Elusive thoughts and dreams, Permeant to the mind. Merely phasing through the realities of my soul. I loved the sickness of the mind, A dark murky cloud of an unpredictable storm. Pushing through the phases of that empty vastness, Drowning in a swirling mix of confusion, Spreading like a poison throughout the veins of a twisting, Winding, Painful injection upon the skin. Living through the soreness of a long familiar ache, Yearning for a peace that never quite settled.
Do know That when I put that ciggarete on my soft lips I've given up To the world's blunts and hits I've changed my motto to **** everything. Do know that when I inhale the devil's fragrance I'd probably be madly in love with him Like I've always been. Bathing in the world of what they call sin I'm loving it. But yes , Do know that when that ciggarete is smoked I've probably put down all my rules and walls Probably decided that life wouldn't end if I try its finest poisons.
Do you know what it means to be alone? Do you know what it feels to be on your own? No hand to hold, no shoulder to cry on No one to hug you when you come undone
I’m with friends but why do I feel so abandoned? Living life like a bullet without a gun, Like a sunset without the sun Thousands of songs still left unsung
I don’t know why they all left me Maybe, possibly, it’s because I’m a cheat Tried to keep those promises, believe me Just had to save a stranger, its in my nature
I guess I deserve everything and all of this Let me just wait until the poison hits Let me close the eyes no one will miss Let me lie here waiting for the dementor’s kiss
I could almost breathe you in, The way you glided easily through my heart. You knew the ins and outs, Twisting and weaving your way up from my ankles, To my abdomen, Squeezing. And even though you squeezed, I could feel my lungs expand and take you in like an intoxicating breath of fresh poison, Engulfing every part of me.
Honey, I'm falling down Hunted like a deer You shot an arrow Straight through my heart I wasn’t supposed to take a bite Of that poisoned apple Now it's stuck in my throat
This is a small verse from a song that I wrote about 3 years ago. I only managed to find half of the song though :( I wonder where the rest is...
I am sure that I am over you and in the most loving way possible- you should know there are nights where I cry in gratefulness to the universe for separating us you should know that your words are no longer honey on my tongue I am not the girl I used to be I'm not held down by the weight of another human and I no longer write poetry to decorate your poison before you, I never knew how to run away without looking over my shoulder but the moment we said goodbye it was like every memory faded with you and I know you waste minutes and hours looking for the smell of my perfume in between your lonely sheets but you won't ever find me there again
your memories aren't just memories, they are the slow poison for me, which i keep in a crystal flask, and every night, before i go to sleep, i open it up, and drink a little, for every poison has an ecstasy, and in your memories, i found mine.....
