dread that as soon as you slip away from me I won't see you or hear your voice and yet you'll be trapped in my thoughts like a favorite song and no matter how hard I try I can't help but feeling like the tune is off somehow and I've forgotten some words but I can't think of which ones but the worst part is I feel like all this noise in my head won't be mirrored in yours and you won't hear the tune or appreciate the melody. im torn (apart) between this harmony of yin and yang and you give me a head and I give you a heart and how you say "id be a cold-hearted sonofabitch without you" and when I ask if you're proud of me you say "Its rare that im not proud of you" and when I cry you look into my eyes like a blanket on an oil fire calming me down and reminding me where the ground is and you hold my hand when I'm scared and tell me "fear means youre growing, when its over you'll be glad you did it" and you push me to be bold and when you smile and tell me I slow the world down for you and that you like when I stroke your hair because you feel safe for once and how we even each other out softening rigid edges and sharpening dull blades im torn between that and knowing that when the harmony is askew we duel with those swords but not with each other, with our respective selves and I start wishing I wasn't too much and you beat yourself up for thinking you aren't enough and the air fills with a solid stench of resentment and confusion and im grasping frantically for answers and bandages as we both sit on the floor hemorrhaging. I'm. torn (apart). between loving you and knowing there are so many beautiful ways we're good for each other torn between that and wondering if that's enough to make up for the ways that we ruin the other. and then I ask "what is love without ruin?" and "love is enough right?" but im just torn apart
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May 23, 2019
May 23, 2019 at 12:26 PM UTC
I'm torn (apart)
I'm torn (apart) between loving the big blue and green eyes that go on for miles when I look into them and the way you look at me with them in all their different flavors like curiosity and soft fondness and fire-like intensity and the way you smile with your one dimple and the way that smile tastes when you pull me in with your strong arms that I know won't let me go because under your breath you say 'mine' as you squeeze me tighter and the feeling of that breath on my skin as we sink deeper into a state of cloudy hysteria and everything in the world feels perfectly in tune as my head is on your chest and your heartbeat is the pentameter of it all. im torn between that and this old feeling of dread that as soon as you slip away from me I won't see you or hear your voice and yet you'll be trapped in my thoughts like a favorite song and no matter how hard I try I can't help but feeling like the tune is off somehow and I've forgotten some words but I can't think of which ones but the worst part is I feel like all this noise in my head won't be mirrored in yours and you won't hear the tune or appreciate the melody. im torn (apart) between this harmony of yin and yang and you give me a head and I give you a heart and how you say "id be a cold-hearted sonofabitch without you" and when I ask if you're proud of me you say "Its rare that im not proud of you" and when I cry you look into my eyes like a blanket on an oil fire calming me down and reminding me where the ground is and you hold my hand when I'm scared and tell me "fear means youre growing, when its over you'll be glad you did it" and you push me to be bold and when you smile and tell me I slow the world down for you and that you like when I stroke your hair because you feel safe for once and how we even each other out softening rigid edges and sharpening dull blades im torn between that and knowing that when the harmony is askew we duel with those swords but not with each other, with our respective selves and I start wishing I wasn't too much and you beat yourself up for thinking you aren't enough and the air fills with a solid stench of resentment and confusion and im grasping frantically for answers and bandages as we both sit on the floor hemorrhaging. I'm. torn (apart). between loving you and knowing there are so many beautiful ways we're good for each other torn between that and wondering if that's enough to make up for the ways that we ruin the other. and then I ask "what is love without ruin?" and "love is enough right?" but im just torn apart
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I know I am a bad kid, Things I did were awful So I deserve every slap, Every punch, every insult Like “little ******* and Sonofabitch. Everything. Call me what I am as I Have been appallingly bad As a child, as an offspring, An embarrassment to you. Show me that ugly face Of disappointment and hate Because I was never a great Reflection of your love, Of your concern, your care. After all, you feed me You give me clothes and bed And let me go to school. I am a worthless fool. I don’t deserve more, And now, every smile hurts; Not just desserts for crimes Ones I committed all the time Every day I now understand Why your hand hit my jaw, Slapped my face so often I’m a disgrace, a shame I don’t deserve your name Or for you to look at me. After all, look at me. I’m horribly fat, look! Those disgusting bulges in my lower backside. I disgust myself, completely I look at myself and heave. I wish I could leave and go, Find someplace else Where I can’t see myself. So nobody else has to. I can’t take back the wet beds The expense you always said Was too much, the touch I craved back when I was young The breath in even my lungs Offending because I am bad. I am a sad example of kids And should be hid somewhere So you never have to spare Another moment on a bad kid.
