with every breath
i sink a little deeper
thinking of death
I just want to
run away

I keep seeing this
beautiful angel
it burns my eyes
and my already
crushed heart

however
through these lace
curtains I watch
sitting and wishing
that angel would
come back

so graceful
and living life
i wish I could too
why can’t I stop
this infinite
drowning ?

a.d

and it is in the very loss of hope
that lucidity comes


--Watercolour

It is in the very feeling of hurt
That I begin
To feel
Nothing.


-- Eleanor

Under the light of a thousand stars , i stand alone...
And i console myself , not to cry anymore.
Who set out to gain but has won a loss...
A loving loss, a startling loss...
Who has survived taunts and grins.
Been hated, judged , but still held tightly close to the heart to feel it's trampled warmth..
And then one day , thrown out in a manner befitting an imposter..
Just when i had grown to cherish the impish grins,
Basked in the sunlight of abnormality,
Borne by a person who stands somewhere under these twinkling stars ,
Someone i bungled and tossed away......

Never wish for the end
Gonna stroke your hand
Give ya daises and roses
You smile passionately
Up fly our candles
Never cry when I am around
Gonna run us outta town
Let us burn this place down
You swig your drink
Down we go past the river of smoke
Never stop believing
Gonna stay with you I shall
Run around, declaring our love
Around this world
And every place beyond
Desert this cesspool
You blush and hide your face
Never cry for hatred, only passion
Gonna kiss your nose
Make you giggle again
You make me so happy
Cry as I give you tickles
Never stop living
Gonna grow old with you
Say our vows
Goodbye dark past
Never go back again
Gonna stay with you
Tell us soon
A couple of baby girls
Lie down as you kiss them
And be happy
Hurt will never happen again
You are the only one

Too tired I am to do anything,  
I've lost everyone , I've lost everything,  
Exhausted I am yet playing my role,  
I can stand up but what about my soul ?

I walk everyday smiling wide,  
A smile to fool , a smile to hide,  
For me to hide the joy that died,  
For me to hide the eyes that cried,  

Alone I sit ,  alone all the time,  
The sweet life I had turned as sour as lime,
Coffee in hand thinking of words to rhyme,  
I'm trying to get up, I'm trying to climb,

I can feel my heart's broken pieces,  
I do I wait but my sadness increases,  
It's as if my happiness, the sadness ceases,
Sitting and hoping sorrow releases,  


And I hope and hope and hope,  
And perhaps with hope I'm alive!!!

I
Must say
You're best
At how you beat me
With the very bit of mine imagination


For
A second
You make me
Want to think,I'm the greatest amongst your enemies
Yet
When I
Grasp you in mine arms
And proximate you on me
Shall you quiver yet not so long
And shall gasp to kiss on my lips


Truthfully
Now and then
Shall your sighs puzzle me
And for every bit voiced
Cram how you had want to gulp me
whole inside of you
And even how you can't live without me

Yet
I'm cloack
With remorse
For I feel I make you a bully of my love
And
Each now and then
Will  I listen to the words
You say and purge their fairness
To the very syllable

I
Had
Believed you whole
And mine eyes shall flood with tears forever
When I heard you say
He always make you ebb through
The beautiful blues skies and make you want
To catch the golden sunset
When you two make love
I
Had
Even believed
You thoroughly
And had sink into wild waters
Or probably drown into the deepest part
Of the abyss
And rest myself there
For an eternal self-torture
When
I heard you say
His touches make your heart beats faster
Than the rhythms of love played by a ghost
On a magic lyre

But
Then
Every word you uttered
Was a false figurine in your eyes
And
Again
By and by shall I peek the verity
They cloack your soul with
Like what they say
"The window to every soul is the eyes"

But
I may
Had Believe the very words
Your  tongue chimed
Yet then
I trust wholly in the verity your eyes spoke

The verity your eyes speak

©Historian E.Lexano

slowly
slowly
ill wait for you
you cant process
very fast
but your speed will do
for i love you
and though your sick
coughing and
sputtering
your still moving along

i love you
remember that
for when your feeling blue,
it can really show,
just take a breath
or two
or maybe just
a few
few
a few
more

the things
that block me from your eyes
its alright love!
i can see through them quite fine
dont worry
or try to change a thing
for i love you just the way
you are

your viruses and such
you think they just wont do
but , you see my love,
you have programs
that will have to do
their job to fix you
back to the way you were
but for now
ill love you
forever and more

your missing a few things
and some keys are broken
your mousepad just cant seem
to recognize that im trying to move
from one side to the other
but thats fine
not everyone can beat the fancy ones my love
for im typing this out to you
i love you
only you
i love you
just the way you are

KD2015 (c)

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