I can't stop thinking of you
I can't get you out of my head
I feel so happy
When I see your face
And when I see your smile
I can't stop myself
I also smile
And I might even blush
You are so **** cute
Your smile is beautiful
I love looking into your eyes
And when I hug you
I can feel that you care
Everything about you
Is amazing

My eyes burn
They do every time
I cry
I cried multiple times
Trying to be happy
I hate doing this
Especially on your birthday
For that I say
I'm sorry

I love all the memories we share
And I don't want them to end
For you are my best friend

Watching you hate yourself more and more
Makes me die inside
I hate that I have to lie to everyone
Saying I am fine
That I'm ok
While I go to my room and cry
I can't see you like this without feeling this way

I try to be strong
When I see you cry
But I can't say anything to help
Because if I do
I would cry too


I can't even talk to you now without feeling guilty
And I can't even do anything to help


If you do go through with how you feel
And end your life
I could not be able to live myself
I can't live without you in my life
Please don't do anything to yourself

Because I will be there when you need me
And stay out of your way when your sick of me

I will try to be there when your blue
Because, I love you

I see these photos of these beautiful things
Even one of you sleeping
In the middle of the day

I know now that we won't
Talk almost at all this week
And that saddens me
But when I do get that call
Whenever it may be
Your voice will be the highlight of my day

I keep feeling myself
Falling into pieces
While I feel you falling
In another pattern
No matter what
I'll be here to pick you up
I'll pick up the pieces
And put you back together

I love you more than words can say
And I won't make you stay
If you feel the need
I will not fight out of greed
No
I'll fight because
I love you

I know the depression
Will make you think horrible dark thoughts
But those are lies
You will not hurt me
There is no way you could

I love you
And again I'll fight
To be able to never stop
Holding you tight
Please come here
I won't bite
I'll hold you
Until morning light..

So many people walking away
Why can't you stay?
     Can't you stay for a cup of Jo?
                    "No"
  Fine go ahead and go
          "I have to time"
                              "Time"
   Here I am trying to clime, and clime
I would spend every penny, nickel, and dime
                    That I have
    To spend a little more "time"
               with, you

I have lost someone
Someone that I loved
And cared for vary much
My best friend
Is now gone

I have no one
That I can trust
The only one I could trust
Is now ignoring me

She has someone
And
I'm alone
And afraid
Without her

I wish you could hang out all day
Just you and me
Sitting together
Wishing that this was reality
But it will never happen

Yes it will hurt me
Not being able to be with you
But I would rather see you happy

You give me something everyday.
I wait wondering
What the next one could be
It does not matter if it's small
Or if it's pointless
Every time
I see something
On my desk
I smile

I carry it around
With me everywhere
It makes me happy
Every time I see it
A gift you gave me
I absolutely love it

You asked me
"Why do you call me princess"
Well it's a number of things

One:
You are so beautiful
Not just physically
But mentally

I look into your eyes
I see who you really are
A beautiful women
I look passed the scars
And all the imperfections

But when you look at yourself
All you see are the scars
The imperfections in your skin
And in your head

I want you to see yourself
The way I see you
I want you to treat yourself
The way I treat you
As the beautiful princess you are

And one day
I will marry you, princess
I will become your prince

When I was younger I thought rainbows were the most beautiful things you could see,
But then I saw your face my whole perception of beauty changed for me.
When the darkness that surrounds me in the form of my friends,
Sometimes it takes me awhile to notice that there are nothing but dead ends.

To get me out of any bad situation all I can think of the light you have given me,
Your smile brightens up my day even when you've never tried to.
Your laugh fills the room and makes my every pore glow with glee,
How you do any of this without even trying I have no clue.

I smile every morning knowing I get to see you again soon,
And maybe one day I'll be able to do the same for you.
Until then every time I see you I will smile like a goon,
Because every day before this my love for you grew.

I love you
I care for you
I need you
Without you
I wouldn't know what to do

I kiss you
I miss you

Return to me princess
So, I can become your prince

We can live together
In our castle
Not filled with
Jewels and trinkets
But with laughter
Love, and kisses

No, it will not last forever
The laughter and fun
There will be down times too
But, we will be together

Helping in each others struggles
We will bring each other back up

I love you, Kagami
And I will never leave you
Please, come join me in the castle
:)

I feel sad
I don't know what to do
I think of you
And I am happy
But then I find
A way to be sad

I used to be
But seriously
I think I found the one
Maybe not the one I marry,
Or anything as scary
But I've fallen in love

I thought getting away
And being with others
Would make it stop
But no, it did not
I think of you
A lot more now that
I don't have the
Distractions I have at home
I wish I could tell you
That I miss you
And that
.......