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Mar 2, 2018
Mar 2, 2018 at 4:54 PM UTC
BAD KID
the sonofabitch tremor from a tall cup of americano i am somewhere in the heart of Libis feeling the libidinous snarl of trucks, the poignant treason of leaves slamming against each other, the bamboozle of the youth this is my 5th poem sliding out of my whetstone mouth sharpening the dull blade of tongue as the harum-scarum of the swivel door crafts a rising hullaballoo. spilling coffee on my ****** white this sonofabitch tremor terrorizes the purity of the ******* clenched against no succor, eyes squinting in lachrymose fretting palpebral shade of tossed out gray caprice of clouds — no more coffee for me, these words nudging me keeping me awake with persistence.
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Oct 31, 2015
Oct 31, 2015 at 2:51 AM UTC
Sonofabitch Tremors (Writing Poems In Libis)
Thou. I can't think of a more romantic word. and who was the genius who first said "thou"? who distinctified another human being from all the other "it's" and realized that whoever that was, that first "thou" saw the world just as he did? and perceived him just as he perceived them? brilliant son of a ***** He, Whoever he was, was the first man to grasp true empathy. To identify with another human not as an object, or an animal, "but as another of himself" an extension of himself. himself. itself. thyself. It is one of the oldest existing words, and has not undergone any major change in tenthousand years. Perhaps this is evidence that we were, in fact, built in pairs. Which raises the question of who the first "thou" was and his relationship to whomever first said it. I like to think they were lying across from one another, he and his partner or she and hers and it occurred to one of them that the person opposite them saw them too. Thou art. as I am. Next must have come "we" or some variation thereof. Thou, I, thou and I. We. Us. What was the brilliant sonofabitch who first uttered "us"? I wonder if he died alone.
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Nov 6, 2013
Nov 6, 2013 at 12:35 AM UTC
Thou.
She knocks on his door in the pouring rain Shaking her umbrella, muttering an expletive, It's only half past ten but she knows he's inside "Open up, you sonofabitch!" A face glares through the red and white shutter "You know he's dead, you old witch!" "Just wanted to hear it one more time", she walks away, cackling wildly
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Oct 19, 2017
Oct 19, 2017 at 4:51 PM UTC
"Open up, Julian!"
It’s this recurring waking-dream, especially on these blustery nights. I can almost see the sheen of the mahogany surface of the bar top. I can almost feel the weight of the tattered rag that sits on my shoulder. Barryman’s is a place to come in from the cold. There’s always a fresh carafe on the burner of the Bunn machine. Or, there are stronger drinks. This is the place where you can talk to anyone about anything. And, no one is ever wrong, because we all know that we all know that everyone is full of **** but we like them and ourselves anyway. Well, there was that one time that one poor ******* got the boot. Everyone remembers that one. He was hollering about how Winston Churchill could’ve made a better cup of coffee in spite of his drink of choice being blackberry brandy and how Kafka was overrated. So, he was out on his self-righteous *** Oh, how he did howl for a while, this piss-drunk sonofabitch; but then we remembered that we’re all a bit like he was then from time to time. And, we retrieved him, his muffler, his hat, gave him some coffee, a copy of “Catcher”, and a seat by the fire. *** -JBClaywell © P&ZPublications
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Dec 26, 2016
Dec 26, 2016 at 10:05 PM UTC
Warmth On a Cold Night at Barryman’s