i lost myself in your eyes
but now you left
and i feel like
i am gone too

i knew i couldn't survive you
a second time
so instead of
waiting, suffering
i left

and for once
i'm not sorry

my therapist tells me
i should get rid of everything that's toxic in my life
however, i can't give up on you
since out of all the pain i feel
the one you cause
is the sweetest

i'm happy because i know
one day my body will dissolve into its atoms
and that's when i will reach
infinity

you were the first one to look at me
as if i really was someone
worth looking at

last night i couldn't sleep
so i went outside to meet
the moon and his stars

they always seemed so far away
but they understood me so well
i asked the moon about you
and he told me
as much as it hurts
i'll have to let go

and to dry my tears he explained
'little angels can't keep walking with the devil
hand in hand'

my love
please always remember
that even though i would instantly die for you
i will never live for you