I'm surrounded by
People that care
And want to help me
But I feel alone
And afraid
I have tried not to cry
But even here
I cannot hold it in
I run away from
My friend that wants
To help me and heal me
And hind in the corner and cry

I get help and hugs
People pray for me
And I accept them
But I don't know
If I deserve any of this
Why do you try to help me
When I am sad and crying?
Why do you care?
I am just another
Camp member
You don't know what is
Happening to me
Yet you want to help
Thank you but
I don't deserve such
Nice things

I put on a fake smile
Just so people won't
Ask if I'm okay
"Yeah I'm fine"
I would say if they asked
And give them a fake smile

You are my sunshine
I want to see you rise
With the amazing morning sun
And lie down with you
Setting with the sun
I shall watch you get brighter
Throughout the day
And shine the brightest with your smile
That only I can see

Watching you write
Gives me a feeling of delight
Doing what you're passionate about
While I look afar
Wanting to know just who you are

When I'm with you
I'm not asking for attention
But I love affection

Although I can't write like you,
You are something I expire too
Writing, prompts of stories you drew
And I'm watching, and thinking of you

Although I couldn't ask
When you did, like a swig of a flask
I was drunk by your words
And as high as the birds

They take her away from
Any thing they can
Just because they can
You want to take from her
And be an ******* to her
But Don't Take Her From Me!
You take from her and
Never give her a break
I love her and I want to see her
Now you are not just taking from her
You are taking from me
You take from her and it makes me hurt
But now you take from me
From both her and I
And I want to see you hurt

She has been taken away from me
For a day or two
But it feels like an eternity
And I don't know what to do

You bring light into my eyes
When I can only see darkness

I think about what would happen,
If someone could read my mind.
What if she could hear my thoughts?
Would she love me
Because I think of her so much?
Or would she be disgusted?
At how many times I sing her name in my head,
Because I like the way it sounds?

Would she smile at how beautiful I think she is,
Or find it repulsive,
That I can remember every detail of her face?

I tell her she's cute,
But if she knew how many times I've wanted to say she was,
But didn't,
Would she want to know?
And if she knew how many times I've written
"I love you"
In a text,
Just to erase it,
Would she say it back?
Or would she want to get away from me?

If she knew how depressed I feel,
How bad I can get.
With my past that I've hidden from everyone.
If she knew I hid my agonizing depression from her,
So I don't have her either worrying
Or hating my guts,
Because I should just, "Get over it."
Would she still want to see me?
I hide it from her,
So that I can focus on making her happy,
But is her not knowing
Still doing
What it's supposed to be?

Half of the things I think in my head
I can never put into words,
With my overactive anxiety.
So if she was able to read
Would it make a difference?
Would knowing the happiness
I feel whenever I see her,
Make her feel the same?
Or should I hang my head in shame?
Would knowing that I hide my overactive brain,
So I can share happiness with her,
So someone around her
Isn't depressing
Would she be happy in knowing I care?

I am right here for you

I never let the wind
Flow through my hair
I never actually
Gave a care
I always hid my pain
For nothing was to gain
Until I met you
You opened my wings
And I flew

The pain I felt in the past
Will not go away as fast
As I fell in love with you
I know I showed you my light
But you gave me the gift of flight

After you saved me
From drowning in my sorrows
I can't lose you
And not have us be together
To save one another from tomorrow's

I don't know why
I ask to talk to you later
When I know that
You will not text me again
Yet I still wait hours on end
For a text back from you

I've waited so many hours
For a text back
Just to have to wait until
The next morning
To text you

Why do you say
Ttyl
When you won't
I wait for that text
That will not happen
Every time you say it
But it never happens

And I'll still wait
Every time I ask
And
Every time you say it

I fell in love with you
I fell in love with all of you
Your heart and soul
Yes your body is beautiful
But what is inside is gorgeous
I love you so much
I will do anything for you

I don't know
What to do
Even though
I know you are there
For me
After what happend
I feel more alone

I fell in love
Wishing I could be with you
Wanting to help
To be with you all the way through
But if I get any closer
I will just make it worse

I'm sorry for all the trouble I have created
I have just been adding flame to the fire

I can't do anything to help
And every time I try
It makes me wanna cry
Watching you get more and more hurt
Makes me feel like I should fall into a hole of dirt
I always say I wanna be there
When something happens
But I'm making it worse with my actions
I will still be in love
That is just something I cannot get rid of
But if you need to push me away
I you need me to
I can turn around and go that way...

Words float
Through my head
Though they do not escape,
If I were to give them my voice
I'd be hanging
By the neck.

You pollute the room
With absent minded words,
Yet you expect an audience
To applaud
The things you spew.

Behind my back
Speaking words of wisdom,
Noone likes a prophet
Who can't open his mind,
Before his mouth.

I want to hold your hand
I want to pull you close
I want to hug you
And hold you tight
I want to kiss your lips
I want to make you laugh
And see your beautiful smile
I want to do something funny and cute
I want to see you try to hide your face
When you are blushing

I remember someone I once knew
You are no longer her
She has faded away with time
I sometimes see her deep inside
But no longer showing
Tucked away, she still finds her way out
Sometimes

But this new person is growing
More beautiful than before

What once was a wilting flower
Is now a new bud growing into
A beautiful flower
Lavender, sunflower, rose?
Who knows

But one day it will be fully grown
Yes it might wilt on the dry
Horrible days of its life
With the old self trying to break free
From its prison deep inside

But you are stronger now
And you can keep it from reaching the top
And decaying the beautiful outer flower

I wrote for the things
That would make me happy
Or because I was sad
And wanted to show my emotions
But now that I have her
And never plan to let her go
I have nothing to write about
I am so happy I cannot put it into words

I am so happy with her
But sad because I cannot write