Ill be my own
poet.
I need no other
words
that are not my
own,
telling me of all
the greatness
inside my star
gasping
soul.


*Sandoval

When you finally
realize how heavy
a goodbye can feel;

only then, only just then,
will you understand
how no amount of hellos,

will ever once again
be real..


*Sandoval

You lit
a fire with the
intent
of burning the
world;
but ran away
when its
blazing
flames turned
gold.


*Sandoval

I really don't know what to tell you.
I try to be the best human I can be,  I
sometimes care too much, I care a lot
about many things;

and it makes me depressed..
I've been depressed ever
since I can remember,
and i'm just really sad most of the time..
and not being happy, is the most awful
thing I could do to myself..

So before I can love you,
I must first love the grey pieces of my
old, echoing soul.. and if you wait,
wait for the sun to replace the moon.

I will gift to you, the buried light inside
my dusted, shivering bones..


*Sandoval

This road was wide

enough to let you run away,
and help you find your way.

But never long enough to bring
you back home, and

make you stay..


*Sandoval

Without your voice,

calling my name. My

silent muse, I am

deaf to it all ..


*Sandoval

Poor girl,

sometimes you love so
much, so fiercley,

and so madly, that
you forget

not everyone is half as
mental as you..



*Sandoval

Do you remember, what it was like,
before you were born?
Before you came to this earth..

I don't. I have no recollection of who or what I was.
A million earth years could have passed by.
And yet, I still wouldn't remember who I was.
And I don't think I ever could.

This is how it feels. When you ask me,
who I was before you. My answer is, I don't remember.

There was nothing before you, nothing.
I was nobody before you, nobody.

You should have been called earth. 
 It is because of you that I live. And it is because of you,
that I see the whole universe' worth..


*Sandoval

Under the October
moon.

Is where the sunset
blues,

took my heartbreak
muse..


*Sandoval